A imprisoned soul

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The room is quiet, and the clock on the wall is ticking, which sounds like hypnosis.

In fact, what time it is now is not that important to him. At this time, the meaning of the clock is that he is still alive.

However, in the eyes of others, he is dead, or there is no difference between death and death.

He doesn't know how long he has been lying and why he is lying here. His brain went blank, during which all the information seemed to be deleted. That blank is like an endless desert. No, there are undulating sand dunes and sunset in the desert, but there is nothing there, not even a mirage.

Sometimes, he even feels that he was born here, and all the memories before the blank are made up by himself.

However, nothing is like this. In the morning, it was obviously his wife who fed him through his nose, although he could not open his eyes to see her face. But he can hear her voice. There is only sound in his world, that's all.

Every time he breastfeeds, his wife always tells him what he cooked for him today, such as whole grains, milk and eggs, and his favorite vegetables, just like talking to a child. She also took pains to ask him if he was delicious. The nasal feeding went straight to the esophagus, and he couldn't taste it.

However, that day his wife sat by the bed and held his hand. When talking to him, something dripped from his lips and flowed into his mouth, which was a little salty. If I guess correctly, it should be my wife's tears.

"Remember, we went climbing that year?"

"Climbing halfway up the mountain, I can't climb anything. You said you would carry me. "

"But, I am fatter and heavier than you. How can you hold it? "

"I said we won't climb. Let's go home. "

"You said no, you must climb to the top of the mountain and hang the concentric lock. You also said that I wanted to escape from the cold. "

"On that day, when the sun was about to set, we finally hung the concentric lock on the acacia tree at the top of the mountain and never separated again."

"But what are you now? Did the chicken run away? "

Just then, tears fell down. In normal times, when his wife is sad and crying, he always wipes away her tears and holds her in his arms. If he can shed tears, then his wife will know that he can hear and he is still alive.

But no matter how sad and moved he was, no tears came out, not a drop. His tears seem to have dried up, or his feelings and body can't be connected, just like being cut off.

His wife often puts her ear to his chest and doesn't know what she is doing. She may be listening to his heartbeat. If his heart is still beating, it proves that he is still alive.

Recently, my wife has become very busy and has less time to talk to him.

You can hear it from the surrounding sounds. She rummaged around the room, and her steps became very rapid. Telephone calls often come in. When answering the phone, my wife always runs to the balcony and closes the balcony door. Her heart seemed to believe that he could hear.

But he really wants to know who his wife is talking to, whether the other person is a man or a woman and who that person is.

After the phone call, his wife came in and sat next to him again. This time she didn't hold his hand, but he could feel that she was close to him. He could feel that her breathing was not so calm. She must be looking at him, looking at his face, and he seems to feel his wife's eyes, that kind of sad eyes.

For a long time, my wife just sat there motionless and sighed for a long time.

His wife came back late recently. Although he doesn't know what time it is, he can tell from the voice coming from the window that it is late at night. Because there are fewer and fewer cars outside, the music from the distant park has disappeared for a long time.

He began to worry about his wife's safety. He listened carefully to the movement of the door and his breathing became very light. He didn't breathe a sigh of relief until he heard the key inserted into the lock hole. My wife never comes back so late. What's wrong these days? He began to daydream and fill in all possible pictures.

That day, someone came at home and his wife answered the door. It's a man.

Two people are talking, and their voices are very light. They should be afraid that he will hear them. He wanted to know who this man was, but when he came in, they were already in the living room. The door is closed, I can't hear what I'm saying.

After a long time, there was a strange sound in the living room, as if something had hit the ground, and then there was the sound of two people pushing and wrestling. Then he heard his wife's roar, and this time he heard it clearly. It's "get out!" What followed was a crunchy sound, like the sound of a glass falling to the ground and breaking.

The man ran out and slammed the door. The wife cried, crying very sadly.

For a long time, his wife came in and lay on him, crying her eyes out. At the moment, he can't give her a shoulder to lean on, only his chest.

