I often feel unhappy and make people laugh. I am supposed to be better, so sometimes I don't want to communicate with others.

"So you are still here." The woman was transferred to the man's school when she was in high school. The man was attracted by the glimpse of the woman in the second year of high school, but he searched in the dark for a year and didn't know who she was until they were assigned to the same class in the third year of high school. Then their love began to unfold. Going around, the two have been on and off for more than ten years, during which the process is tortuous, but it is very real, giving people a lot of feelings and worth seeing. I don't know why I love So You Are Still Here. Is it my tortuous complex or Cheng Zheng's insistence? I always think that a good romance novel should make us feel sad when we are young. Here are the sentences that I think touch me more. Wedge: Su Yunjin: Actually, I haven't often thought of him these years. The city is not too big, but I have never seen him. If we meet again one day, my only wish is-I hope he is unhappy. Cheng Zheng: I have never regretted leaving you. However, no matter how far I go, I always believe that I will get you back one day. We were confused when we were young, but fortunately, we went for a walk, so you are still here. Text: This girl always shrinks herself into a light gray shadow, habitually purses her lips and lowers her eyes. Many times, she is silent and introverted, and it is easy to ignore her own existence and the existence of others, including him. She never appeared on the court where girls cheered for him; He deliberately walked past her seat countless times, and she never shook her hair for him; Sometimes he would rather sit patiently and listen to the girls who are not even sure about offside talking about football, hoping that she can have a look at the hot spot, but she never does. Su Yunjin, Su Yunjin and Cheng Zheng like this name, and it has a lingering smell when they spit it gently on their lips. But with what, she set fire to his world, but she was calm? Why? You remember someone so deeply, but that person doesn't feel anything. This has never happened to Cheng Zheng. Even if the forces are mutual, the chemical formulas are equivalent. Shouldn't all energy be conserved I don't want anything, I just don't know how to make you look at me. All the time. Why should I be sad? Who stipulates that Cinderella must be saved by the prince? Fairy tales only say that Cinderella and the prince lived happily ever after, but no one has ever studied how humble that happiness is. No one asked Cinderella if she wanted to, and no one asked her if she loved the prince. It seems that as long as she puts on suitable glass slippers for her feet, she should return to the palace with the prince in gratitude, and then stay in fear forever in happiness. Without his rescue, she might still be dancing by the cold river. But what if Cinderella meets an ordinary fisherman? They fell in love, and then she left her stepmother's house to be with him. Then there will be no Cinderella in the world, only a princess that fishermen will always love. And she, Su Yunjin, may be silent and humble, but she is the princess in her heart. So she doesn't want Cheng Zheng's condescending feelings, don't be Cinderella envied by others, and don't listen to anyone. You see, how lucky Su Yun was loved by Cheng Zheng, why no one ever said how lucky Cheng Zheng was to love Su Yun. A flower and a world, a leaf and a bodhi, Cheng Zheng is a favored son of heaven. However, even if she is a weed on the roadside, she is unique. Feelings are really overbearing things, right? It won't ask you why, and it won't ask you the other way around. I know him and have liked him since I was a child, but it's not as good as ten months after you appeared, and he just identified you, and ten horses couldn't be pulled back, so I became an out-and-out' other' and could do nothing. Just because she knows something doesn't mean she wants to be mentioned. He can not accept it, but why trample on it? That day, she said, I gave this back to you. Cheng Zheng buried his head in the pillow. Su Yunjin, what do you want to give me back? Xia chong can't talk ice, and he will never understand the world she lives in. Some things can't be touched even if the heart is scarred. Sometimes reason tells us to do something sober and correct, but feelings run counter to it. I thought you just couldn't love me yet, but you just couldn't love me. You can be so disappointed that Ziyi has a girlfriend, and you can find a satisfactory boyfriend at school so soon. Why not give me an explanation? Let me go. Bodhisattva is watching. But Bodhisattva can't see how sad I am. I may not suffer as much as you do, but no matter what background people have, whether they are rich or poor, there