Did my father mean it when he said I was ugly?

I didn't mean to. Anyway, I know they love you, but it's still hard.

Today, at the dinner table, my father talked about me while eating. One minute he said my face was ugly when I smiled, and the next minute he said my face was always covered with pimples. What bothers me most is that he said that he can wear glasses to cover his face at ordinary times. As soon as he said this, I threw down my chopsticks and went out to drink water, fearing that I would return some ugly words to him the next second and break his heart.

Every time I hear them say this, I feel inexplicably wronged. To tell the truth, I'm not beautiful. Is it my pleasure to grow up like this? Girls who don't want to be beautiful.

Since they made me like this, even in the past 20 years, I have gradually accepted it. Why should I cover up the bad and ugly in turn? I have worked hard for so many years since I realized that I am not beautiful. I want to raise my head calmly, expose myself generously, and look into other people's eyes generously, but my closest relatives want me to cover myself. This is not to tell me that people who are not good-looking will feel inferior for life.

Today's meal is terrible. A few days of good mood swept away, and nothing was said at the dinner table. When washing dishes, I secretly wiped my tears for a while. I don't know why I was treated like this because I was ugly. I tried dressing up, but my natural hardware couldn't keep up with me. Because I am ugly, no one cares how many books I have read, and my relatives' smiles are always ambiguous. Boys you like never dare to get too close.

Ugliness is actually a very tired thing. I'm not really a lonely person. I really want to find a boy I like. I really want to meet some hard things that are not lonely. I'm afraid I'll be alone when I'm old.

But for so long, no one likes me, and they dare not like others, as if their likes are offensive to others, so they force themselves to get used to liking a person's state, do everything by themselves and not disturb others. Although there are many friends, there are some words that you can't even say to your friends.

However, some natural personalities cannot be changed. Sometimes, when a person walks on the road tired, looking at the dark sky, he really wants someone to help him, hoping that someone can accompany him to talk about his heart. It's really depraved to think so and convince yourself helplessly. How can you pin your happiness in life on others?

I'm already very tired. It really feels like being stabbed to say such a thing from the mouth of your closest relative. After washing the dishes, I was afraid that they would be worried, and I wiped my tears and tried to smile and talk to them.

Although they didn't mean to say I was ugly, it was chilling to say so from the pro-population.