His wife is very helpless, and he can hear it. He began to hate himself, hating that he was powerless and could only lie here like a living dead. The wife is still young. If she is not such a burden, maybe she can remarry and find someone to rely on.

I remember when he was in the hospital, he just regained consciousness. He heard what the doctor and his wife said.

The wife asked, "Will he wake up again?"

The doctor said, "I don't know, maybe months, maybe years, maybe I'll never wake up."

In fact, he has always been awake, but he feels that the whole person is imprisoned by something, and his soul is locked in it, just like a nightmare. No matter how hard you struggle, you can't move.

His wife's attitude is getting worse. She often gets angry and loses her temper with him.

One morning, his wife touched his head with her hand and suddenly exclaimed, "Why is it so hot? Have a fever! "

"What should I do? What should I do? " The wife looked very flustered and at a loss.

Then she called the doctor and the doctor told her how to deal with it. When his wife took his temperature to take medicine, she accidentally spilled the medicine on his face. This medicine is very hot. When she wiped him in a panic, she accidentally knocked off the oxygen mask and nasal feeding tube.

After putting on an oxygen mask and inserting a nasal feeding tube, my wife began to become very upset.

She shouted at him, "Are you going to lie like this all your life?"

"You give me up! Hear it! "

"I hate you! Hate you! Hate you! "

"You promised to protect me all my life, but where is your courage, you coward, you bastard!"

His wife became more and more angry and hit him hard in the chest with her fist. Tired of playing, I put my head on his chest and fell asleep slowly. His wife didn't say a word, so did he. He doesn't blame his wife. She's right. Now he's a coward who chooses to run away. He's a total jerk.

He wants to find a breakthrough. He wants to get out of this cage that imprisons him, even for a moment. But this is just an extravagant hope, and the cage is unbreakable.

A few days later, his mother-in-law came.

Mother and daughter spoke in front of him.

"Give it up, son."

The wife didn't make any noise. After a while, her sobs came.

"Don't you want to live like this for a lifetime? The doctor said there was no hope. "

"What if a miracle happens?"

"There is no miracle, it is all a lie."

"But I always feel that he can hear everything and will wake up one day."

"Son, I know you can't bear to part with him, but you are still young, and the days ahead are still long. You have to think for yourself. "

"I understand."

"It's good that you understand."

"Give him a little more time, and then I'll make a decision."

He was a little confused. He doesn't know whether he wants to die or live now, although life and death make no difference to him. He asked himself again and again, will he wake up before his wife makes a decision? He really wants to say to his wife loudly, "I'm still alive, I'm still alive!" " "

After his mother-in-law left, his wife came to him and touched his face with her hand.

"If you don't wake up, we will leave this world together on our wedding anniversary." The wife's voice trembled a little.

"Look, I have all the medicines ready."

"Don't regret that day."

"If you are afraid, wake up early."

"There are still 105 days."

"I only wait for you 105 days."

His wife's words hurt him, and his heart seemed to be bleeding. He can't let his wife die with him, no.

He began to be afraid of the wall clock on the wall, and his voice seemed to suddenly become very fast, not the same rhythm as before, ticking. This is no longer like hypnosis, but like a death warrant. Time begins to count down.

He can't wake up, still can't.

His wife cares about him more and more. Like a child, he feels a little sick. He used to spoil her like a child, but now it's just the opposite. Shave, cut hair, wipe body, cut nails, have dinner every night and tell him stories.

Slowly, he began to stop worrying. Even if he didn't wake up, he was happy to be with his wife. He began to enjoy every day and last time.

But suddenly one day, he seemed to remember something.

Blurred images and intermittent sounds began to appear in that blank.

He and his wife seemed to have quarreled that day. When they came back from the movie, their wife received a phone call. He asked her who was calling, and she said hesitantly that it was a colleague.