is no difference in their expectations of love and being loved. Don't use this reason to say that we are not suitable. Be fair to me. I'm just an ordinary person. I may feel lucky to have a boy who has loved me like you, but I have worked too hard with you. The love I want is equal, but you can't even give me the minimum respect ... Don't worry, I know you have tried your best to be good to me. You didn't mean to be condescending, but the ground we stepped on was not at the same height, so I stood on tiptoe. The other day, you asked if it was possible for us if you were willing to change your temper. My answer is: you don't need to change for me. You are very kind, but not suitable for me. If you can meet someone who suits you, such as Meng Xue and others, you will be happy. Love makes us walk on thin ice. She is not qualified to let those who love her walk on thin ice. Su Yunjin, do you know what I hate most about you? If you keep everything in your heart and say nothing, will you be angry and have feelings? It's always been like this, as if you were suffering from me. What I want is a lover with flesh and blood. "After so many years, you still don't love me, and you can be so calm." A thing that he has been afraid to think about and face, and now he has said it himself, he has a kind of relief. What should a twenty-seven-year-old woman look like? Just like a rose, at the moment of blooming, every petal stretches to the extreme, and the next moment is dying. Su Yunjin touched her face with her hand for more than three years, forty-one months to be exact. How long has it been since she thought of that person, that voice? She opened the drawer and found that there was only one aquamarine earring left in her hand, which was cold and stinging. I still hear what he said when he put the earrings on her, but the day he left was in such a hurry that she lost the other one after all. She and Cheng Zheng lost each other. Cheng Zheng, Cheng Zheng ... A man who was once as close as flesh and blood has long been lost in the sea of people. She doesn't remember the details of that night's separation. People's memories will protect themselves, except that she walked out of his house and never met again. A city can be big enough to drown two people? God can let two people who love each other meet at the ends of the earth, but he didn't arrange for them to meet in the same city. The long four years must be to punish them for not loving deeply enough. How can I love deeply? In the first two months after the breakup, his shadow was everywhere. Su Yunjin always sees a familiar figure in every corner, every turn, and in a trance. Every night, he exists in dreams and nightmares. Just gradually, it faded. Time is a terrible thing. It can smooth everything, scrape off the traces of good and bad in my heart, leaving only vague scars. Later, she missed him less and less, and finally she couldn't even dream. Maybe Cheng Zheng is right. She is an unfaithful person, so she should be grateful, because the pain will be much less. However, on one occasion, Mo Yuhua said to her intentionally or unintentionally: "From a medical point of view, losing pain is actually morbid and quite dangerous, because if a person doesn't know what pain is, then he doesn't know how sick he is." Sometimes Su Yunjin envies the hero in TV series, and his feelings are hurt, so he walks away decisively, wanders around the world, and returns to his hometown after many years. It is a different world. But she is not the heroine on TV. In reality, traveling around the world also needs capital. Most people are as ordinary as her. After being frustrated, I rolled in the mud, got up in the same place, wiped my face, and dragged one leg forward. Since she is not dead, she should live a good life. She has to eat and support her family, and she is not qualified to indulge in sadness. In fact, over the years, I seldom think of him. This city is not too big, but I have never seen him. If I meet him again, my only wish is that he is unhappy, at least not happier than me. Because I haven't put it down yet. Most of the time, I hate him ... but most of the time, I love him A year or two ago, I didn't want to go to him because I couldn't forget the original injury. I thought that even if two people were together again, no one forced us to separate, but we didn't know how to love each other. It's not a misunderstanding or a coincidence that I broke up with him. It's only a matter of time. Later, I gradually figured something out, but I was afraid to look for him. I'm afraid there is someone else around him. I'm afraid he left me but found happiness. People who used to be as close as a part of my body are in my sight, but outside my life. Just thinking about it is chilling enough. It's better not to see them, at least you can deceive yourself. Accustomed to it, I can still live well without him, and I will have my own life. "... you still don't love me after all, so you can be so calm ... Let's break up, Jin Yun ..." For more than three years, the past events that she tried hard not to think about seemed to reappear, and the voice haunted her and refused to let go. "... you don't love me after all ..."