Have you ever had someone's first love?

Maybe everyone will have a chance to be someone else's first love.

I've been thinking that if I hadn't been cheated just after I went to college, wouldn't I have become someone else's first love?

I fell in love with my boyfriend for three years in high school. We were together in sophomore year. After graduating from high school, repeat one year. He went directly to junior college, and we fell in love for a year. But in fact, our relationship was in jeopardy that year. Because the repeat class is very busy every day, we have little contact, and he has entered a new environment, so the time devoted to me is less. The consequence of ignoring contact is that we seldom have the same topic on the phone, but I still think I can stick to it and be together.

Three months before the college entrance examination, he contacted me and told me that he wanted to be alone and leave them alone. After the college entrance examination, he told me that I couldn't let go and wanted to be with me. This was neither good nor bad until I applied for a school in Beijing and ended our relationship early. The real ending was a mistake. I found him cheating. So we said goodbye before I entered school.

This relationship has a great influence on me. Everything is really easy to say during the day, but at night, when the mobile phone arrives, there are no phone calls and text messages, and my roommate is chatting with her boyfriend in a different place, I feel particularly miserable at night. Then before going to bed, my brain began to play back the memories of two people together. The more I think about it, the more I can't sleep ... I realize that the only way to let go of this relationship is to transfer!

Before long, the University Cultural Festival began, which is a quite common activity. But a boy did something unusual for me.

At that time, the activity was divided into several sections, and I accidentally glanced at it when passing by the venue. There is a love card activity, you write what you want to say to someone with an address, and the student union members will send it there. I didn't notice. I didn't expect to receive such an ordinary card in the evening. He didn't say anything special on the card, just a simple greeting. He wrote to everyone in our dormitory. I really didn't take it to heart at that time.

That night, he asked me on WeChat if I had received the card. After I answered him, he asked me if my writing was good. I said it would be better if you wrote like me. I meant to miss Doby. After all, the boy I like is really not his type. But he's really serious. He said, "What are you talking about? I don't understand. " So I told him that it would be better if it was a confession card. It may be the first time for him to see me. He told me that he was a little confused and needed to calm down. Let me give him time to think.

I didn't expect him to think that I was confessing to him and promised to try with me. To be honest, I'm confused, too. I feel that I have confessed inexplicably, but I feel very interesting and decided to continue. After all, the two boys I have dated before are not this type of schoolmasters. I hope he can let me out.

I'm really tired after being together. Is he the first love or the schoolmaster? Falling in love is really convenient and stupid. Even holding hands should be considered. Finally, I took the initiative and never talked to me again. I ate and went out to play. But when they are together, it is a kind of fate. So I started to take the initiative. On the one hand, I want to feel the feeling of my ex-boyfriend, but I am indifferent. On the other hand, I want to feel the result of sincere efforts.

I started chatting with him often on WeChat, and I waited for him to eat. No matter which teaching building or classroom he is in at night, I am used to accompanying him and going out to play together on weekends. QQ Space leaves messages for him every day. I have tried all these things that I have never taken the initiative in love before. He made me angry, ignored me, didn't return my messages, and didn't sit next to me in class. I promise I won't argue with him if I can't do a good job. I'm trying to see how well I can play the role of girlfriend and how much I can give him.

My friend said that I didn't look like a person in love, as if I was fulfilling my obligations and making up for my regrets.

But in fact, I know that I am a very slow person. A large part of the reason why my last relationship ended in vain was that I never took the initiative to care about the person who had been kind to me, so I attributed the unforgettable reason to my debt to my last relationship, so I never forgot it. I hope Xueba won't heat up slowly. I don't understand either. I hope he can feel it and get hot. If two people are together, one of them is always like ice, then the other will be cooled even if it is heated again.

Slowly, I can feel his devotion. He will wait for my lunch and go to the canteen with me, and will not go to the classroom to find him at night. He will occasionally ask me where I am. When chatting, tell him that I will change my mind and he will be angry. He will take the initiative to cross the road by holding my hand, kiss me while drinking too much, send me back to the dormitory and want to go to the zoo for a date.

He was drunk at the class party, and we sat on the edge of the lawn to sober him up, but he suddenly kissed me, very active. I took the initiative to get used to it, and I wouldn't let me go. I can't push him Finally, I was bitten by a lot of mosquito bags on my arms and legs. The next day, he will silently give me a mosquito bag, saying it doesn't itch.

When we went to Beihai Park to play, we sat by the river and chatted. He insisted on feeding me potato chips, that is, holding them in his hand and feeding them to me. I thought it was inappropriate for people to come and go, but he insisted on letting me feel the cucumber taste of potato chips in the wind. Finally, I kissed him, but he was embarrassed and dull. I said I would eat like this. In fact, I especially hate cucumber-flavored potato chips, which are greasy, but the taste that day should be the most unique I have ever eaten.

We went to military training in the summer vacation. I think that time was the best time in this relationship. Although we are very hard and tired, I think he already needs me. My mobile phone was broken at that time, and he lent me one of his mobile phones. Every day during my lunch break, he sends me short messages and sometimes asks me out for a walk. I remember one day when we were chatting outside at noon, he still disliked how I got so tanned. Later, when we were going to part, we stayed with the rogue and insisted that I hug him before leaving. I said I wouldn't hug him, and he said, do you miss me? Like a child, he looks serious and asks for answers and hugs.

Although he has no love experience, he will still do things that move me. He made a half-joking and half-confessing remark, saying that his mind was full of water, and mine was full of it. I still think this strange confession is quite touching after listening to it. He worked hard to earn money. When he planned to travel, he took me out for half a month and four days, and all the expenses were paid by him. I think this level is really enough. But I didn't expect that this would be our only and last trip. He will become a soldier. ...

He left school in September and asked me to see him off. I didn't come. I said I would wait for him, but he didn't have to. He said he would break up ... he left a letter to everyone in the class, but I didn't ask for it in the end, because I knew he would tell me again not to wait for him in the letter. Break up!

Two years is also fast and slow. He contacted his buddies, friends and relatives, but he never contacted me. I don't think he likes me, so he hasn't contacted me. Later, I heard from gay friends that he liked my roommate and always liked her. He also contacted me when he went to the army. I think this relationship is ridiculous. When I didn't know it, I told my roommate and dad about it, and at the same time I was looked at by the person you really love.

Seeing the photos taken before, I still feel pain when chatting with screenshots. This relationship may be inexplicable at first, but I have always been 100% committed. I didn't want to have regrets, but I didn't expect to make a joke. Being unloved is still as sweet as a child stealing candy. Suddenly understand. ...

So you don't know love, you don't know love, but you don't love me.

I don't want to be your first love at all, because I didn't impress you.

He didn't contact me when he came back yesterday, which should be the best performance of letting go. ...

If you told me from the beginning that you didn't love me, why did I start?

? He doesn't love me. It was too cold when I held hands.

Not close enough to hug.

He doesn't love me. What he said is not true.

When you are silent, you are too careful.

I know he doesn't love me

His eyes tell his heart.

I saw through his heart, and I saw through the back of others.

? His memory is not clean enough.

? I saw his heart. It's all about him and her movies.

He doesn't love me, but he still won my heart.