How to deal with past experiences and feeling like a failure. It's just a joke in the eyes of others

Don’t care too much about other people’s opinions when you’re alive. You can’t control others if you talk about them. All you have to do is study well and make sure that you can live a better life in the future than anything else. Did your parents give birth to you so that you would be bullied by others? You are also a human being and you need human dignity. You were too cowardly in the past. In the future, you must stand up and be a human being and maintain your dignity. When others respect you in the future, even if there are rumors about you in the past, others will not talk nonsense in front of you and look down on you. Also, the first impression is very important. Seize every opportunity to let others know your excellence and your abilities. After you are capable, if any gossip comes out, others will treat it as a joke. In short, what other people think is You created it yourself. Everything you say and do represents your ability, character and identity as a person. If you don’t want to be looked down upon by others, you must respect yourself first and have the ability to look down on others. When you stand on the top of the mountain, no one will say anything. What you say, only what you say to others