When I want to sleep at night, my wife's mobile phone keeps ringing again, which is the prompt sound of WeChat, one after another. The wife was embarrassed and said it was a company matter. But his wife's expression seems to be hiding something. He peeked at his wife's mobile phone while she was asleep. All the previous messages were deleted, but there happened to be a new unread message that said, "I'll get off work tomorrow night and come to the door of your company."

Who could it be? The boss is a man, he doesn't know. He tried to peek at the other person's circle of friends, but found that only three days of content were displayed. He decided to visit his wife's company the next day.

In order to get off work in time, he hid behind a big tree in front of his wife's company. He saw her coming out of the door, standing in front of the company, looking around and looking at her watch from time to time. After waiting for about twenty minutes, a strange man came across and waved to his wife with a smile.

"How did you get here?" My wife is a little angry. I can see that the two should be very familiar.

"Traffic jam on the road. Did you bring anything? " Men love to play and laugh.

"I brought it."

His wife took a brown paper envelope from his bag and handed it to him. The man took the envelope, put it in his bag in a hurry, said a few polite words, and walked away side by side with his wife.

He wanted to follow him, but he happened to meet a red light and had to stand where he was and wait. The red light was on for about a minute and a half. Two buses passed in front of him one after another, blocking his view. When he was able to cross the street, he found that the two had disappeared.

Unable to find it, he had to give up and go home by car. After dinner in the evening, he wanted to take some money from the drawer of the cabinet and prepare to repay the mortgage the next day, but found that there was 5 thousand yuan missing. Usually, the monthly salary of two people is stored in the salary card, but at the end of the year, the company issued a bonus of 20 thousand yuan, which was given in cash. After you get the money back, you can always put it in the drawer and take it at will. Is there any money in the wife's letter?

In the evening, when his wife came back, he asked her obliquely, "Where did you go after work?"

"Working overtime in the company." The wife's expression is a bit unnatural.

"Have you eaten?"

"I have eaten."

"With whom?"

"And, with colleagues."

"Let me ask you something."

"What is it? Why do you look so serious? "

"Are you hiding something from me?"

"no!" The wife's eyes are a little dodgy.

"Today, I found that there seems to be 5 thousand less money in the drawer."

"Oh, I left in a hurry in the morning and forgot to tell you. My classmate Yuyu borrowed some money from me and I lent it to her. "

"Yuyu?"

"Yes, her mother is ill and needs an operation. Not enough money. "

It seems that she is lying. It was obviously a man, but she said it was jade. Why would she lie? He suddenly had an ominous premonition.

The next day is Friday. After work in the evening, several colleagues suggested relaxing and going out for a drink. Normally, if he doesn't go back for dinner, he will call his wife, but for some reason, he didn't tell her that day.

He was drunk that day because he couldn't drink and was absorbed. I don't know how I got home. He took out his key to open the door, but he couldn't open it. The key was about to break. After a while, I don't know whether the key or the people inside opened the door. He was going to walk into the room, but before he took a step, he felt a heavy object hit him on the head. His eyes went black and he didn't know what would happen next.

He knew that the heavy blow must have made him what he is today. But what hit him on the head and who hit him? Is it a wife or is there someone else at home? Is that the man? He kept thinking, the more he thought, the more confused he became.

I don't know how many days later, he felt that the weather was getting warmer. Because my wife opens the window every day for air, she can still hear the swallows chirping under the eaves.

No, the wedding anniversary is in spring, and this day is getting closer and closer.

He doesn't want to die with questions, he wants answers.

One morning, he felt a little different. He feels a little cold. He hasn't felt this way for a long time. Then he seems to see a beam of light in front of the bed, but he can't open his eyes yet. His eyelids seem to be stuck together.

My wife came in, and the footsteps sounded a little heavy.

She sat down beside him, took his hand and rubbed it gently on her cheek. Her hands are cold, biting cold.

The wife said, "Do you remember what day it is today?"

"Have you forgotten?"

"Three years ago today, it was our wedding day."

"Do you remember me wearing a wedding dress?"