-What makes you say that I don't love you? Why? He said she didn't love him, but he actually said she didn't love him. Who in this world will give unconditional support to another person? Recalling the past, it seems like a lifetime ago. She knows that there are some things that she has lost forever. Frankly speaking, Xu Zhiheng didn't force her, everything was her own decision. Walking on the edge of life and death, I found out how ridiculous her persistence and inferiority are. When people are desperate and have nothing, self-esteem is worthless. She has no right to be lofty, because she still wants to live and live better. She has lost love and can no longer lose the ability to continue looking for happiness. I know better than anyone. Why should I let him keep my body clean for me? I don't think he has anyone else, but he's gone. Why did he run to me? Am I ridiculous? Before today, I began to feel that I was really doing well. Even if I see him again, I can at least pretend to laugh it off. It was a joke. The moment they appeared in front of me, I found that I was very sad. No matter what his purpose is, he must have succeeded. No matter what he wants, for four years, everyone has his own life, and I don't owe him anything. People often experience unhappiness before they know what happiness is; Just like meeting the wrong person, you never know who is right ... for such a long time, who can stay the same, people always have to move on. Bring your sky into my eyes. I breathe your breath, but I don't live there. Is there anyone who falls in love and turns to ashes like us? If you like, when life comes and keeps sweeping us, you can only wait for the rain to drop on the vast dust. If you like, let me live in your name. Does he love the woman who smiles like her? Even if he does, isn't he still looking for a marriage partner, Su Like Yunjin? He, like her, is a cool thin man at heart. The moment I turned around, I heard the roar of fireworks, and the sky not far away was as bright as a dream. Many years ago, she and another man stood arm in arm on the balcony, but they couldn't see the fireworks and saw the tall buildings in the distance. At that time, he said it was a pity that the fireworks were around now, but the original happiness could not be seen. Yunjin, teach me how to fall in love with another person again and again. Really, teach me how to be heartless like you. "Despair? For four years, I thought I could forget you. I told myself I didn't want you. Without you, I don't have to guess whether you love me or not, and I don't have to be careful not to lose it. I won't go looking for you, I won't go looking for you, I don't want to hear anything about you until I meet you on the left bank ... Su Yun, I hate you so much, and I hate myself for despising you and forgetting you! You don't deserve to talk to me about despair. Have you ever tried to love someone and got nothing? Have you ever tried the feeling of waiting at the most hopeless time ... ""But you haven't tried the feeling of losing your flesh and blood! I've been waiting that night. When you come back, I want to tell you that we should live a good life, because I'm pregnant ... I was scared when I first found out that I had a child, but slowly, the more I think about it, the happier I am, because it's yours, yours and mine. But what am I waiting for? I waited until you said goodbye, and you said I don't love you! " Cheng Zheng stood like a clay sculpture. "children?" What he said seemed to be talking in his sleep. "Yes, I don't love you, but I insist on being so cheap. I have broken up, knowing that it is the stupidest thing in the world to give birth to him under such circumstances, I still can't bear to leave him. Mo Yuhua said I was crazy, and Xu Zhiheng also said I was crazy. I'm crazy. I gave up the long-awaited training opportunity. Whether the father of the child wants me or not, I just want to give birth to the child of someone I don't love. However, God will punish me. When I was in shock for two months, I didn't know it was an ectopic pregnancy until I sent it. When he was an embryo, he died in my stomach and took it out. There was a problem during the operation. I can't have children anymore. " There was silence behind her. Why do you say that? She is going to let this past rot in her heart and rot in the ground with her a few years later. He never needed to know the existence of this past, nor did he need to know that she had sunk in the dark and cold sea water and