Why don't I advise women to marry old men?

I'm 29 years old and just got married 1 year, but every time my husband moves, I feel mean and dirty. Now I hate my husband. What he did made me sick. Actually, I don't want a divorce. Because I don't want to have children, the second marriage with children is not very happy. I thought there were too many things. I took care of my husband, taught my son and went to the kitchen under the hall. I just wanted to live a good life. But now, in my opinion, this is only my personal will. He married him at that time because he was three years older than me, and everyone said that women were golden bricks in their junior year. I don't think so. I believe that men are blessed in their junior year. I just think that finding a man a few years older than himself, with his experience and social skills, will be better for himself and his family and take care of himself.

It seems that I was wrong again. A few months before I got married, he was still very kind to me, but later I found out that he always went out for a walk when he was free at night, and even gave me various excuses at night, even not going home at night. When I came back during the day, I asked him where he had been and what he had done. He said that he had been drinking with his friends until the early hours of the morning, and he would sleep there if he couldn't come back. I remember one time, I caught a cold when I got angry, and I wanted him to come back early to buy me some medicine. Then I called his friend and realized that he had been lying to me. I'm sad, I don't know what he's been doing these days.

I tried my best to find out what he was doing until I hired someone to follow the situation. I regretted seeing photos and sounds and found such a scene! I can't believe he still keeps in frequent contact with his ex-wife, so he won't tell me. When I was in love with him, I knew that he had been divorced once, but I didn't know why he divorced his ex-wife and why.

At first, I thought I was communicating with them because of the problem of raising children. If so, I can understand. But I found that he often spends the night with his ex-wife. Isn't this cheating? Once, I quarreled with him, cried and scolded, and clamored to go back to my parents' house, but his performance was beyond my expectation, and I didn't agree. I also said, "I actually live in a room alone, and I have nothing to do to put the children to sleep." After listening to my words, I was in distress situation. How could a ghost believe me? He also said that I had nothing to look for and quarreled with him all day, which made him very unhappy. Not the kind of person who wants to live a good life at all.

Hum, in fact, in my opinion, he doesn't know how to cherish the pain of love except that he only loves himself and does whatever he wants. I don't think he will fall in love with any woman in the future, not only because he is rich and beautiful, but also because of his ex-wife. I don't have children yet, but I don't want to leave, lest others see jokes. Embarrass me, my parents will scold me.

But if we don't divorce, we will always put up with all kinds of entanglement between him and his ex-wife. I don't want my family to know? Otherwise, they can divorce me. what can I do? You can give me some advice.

(The above pictures are all from the Internet)