I read Lu Xun.

Fan Ainong, the hometown of Lu Xun, met him while studying in Japan. Later, because he could not afford the tuition, he dropped out of school and returned to China. After returning to my hometown Shaoxing, I was almost ashamed of the contempt, exclusion and persecution of the older generation. In the early years of the Republic of China, Lu Xun was asked to learn from him when he was the principal of Zhejiang Shanhui Primary Normal School in Shaoxing. After Lu Xun resigned, he was dismissed by the later principal and fell into poverty after losing his job. Once I went to the theatre with my friends and came back by boat. Unfortunately, I fell into the water in the heavy wind and rain and died. He was a master at floating water, so Lu Xun always suspected that he committed suicide by drowning. Fan Ainong's life just represented the fate and situation of honest intellectuals at that time, so Lu Xun wrote a poem in memory of him with deep sympathy.

In the postscript of the manuscript, I wrote: "I am so tired of Fan Ainong's death that I still can't get over it. Yesterday, I suddenly wrote three poems, casually, and suddenly I became a chicken bug. It was really wonderful, and it was a bang, and the group was in a mess. Regarding this record, I hope that if it is not evil, it can be published in Minxing. Although the world may have been waiting for a long time, how can I say it? On the 23rd, the tree said again. "

Lu Xun

In an inn in Tokyo, we usually read newspapers when we get together. Most students watch Asahi Shimbun and Yomiuri Shimbun, and those who are interested in asking about social trivia watch the February 6th news. One morning, Bi Tou saw a telegram from China, which was probably:-? "Anhui Governor En Ming was assassinated by Zhao Shikili, and the assassin was arrested." After everyone was shocked, they told each other with smiles on their faces, studying who the assassin was and how Chinese characters were. But as long as they are from Shaoxing and don't read textbooks specifically, they have already understood. This is Xu Xilin. After he came back from studying abroad, he worked as an alternate road and ran as the governor in Anhui, which coincided with the assassination of the governor.

Everyone predicted that he would be executed and his family would be implicated. Soon, the news that Qiu Jin was killed in Shaoxing also came. Xu Xilin was dug up and gave all the food to Enming Qin Bing. People are angry. Several people held a secret meeting to raise funds in Sichuan; At this time, the Japanese ronin is needed. He shredded the squid, drank a generous drink, and then embarked on a journey to pick up the Xu family. ?

As usual, there are also hometown associations, hanging martyrs and cursing Manchuria; Since then, some people have advocated sending a telegram to Beijing, denouncing the Manchu government as inhuman. The congregation was immediately divided into two groups: one group wanted to generate electricity and the other group didn't. I advocate power generation, but when I said it, a dull voice followed:-

"If the murderer is killed and the dead are all dead, what kind of fart telegram can you send?" ? This is a tall man with long hair and white eyes. He always looks at others as if ignoring them. He squatted on the mat, and I generally opposed everything I said; I was surprised and paid attention to him. This just asks others: Who said that it is so cold? People I know told me that his name is Xu's student. ?

I felt so angry that he was not human at all. My husband was killed, so I dare not send a telegram. So I insisted on generating electricity and arguing with him. As a result, most people advocated power generation, and he gave in. Secondly, we should introduce people to draft telegrams. ?

"Why? Nature is a person who advocates power generation. " He said. ?

I think what he said was aimed at me again, but it was not unreasonable. But I advocate that this tragic article must be written by someone who knows the life of the martyr, because he is more closely related than others, and his heart is more sad and angry, and it will be more touching to write it. So they fought again. As a result, he didn't do it, and neither did I. I don't know who admitted to doing it; Secondly, everyone got separated, leaving only a draftsman and one or two officers, waiting for the filming to be finished. ?

From then on, I always thought this Fan Ainong was both eccentric and hateful. The hateful people in the world thought they were Manchu at first, but later they realized that they were still the second; The first one is Fan Ainong. China is not revolutionary, but if it wants to be revolutionary, Fan Ainong must be eliminated first.

However, this opinion seems to have gradually disappeared and it has been forgotten. We never met again. Until the year before the revolution, I was still a teacher in my hometown, probably in late spring. Suddenly, I saw a man on the guest table of an acquaintance. We looked at each other for two or three seconds and said at the same time

"Oh, oh, you are Fan Ainong!" ?

"Oh, oh, you are Lu Xun!" ?

Somehow we all laughed, laughed at each other and felt sad. His eyes are still like that, but strangely, in recent years, he has white hair on his head, but maybe it has been there for a long time, and I didn't notice it before. He looks very cold in an old cloth jacket and worn cloth shoes. Talking about his own experience, he said that he later lost his tuition and could no longer study abroad, so he came back. After returning to my hometown, I was despised, rejected and persecuted, and there was almost no place to live. Now I am hiding in the countryside and teaching several primary school students to make a living. But sometimes I feel bored, so I also come to town by boat. ?

He also told me that I like drinking now, so we drank. Since then, every time he goes to town, he will definitely come to see me and know me very well. When we are drunk, we often say something stupid and crazy, and even our mother laughs when she overhears it. One day, I suddenly remembered the old story when I held a hometown meeting in Tokyo and asked him:-? "What was your reason for deliberately opposing me that day, intentionally?" ?

"Don't you know? I have always hated you-not only me, but also us. " ?

"Did you know who I was before that?" ?

"Why don't you know. Didn't we meet Ziying and you when we arrived in Yokohama? You look down on us and shake your head. Do you remember? " ?

I briefly thought about it, but I remember that it was seven or eight years ago. At that time, Ziying came to ask me out and said that Yokohama would pick up my new classmate. As soon as the steamboat arrived, I saw a lot, about a dozen people. As soon as I landed, I put my luggage on duty and waited for inspection. The customs officer rummaged through the closet and suddenly found a pair of embroidered bow shoes. I put down my business and took a closer look. I was very dissatisfied and thought, how could these birds bring this thing? I didn't notice it myself. I probably shook my head at that time. After the inspection, you must sit in the inn before getting on the bus. I didn't expect these scholars to give up their seats on the bus again. A wants B to sit in this chair, and B wants C to sit on it. Before the concession was over, the train had already left, and as soon as the car body shook, three or four people fell down. At that time, I was also very dissatisfied, and I thought to myself: Even the seats on the train should be distinguished. I didn't notice, maybe I shook my head again. However, Fan Ainong is an elegant figure, but I didn't think of it until today. Not only he, but also ashamed to say, in this group, there are martyrs Chen Boping who died in Anhui later, and martyrs Ma who were killed; There are still one or two people locked up in black jails, and they didn't see the light of day until after the revolution, and they always bear the scars of bandit punishment. Knowing nothing about it, I shook my head and shipped them to Tokyo. Although Xu came with them in the same boat, he was not in the car because he and his wife went to Kobe by land. ?

I think I shook my head twice. They don't know what time it is. Let the sitting be lively and the inspection be quiet. It must be time to collect taxes. I want to ask if I love agriculture, yes. ?

"I really don't understand what are you doing with this thing? Whose is it? " ?

"Not our Jenny's?" He glared at his white eyes. ?

"When you go to Tokyo, you must pretend to have a pair of big feet. Why do you want to bring this thing? " ?

"Who knows? You ask her. " ?

In beginning of winter, our situation got worse, but we still drank and told jokes. Suddenly it was the Wuchang Uprising, followed by the recovery of Shaoxing. The next day, Ai Nong came to the city, wearing the felt hat commonly used by farmers, and that smile was never seen before. ?

"Old fast, we don't drink today. I want to see Shaoxing after the recovery. Let's go together. "