Let’s talk about the things we regret in those years

Text/Sumen Yingxue

~1~

I was very sleepy at midnight last night.

I even had a wonderful dream: I bought a lottery ticket and was holding it nervously in my hand, staring at the first prize numbers announced on the TV. There were already four identical numbers. The numbers are up! My little heart was beating so fast that it was about to pop out of my throat... Suddenly it felt as if someone had punched me in the heart, and a burst of pain came over me. I let out an oops and suddenly Wake up!

I woke up unexpectedly. Not only was the 5 million I was about to receive gone, but I also felt a severe pain in my stomach. It turned out that I was not attacked, but I was woken up by the pain.

I struggled to get up and pour some water. My husband was also awakened by my movement. He quickly went to get the medicine box and while looking for medicine, he asked: You have never had stomach problems, why do you suddenly feel so much pain? ?

I said with a sad face: It’s not my fault. I like to eat cold food. Sometimes when running, I sweat a lot and feel very thirsty. I don’t want to drink hot water and just drink the drinks in the refrigerator. This will make me sick soon!

I applied a hot water bottle to the painful area and muttered: I regret it so much! From now on, I can no longer drink cold things even if I am beaten to death...

The husband shook his head and said: You! The scars are always healed and the pain is forgotten. What's the use of regret? It’s better to learn to be more self-disciplined in the future and stop ruining your body.

You are right, regret is probably the most useless thing.

Eating food that is not good for the body just to satisfy the desires of the tongue will result in frequent illnesses and unspeakable suffering. If you take medicine in time and take good care of yourself despite regret, the physical pain will slowly heal.

But the damage caused by some regrettable things is unforgettable and irreparable.

~2~

Colleague Xiaojie’s father has been in poor health recently and has been hospitalized. I saw that she was absent-minded at work every day. She went straight to the hospital after work and took turns guarding the hospital with her brother at night. She was very busy.

I said: It’s so hard, why not hire a caregiver?

She shook her head and said: My father is not used to strangers around him, so I should take care of him myself!

I said you are really a filial daughter. No wonder you say your daughter is your parents’ little cotton-padded jacket! Your dad is so lucky to have you.

Xiaojie’s eyes were red and she said: Actually, I am not a sensible daughter. When I was young, I did many wrong things and deliberately made my father angry. Now that I think about it, I feel very regretful. I really hope that time can make things better. Going back in time allows me to make up for my past mistakes...

Xiaojie said that her mother died of illness when she was 12 years old, her younger brother was only 7 years old at the time, and her father was a grown man who took care of the two. Children are indeed difficult. Two years later, someone introduced a partner to my father. The partner was divorced and had a boy about the same age as Xiaojie. Dad liked the woman's kindness, so he agreed.

Xiaojie firmly opposed it on the grounds that "stepmothers in the world are all vicious" and she was afraid that her father would dislike her and her brother because of her stepmother's instigation. So she cried with her father and said that if that woman dared to enter our house, I would run away from home!

But my father was very resolute at the time. He said to Xiaojie: Auntie is very nice and you will definitely like her. My brother is still young and needs to be taken care of too!

In this way, the woman and her son were led into the house by their father. To be honest, that woman treated Xiaojie and her brother really well. From head to toe, they had a completely new look. The house and outside were also kept in order, and the windows were bright and clean.

But Xiaojie thinks this is just the fake kindness of Grandma Wolf. She will soon reveal her vicious claws and swallow her and her brother in one bite. She has been looking for opportunities to drive them away.

One day, neither father nor aunt got off work yet, and only Xiaojie, her brother and the boy were left at home. Xiaojie said the weather was so hot and I was going to take a shower. After a while, I heard Xiaojie calling in the bathroom: Why is there no water in the water heater?

My younger brother is still young and is watching cartoons outside.

The boy got up and went to the bathroom to check. As soon as he reached the door, Xiaojie cried loudly: Why did you peek at me taking a shower? I want to tell Dad!

When the adults came back, the scene they saw was: Xiaojie was wrapped in a bath towel and crying so hard that the boy stood with his hands down at a loss. The father was furious and went up to give the boy a slap in the face. The aunt went up to stop her: My son is not that kind of person, this must be a misunderstanding.

Dad asked his brother: Aren’t you at home too? What can you see?

The younger brother shrank back in fear and whispered: I...I was watching TV, my sister went to take a shower, and my brother also passed by...

The boy defended: She said the water heater was broken, and I just wanted to help her fix it...

Dad walked into the bathroom angrily and turned on the water heater. The hot water "gushed." "What's wrong? You're obviously lying!" The aunt was so angry that she beat her son hard while crying: "Why are you so unlucky!"

Dad sighed and said: Now that things have happened, I can’t keep you here anymore. The children are still young, so I won’t pursue it any further. You go!

Xiaojie was secretly happy: Finally they were driven away!

From then on, my father never mentioned the blind date, and spent every day drinking at home except at work. Xiaojie found that her father was getting more and more unhappy. As she and her brother grew up, her father seemed to suddenly become older.

Xiao Jie said to me sadly: I was so ignorant at that time. I only cared about my own feelings, but never considered my father. How lonely he was all those years! My brother and I endured a lot of hardships when we were brought up. I'm really sorry for him... I don't know where the aunt and her son went after that. If I have the chance to see them, I must apologize to them and ask them to forgive me for the mistakes I made when I was young and ignorant.