"I remember that day I promised that no matter you are sick or healthy, no matter you are rich or poor, you will never leave you."

"But today, I want to break my promise. Sorry. "

Say that finish, the wife began to cry, her tears dripping on his hand, is warm. He felt very sad, his throat tightened, and something began to flow out of his eyes, especially tears. He finally shed tears, he cried! He can't stop crying. He wants his wife to see him cry.

Finally, the wife saw it and cried: "Are you crying? Did you really cry? You can hear me, can't you? "

"I know you can hear me! I knew you could hear me! " The wife jumped with joy.

Perhaps it was tears that made his eyelids moist, and his eyes could turn. A light came in and his eyes slowly opened! He finally woke up! He saw his wife's face. She is still so beautiful, but she is much haggard.

He wanted to say something, but his strength was weak and he could only make a small sound.

"Cher."

"I'm Cher and I'm here."

"Why am I lying here? What's the matter? "

"Ah, you were drunk that day, went to the wrong floor and opened someone else's door. People think you rob and defend yourself too much. "

"I see." It dawned on him.

"Why did you drink so much wine that day? You seldom drink. "

"Because ..."

"Because of what?"

"I can't remember." What a perfunctory way.

"How long have I been lying down?"

"Two years."

It is hard to imagine that he has been sleeping in bed for two years. "Reunion after a long separation", his wife has endless words for him, and she can't wait to tell him what happened in the past two years. From family to colleagues, to classmates, until I talked about Yuyu.

"Do you know Yuyu?"

"I know, your college classmate."

"Divorced last year."

"Why?"

"She was cheated, and there was a rich man beside her, in her sixties, about the same age as her father. I said I was not afraid of your jokes. My ex-boyfriend was robbed by her. "

"Her ex-husband is your ex-boyfriend? Why haven't I heard you say that? "

"I'm afraid you are unhappy."

"Do you still love him?"

"This is all a thing of the past. I don't love it for a long time, but ... "

"But what?"

"There's something to tell you. Before your accident, he borrowed 20 thousand dollars from me. I know he often gambles and doesn't want to borrow him, but he says Yuyu's mother needs an operation and the money is not enough. I was dubious at that time, but I called Yuyu, and her mother was really ill, so I lent her the money. But I saved one hand and only lent him 5 thousand. Sure enough, it hasn't been returned to me. He should have lost everything. You won't blame me, will you? "

"Is that the man who met you at the gate of your company?"

"How do you know?"

"Sorry, I read your WeChat."

"In fact, we haven't contacted for many years. It may be that we lost all our money gambling and remembered me. "

"Well, don't say others, tell me about yourself. Did I have a hard time during my illness? "

The wife didn't speak, her eyes began to turn red and tears flashed.

"It's all over. I hope you are awake. "

"I thought if you lay like this again, I would sell the house and live in a small house, which would save some money. But I can't find my room card. It took me several days to find it. Later, I remembered that you put it in a file bag on the shelf. "

"The house is sold?"

"You woke up before you could sell it." The wife began to giggle.

"You resigned?"

"Yes, I can't work all day. I can only go to McDonald's to do hourly work at night. Because of this, you can earn money and take care of you. "

"Has anyone bullied you this time? I heard someone come to our house that day, and you seemed to beat him away. "

"So you can really hear. I want to sell my house, so I made an appointment with an agent to look at it. The man listened to my words and touched me when he saw me alone at home. I hit him on the forehead with a cup and lost a lot of blood. I had to get a kitchen knife, but he scared away! Your daughter-in-law is not easy to bully. " Say that finish, the wife smiled, and then began to cry.

"However, this is good, you are awake."

Yes, he finally woke up. Slowly, all parts of his body began to wake up. His hands moved, his feet moved, and his whole body broke free from the cage.

He looked at his wife's face and the smile on her face. She was like an angel, saving his angel.

He owes her two years of love and two years of companionship, and he must pay her back twice.