Essay

Jiaozi purse spring rolls, everyday, impermanent. Keep a spiritual dimension, then everything related to you will be reborn and walk out of extra fresh life.

1

I was pushed into the "Gastroenteroscope" room of Konka Hospital.

From the waiting room to the diagnosis and treatment area, the distance of just over ten meters, masks and white coats, moving quickly beside the arm with salt water, made my head dizzy instantly.

"A little nervous, sweaty palms." The smile of the female doctor comes from the mask, which is slightly humorous and awkward. "It's always like this when you do it for the first time. It doesn't matter, just sleep. " Her local accent and gentle tone calmed me down a little.

"Come on, straighten your left foot, arch your right foot and lean back as far as possible." The male doctor on the right side of the hospital bed said to let me settle down comfortably. His concise and professional speech and gentle tone clearly exposed his expert status in a well-known hospital. A few minutes ago, I hung bottles in the preparation room. He stood in front of my hospital bed with a list, as if to ask, "You have high blood pressure. You are still young. "

I said I took medicine. It is normal.

"It is normal to take medicine. How long has it been? " Experts seem to have a unique truth and care for patients. "Is there any diet and exercise conditioning before taking the medicine?" Experts continue to ask, seems to have some regrets-maybe some things, from his professional point of view, can be saved through hard work.

I've been talking about it for three years, but it was not high before, the critical point ... I also talked about the physical examination at work, and the doctor said that I ate a little early ... I don't know why I said so much, and what does it have to do with gastrointestinal endoscopy.

"Relax, just sleep for a while." As soon as his voice fell, I didn't realize his warm kindness, and my left hand was anesthetized unconsciously. After a few seconds, I don't know anything.

This is exactly what I have been anxious and worried about. In the time and space of general anesthesia, like a suffocating night, the faint sky light, the world is like an erratic cloud, and people can't control it at all. Although some part of my body is being probed by various instruments, even if there is pain, it is a kind of pain I don't know. I have never been an anxious person, as can be seen from my proper weight, but this time is an exception.

My friend gave me an appointment twice, and took pains to convince me and dispel my doubts, but I didn't expect to stand up. For the first time in my life, a tube, no matter how soft, entered your gastrointestinal tract through the throat or the back door. Anxiety is a daily experience. Is it becoming more and more common in 2 1 century, especially for middle-aged men like me? Life has always taught us how to live in the world, how to be alone with our hearts and how to reconcile with the world. How much do I know about daily life?

I'm a little worried about going to the toilet more than usual after the spring. "Do a check, rest assured." Eldest sister-in-law A Qing urged her many times in her ear, but I finally beat her, so I had to bite the bullet and go.

Wear a mask, take your temperature, light the code, register and check. From routine biochemical examination, electrocardiogram, blood routine examination, helicobacter pylori, to 48-hour nucleic acid detection, the number is small, just a few departments. Results Many indicators have no arrows, and even if they do, they are much better than the previous physical examination. It can also be regarded as an alternative gain in anxiety, which has stabilized the morale of the army and can't help exulting.

2

Talk about the diet and eating method of the day before to clear the stomach. It's really a bit difficult for a person who has no self-discipline.

"I will cook noodles for you, and I will eat fried rice with eggs myself." When Mrs. A Qing said this, I muttered, "You wait for the next person to sit in the living room and eat, and stay away from me." I hate dinner without free choice.

Sister A Qing sat opposite me, carrying a bowl of fried rice with eggs, four dumpling wrappers, a jar of radish strips, a bowl of garlic-flavored bacon and a bowl of fried dried beans. Compared with a bowl of smooth noodles and a plate of moldy tofu in front of me, her dinner was rich and appetizing enough. My mind suddenly flashed a funny picture of the Tik Tok couple, who were "the first day of the Cold War" and "cooking for themselves".

"Don't eat vegetables, fruits and the like ..." Doctors and friends have repeatedly told me.

I was surprisingly calm and bowed my head to enjoy this exclusive bowl of noodles. An unbearable calmness and strong self-discipline resounded magnificently here: "So, so, one person, I am alone", which also prepared me for another kind of anxiety-cleaning my stomach. Three packs of pineapple taste slightly sweet "He Shuang": 8 pm, 1000ml take warm water; ; It's a little scary to drink 2000ml at 3: 30 in the morning.

I soon calmed down, boiled the water myself, adjusted the temperature and filled myself with beer. Nothing is difficult except bloating. It was agreed to drink it in an hour and swallow it all in less than ten minutes. While watching the news, I walked around the coffee table, and my "sister" followed me as if to accompany me through a difficult journey. Sister-in-law A Qing is busy in the kitchen. She cooked the bamboo shoots pulled by her father-in-law from the mountains with pickles and bacon, and invited me to have a good meal tomorrow.

After patient and professional education on World Sleep Day, Aqingsao finally agreed to go to bed at 10: 30, and her mobile phone consciously stayed in the living room. This is a good start. If it lasts and becomes a habit, you're finished.

So I chose not to disturb her. Deep sleep is particularly important for women's health. At three o'clock in the morning, I quietly moved to the living room. Boiling water, adjusting the temperature, making powder, swallowing dates, walking back and forth in the living room and bathroom, once, twice ... the pleasure of rushing to the back door, the competition in the stomach, and the growing sleepiness are intertwined.

"The night is always too long." I am covered with a blanket, holding a book and brushing my mobile phone. To my surprise, Mrs. A Qing walked into the living room in her pajamas. "Go to bed." Maybe, she worried all night.

This night, destined to sleep as usual. ...

three

"No polyps." When I woke up from anesthesia, the first thing I heard was good news. There is a joy of being found, at least for the time being, without worrying about some kind of instrument tumbling in the gastrointestinal tract. Of course, there are still proctitis, chronic non-atrophic gastritis with erosion and other diseases in the report form of electronic enteroscopy, but this is not so worrying.

"Don't worry." Mrs A Qing took my hand as if I were her illness and she was my medicine. We walked out of Konka Hospital with a calm heart. I'm so hungry that I want to eat something. Mrs. A Qing said that in the rice cooker, I was dating rice porridge.

At the moment, I am lying on the cushion of the study on the seventeenth floor, and the sunshine through the window shines on the whole person, which is a little bright and warm. If it is a weekend, such a day is beautiful. How leisurely it is to read the overseas edition of essays or literary newspapers that have just been received. At the moment, I think I need to be quiet for a while, just for a while, have a rest, and I have to go to work. Mrs A Qing has been with me for half a day, and she has to go to the store.

Only when I am quiet, will I think of my truth and triviality, and my heart will expand little by little. I am welcoming the spring, and then I can go out by myself, find the leisure place of the spring breeze, just like when I was a child, and run out happily, and immediately, immediately, return to the spring to welcome every future. After all, many things have to be experienced before you can suddenly realize.

Everyday is as usual, and impermanence is also everyday. People entering the secular world, like a tiny metaphor, deeply experience anxiety and calm, sadness and joy. You must explore and introspect, and keep a spiritual dimension. Then, everything related to you will be reborn and come out of the extra fresh life.