watched the little light fade out. Her children, she and his children, only survived in her belly for dozens of days. Although he is still an unformed embryo, although he was mistakenly implanted into her fallopian tube, which caused her abdominal bleeding, he is the only inseparable flesh and blood between her and him in this world. He feels the same way as his parents. Here he comes, wrong. But now, without any warning, she said. She is still Su Yunjin who tries to calm the surface, but she is easily angered by Cheng Zheng. Cheng Zheng said she didn't love him. After so many years, she still can't forget this sentence Su Yunjin couldn't predict Cheng Zheng's reaction, but she knew it would definitely hurt him, and it would be fatal. This is the poison in her heart. However, when Su Yunjin said those words, tears welled up in his heart. He and her children lost their flesh and blood. If the feeling of waiting for four years after breaking up was despair, now he has only grief in his heart. Su Yunjin took two steps from him and stopped. The first time I looked down at Cheng Zheng, who was as fragile as a baby, she didn't want to cry. How nice! Looking at his painful appearance, the pain in her heart is also alleviating. It turns out that not only happiness needs sharing, but also pain needs sharing. Only he can share her pain, because half belongs to him. Meet again, what is his adamant, in fact, Su Yunjin himself knows that he pretends to be polite and distant, or relatively abusive, but in fact he loves her. Cheng Zheng has always been transparent in front of her, a kind of joy and a kind of sadness are clearly visible. She chose to avoid, because in these four years, she gradually discovered the fact that Cheng Zheng was immature, but her inferiority complex and her habit of hiding herself were not the biggest reasons for their separation. She and Cheng Zheng are not in love. Maybe they can find their own happiness when they meet someone else at first, but they are just together, and the dark side of each other's personality is exposed under the catalysis of each other. She is afraid of repeating the same mistake. Cheng Zheng felt her footsteps leave and stood behind her with tears on her face. "Su Yun, you didn't say anything. Why didn't you say anything? " ! You selfish woman, why can't you come to me instead of me? I have been here for four years, but where are you? "The elevator slowly closed, also cut off Su Yunjin expression. Where is she? She never goes too far, but she is afraid to look back. Su Yunjin's life is calm again. Strangely, without him, her relationship with Wu would be weak. During this period, Wu asked her out twice, and she made excuses twice. Slowly, she was left out in the cold. Mo Yuhua is right. Now, between men and women, that's it. Everyone is busy. No one has time to spend too much energy on a relationship. Feelings also have costs. If the cost is too high and the income is uncertain, who will do such an uneconomical thing? It is said that women are afraid of pestering men. Where can "pestering men" persevere and become more frustrated and brave? Fortunately, women are used to it now. Who can't live without it? Who's Zhou Ziyi? Even she can't forget her senior year. How embarrassed he was when he refused Mo Yuhua. Even if you don't mention the past, at best, you are a high school classmate who has little contact. His career is full of love and he is so proud of his scenery. Once he is in trouble, why do this for him? She doesn't think Mo Yuhua is worth it. Women are so stupid sometimes. I have no mother, no father, no children, nothing, only me ... everyone I love will leave! I won't. Although I don't know, I'm still not the one you love. "Let me go, Cheng Zheng. ""impossible. " Su Yunjin remained silent. It seems that since they met, they have been repeating this sentence:-Cheng Zheng, let go. -I won't let go. But he really let her go. She hurts more than anything. "No matter what reason you use, I just won't let go. "Unexpectedly, Su Yunjin, how can a selfish, clumsy, cold-blooded and stubborn person like you believe that such a person exists ... Compared with you, she is like an angel." See Su Yunjin show dim look, Cheng Zheng smiled wryly, "but I just can't fall in love with angels. Relationships are never fair. I admit that I let her down, but I'm also disappointed to stay with her. I hate being dragged by my mother-in-law. If I have to be sorry for someone, I can only be sorry for her, because I can never let go of another person. If you are destined to have no children, then live alone. If there were no intervening years, there would be no old Cheng Zheng and Su Yunjin joining hands today. Even if today's Cheng Zheng meets Su Yun in those days, no matter how much she loves, I'm afraid this relationship will not have a good result, and vice versa.