~3~

But one thing that my friend Xixi regrets to this day is about friendship.

Xixi said that when she first went to college, because her family's conditions were average, she had been living a humble and cautious life, for fear that her classmates would look down on her, a girl from a small place.

One day when I was having a big class in a lecture theater, the bell rang, and a girl with short hair hurried into the classroom carrying a schoolbag. She looked around for a seat, and Xixi looked back: there were almost no seats in the classroom. The classmate who asked her to hold a seat did not come, so she called the girl: Classmate, sit here! The girl said happily: Great! Thank you!

After class, the two walked out of the classroom together. It turns out that the girl and Xixi are in the same department, but in different classes. Xixi saw that she was plainly dressed, with simple accessories, and she spoke very amiably. I just thought that she should have similar conditions to me, and I liked her a little more.

Later, the two of them agreed that when they go to a big class in the future, whoever arrives first will be responsible for occupying the seat.

Slowly, Xixi and the girl became good friends. They ate together, went to class, went to the library, and tasted the snacks in the alley behind the school.

One weekend, the two of them agreed to go shopping in the pedestrian street and buy some gadgets. The two girls each picked out their favorite clothes. Xixi saw a small shop selling cosmetics and said: Let's go buy skin care products! The girl said: You can't buy skin care products here anymore. The quality is not up to par and it's not good for your skin. Xixi pouted and said: Then where should we buy it? A mall? It's so expensive, I can't afford it.

The girl smiled and pulled Xixi away: Let’s go! Let's go take a look, maybe we can buy it?

Only then did Xixi realize that the girl was not an ordinary child. She bought thousands of dollars worth of cosmetics at once and even gave a set to Xixi. Xixi said in surprise: Isn't this too extravagant for you?

The girl smiled and said: You can wear cheap clothes, but you can’t make do with skin care products. After all, it’s a face-saving project!

Xixi clicked her tongue and said: So your family is so rich! I can't compare with you. The girl said: No matter how much money you have, it belongs to my father. In fact, I don't think it's anything special.

Later, the two of them still ate, went to class, and played together. The girl was not arrogant like some children from rich families. She was very happy to buy some cheap but fun trinkets with Xixi. I don't mind eating from street stalls that are not very clean and hygienic. When Xixi encounters difficulties, she always spares no effort to lend a helping hand. But Xixi felt that there was a certain distance between herself and the girl, and that she was no longer in the same class. This made her feel depressed and uncomfortable.

The girl secretly told Xixi that she had fallen in love with a handsome boy in their class and had a crush on him for a long time but didn't know how to confess. She said to Xixi: You have to keep it a secret from me! Otherwise, everyone will laugh at me!

Later, Xixi saw that boy getting close to a girl from another class, and she knew her best friend must be heartbroken. For some reason she felt a little bit of schadenfreude and had some mental balance. She thought, it turns out that you also have something you can’t get! So I couldn't help but tell another friend about the girl's crush.

Soon someone started talking about the girl, saying that she was "not pretty enough. What's the use of having a crush on someone else?" They also said that she once offered the boy gifts but was rejected by them. It was really embarrassing. .

The girl heard the rumors and found Xixi. Xixi thought she was here to fight, but the girl said: You don't know how to respect people. I was angry, but even more disappointed. From now on we are no longer friends.

From then on, a pair of good friends became strangers. To this day, when Xixi talks about the past, she still says with emotion: I don’t know what I was thinking at that time. My mind was so dark. It must have broken my friend’s heart! Because of my recklessness and rudeness, I lost a best friend...

~4~

The fourth story is about love. Saw it from a magazine.

There was a girl. She was very beautiful, and she was chased by a large group of boys. In the end, she fell in love with one of the poor boys who didn't have a striking appearance and an ordinary family background, but he was honest, down-to-earth and willing to work hard.

The poor boy loved the girl very much and vowed to let her live the happiest life. Although he lived a poor life, he still had enough food and clothing. The girl likes to eat fish, so the boy makes fish for her every now and then, and every time he picks out the eyes of the fish for the girl to eat, because he thinks that is the most delicious part of the fish.

But poor and humble couples suffer from everything. After all, the girl couldn't stand the poor life, so she followed a man who had pursued her and was said to have a rich family, saying he wanted to make a lot of money.

A few years have passed, and the girl has indeed developed. But the men around her changed like a revolving door, and no one really loved her. She returned to the original place and found that the once poor boy had got married. Through his own efforts, although he was not rich, he was living a prosperous life.

When he met the girl, he warmly invited her to his home regardless of his previous grudges. His wife is a beautiful, simple and kind-hearted woman. To entertain her husband's friends, she cooked a table of delicious dishes.

He warmly greeted the girl to sit down and eat, put the fish on the plate in front of her, but left the fish eyes to his wife. The girl stared blankly at the fish in front of her, feeling extremely sad. She felt that she had worked hard for so many years, but she had lost her most important eyes...

In the past, we hurt our bodies and feelings because of ignorance, selfishness, and greed. It wasn't until he tasted the bone-gnawing pain that he said with regret: I really shouldn't have...but what's the use of regret? Nothing can be repeated.

Regret is one of the three most vicious negative emotions in human beings. Except for self-exile immersed in the past and future perfect tense, it has no value for the present and future life.

Instead of immersing yourself in reminiscing about the past and regretting it, it is better to regard those past as a warning and a warning. When you encounter similar things again, always warn and remind you not to repeat the same mistakes.