Make yourself a specimen

I want to nail myself to the plastic foam board with pins one by one, let the blood drain, let me struggle, I will never move, and finally hang it in the museum like a butterfly specimen , if someone doesn’t know what a butterfly looks like, it’s best to go to a museum to see it. The butterfly is just like the one in the picture frame.

Do you want to make yourself a specimen?

Yes, you can live longer that way. I think people should live by role models in order to live longer, at least in the minds of the world. But when I took a serious look at myself, I found that not only was I unworthy of being a role model, but I couldn’t even be a bad person. When I was thinking about how I could change myself, I recalled that when I was in high school, in the middle of my evening self-study class, I would go to a place where no one was around and punch the wall with my bare hands until my hands hurt and I couldn’t feel anything. But in the end, I still couldn’t control myself. Heart, so this time I will nail myself to the wall with needles, needle by needle, unable to move.

So you want to make yourself better?

No I don’t just want to be better, I want to be a great person.

Is it to live longer? Is this the meaning you give to your life?

I want to live longer.

In fact, you are just pursuing fame and fortune.

No, I just want to nail myself to the wall. I can’t control myself. I can’t live a good life.

Can you live a happy life by nailing yourself up? Living butterflies have lived a complete life, breathing fresh air, eating nectar, courting, and mating. Do you think they are unhappy alive? .

They are very happy, but they don't know that they will become dust when they die, and the specimens will always hang on the wall.

Specimens can also break.

At least live longer.

Then are you willing to give up quickly for the long term?

I don’t want to

So you haven’t thought clearly. In fact, you can’t make a specimen because you haven’t thought about it. Better not to nail yourself to the foam.

How can I nail myself to Styrofoam.

Do you think you can become a specimen by nailing yourself up? You hesitate, hesitate, and you don’t even know the meaning of specimens. You are just envious and jealous. Some people will be remembered forever, some will live in the present, and some will make sacrifices. You, someone has harmed others, and you are just a poor person who doesn't know anything. You want something good when you see it, and give up when you encounter difficulties. Overtly, I screamed that I am who I am, but secretly, I didn’t dare to look anyone in the eye. Everyone else is walking forward with their heads lowered. Only you are looking around, at a loss.

I am a poor thing(?_?). I am also moving forward, I run no slower than others.

I am not emphasizing that others are better than you, I just want to tell you that people who you think run and crawl are also crawling, climbing harder than you, and climbing more determinedly than you.

How do I know what others are thinking? I think they are just looking around and following everyone. Others are fake and their minds are all my imagination.

Your brain is an illusion, a joke played by nature.

Descartes told me that I cannot doubt my thinking. This is illogical. The thinking me must exist. Doubt itself is necessarily true.

Do you believe it? Do you want to live in doubt?

No, I just want to live as a specimen.

But why are you, don’t you know that the specimen is not nailed alive, but dead before being nailed?

I’m just trapped, I’m doing it A job I feel I don’t like.

Why don’t you like it?

Because I think that even if you get a promotion and a raise and become a leader, you still drink and socialize all day long.

So you just don’t like drinking and socializing.

Yes, I want to be a writer, and I want to support myself by creating stories.

You may not be able to support yourself. You have rarely passed the Chinese language since you went to school. Don’t you believe in talent? You don’t even use a punctuation mark correctly. You can’t tell stories. Everyone else thinks of your jokes. It's a tragedy.

At least there is no need to socialize or drink.

You are right, at least there is no need to buy a house or think about marrying a wife and having children. Isn't it just a drink? Isn't it that scary?

I think wine is not good. Drinking too much can easily damage your brain and cause you to lose your rationality as a human being. Smoking is not good either. If you smoke, you will lock yourself in a cage. If you want to light a cigarette at any time, it is like releasing yourself from the cage.

So you have to quit smoking. You want to pin yourself down to become a writer.

Yes.

Can you guarantee to support yourself?

No

Can you guarantee that you will not change your mind?

No

Do you think you are suitable?

Appropriate

Do you know yourself clearly?

Not sure

Do you understand what to do?

Clear

Do you still want to nail yourself?

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Yes, to become a writer