Town lovelorn story

20 15 12, back to my hometown in Liuyang. In fact, I studied in Changsha, but I seldom went home from college in recent years. I don't know why, it seems that I just don't want to go home, and I don't want to endure running around again and again. I plan to find a job directly in my senior year, but my college life for several years has left me no memories. The rest of my life is so long, there are many stories to experience, and I always tell them to myself.

Starting from Changsha East Station, the short-distance bus runs along a route I am not used to. This road is full of strange scenery. I looked out of the window with a strange feeling in my heart, but I couldn't think of any climate. I think this feeling may be given to me by my hometown or someone.

When I was a college student in Changsha, I actually ordered Liuyang steamed vegetables occasionally, but I didn't taste anything touching. On the contrary, every time I talk to my takeaway brother in a non-standard Liuyang dialect, he always looks at me with a stupid face.

It's not Liuyang people who deliver takeout to Liuyang Steamed Food Store. I came to this conclusion. This is not surprising, but I still smiled at the thought. I remembered the scene where Lin Xueyan scolded me in high school.

She thought my Liuyang dialect was ugly, insulted Liuyang dialect and refused to let me speak. But I am obviously from Liuyang. Although I learned to speak Cantonese, she wanted to deprive me of the right to speak Liuyang. I'm confused. When I looked at her, she was laughing, and her thin lips could not cover the ferocious braces. I nodded at her.

"Well, I will never speak Liuyang dialect in front of you again."

Lin Xueyan has been stuck in the memory of my sophomore year, and it has been almost five years now. I don't contact anyone with her, but I can still see the records of mutual visits occasionally. The funny thing is that I will learn about her every once in a while, even though I have blocked her movements.

This time, I didn't take the usual road, but chose to go back to Liuyang West Station first and then go home. My home is in the west of Liuyang, and there is a direct bus to Changsha South Station, which is close to my school, so I used to take a bus from there. But this time I want to go back to the West Railway Station. After all, I passed by here every time I went to school in high school.

When I returned to the West Railway Station, I took a look in the direction of the city. Instead of going to town, I bought a ticket to my hometown. In fact, Liuyang has not changed much. Although there are fewer people coming back after going to college, it is not unheard of. A few years is not enough to turn this town upside down.

I looked at Liuyang Landmark Fireworks Square not far from the West Railway Station. Lin Xueyan told me a few years ago that she worked around here. I watched the sea of people returning home during the winter vacation, and then walked into the crowd with my luggage.

That's how I went home during the winter and summer vacations in high school. I took my luggage to the car. The driver of the shuttle bus to Ruochong Town knows the conductor very well. After giving each other a smile, I took the bus back to town, then turned around and went home, sitting in front of the house and started to check in.

When rural students graduate from college, I don't want to go home in clothes. On the contrary, my mother told me about my junior high school classmates who got married and had children a long time ago. I sneered. Maybe it's better if I don't go to college and get married and have children early? Mom quickly said no, and I didn't say anything back to her, so I turned back to my room.

My mother and I were not close, just for many years. She always flatters me in front of me. I actually look sad, but I don't know how to restore normal relations with her. She was always in Guangdong when she was a child. I think she has dried her tears. When she grows up, it will be difficult to get emotional.

Some people say that a home without a mother is not a home, which may be one of the reasons why I won't miss home when I was in college, because I only lived in one house, not at home.

I sat alone in my room, watching the traditional classes and groups, and began to discuss the party. In fact, class reunion is sometimes very troublesome. Unfamiliar students greet each other when they meet, and it will be embarrassing if they don't know each other. I was a little worried about my work and didn't want to take part in any public activities, so I pretended not to see the news about me.

After a while, I received a phone call from my big sister in Class One, one of my good friends, Mi. She has always cared about my feelings, and I am actually very grateful to her.

Chen Zheng, are you coming? Senior one reunion? The tone of rice has always been like this. Asking questions is always the same as giving orders.

I thought about it and answered her that there might be something at home. ...

Lin Xueyan will come. Rice hit the nail on the head.

Then I'd better go. I didn't think much and answered the rice.

She's getting married next year. Rice's tone softened slightly. Whether I let her go or not, it is not good news for me.

Get married? Isn't getting married normal? You think too much about rice. We are all in our twenties. My mother just told me how old my junior high school classmates and children are. Oh, I'm just here for a class reunion. I haven't seen you for years ... I deliberately raised my interest in talking a lot because I didn't want Rice to worry about anything else.

Don't say anything, your sister doesn't know you yet. At that time, Sister Mi will help you. Don't drink too much, as long as you don't lose your temper. The meal interrupted me before I finished, then said something, hung up the phone and left me a message saying that she would tell me about Lin Xueyan in the evening.

I sat alone in my room, and the sky was so livid. I can smell some smoke when I open the window, which is a unique smell of the Spring Festival. The Chinese New Year is coming, and I don't feel much festive in my heart.

2

Lin Xueyan is my predecessor, my predecessor five years ago. In recent years, I really like others, and some people like me. But inevitably, I also encountered such a situation-people who like me don't like me, and people who like me don't like me. In the long run, the only thing that hasn't changed is Lin Xueyan's predecessor status.

I have been in love with her for 45 days. The last time I saw her was124 June. It was the day when Uni-President went to school to get the documents, but I wrote it down. 120624, this string of numbers has always been in my password. This is ridiculous. No wonder I can't forget her.

Lin Xueyan is my senior one classmate. When I first met her in Grade One, she was thin and wore a pair of steel braces. She looks just like the girl I like. Nothing else, everyone has their own type in mind, and she is my favorite type.

When I was a freshman, I heard that she had been with her first love since the second day of junior high school. As the first schoolmaster in my class, I am of course the image that I will never fall in love. I stayed away from her, and everyone with good grades played, everyone with poor grades played, and Sister Mi also played, but ignored her.

Sister Mi is a big sister, surrounded by a lot of girls. At first, she thought that Lin Xueyan and I had problems, so she asked me to contact Lin Xueyan if nothing happened. What do I have against her? I just don't want to talk to her, okay? But Sister Mi is a formidable person, so I contacted Lin Xueyan.

Only Lin Xueyan keeps calling me stupid.

After I talked to Yan, she kept her mouth shut and said, Why are you so stupid?

The first time in class, she scolded me, Chen Zheng, why are you so stupid?

When I recited ancient poems in Chinese class, she scolded me, Chen Zheng, why are you so stupid?

She punched and kicked me when I laughed at her for being a female with braces. Chen Zheng, you are so stupid. Why don't you die?

Anyway, I am silly in front of her, but I am not angry.

She does have something better than me, for example, she can turn pages. She can flip through books, even vacuum-packed spicy strips. I asked her to teach me, and she asked me to call her master.

I said, master, please ask me to turn over the books. Lin Xueyan nodded with satisfaction. Apprentice, you are so stupid, but you still have a gift for learning.

Lin Xueyan taught me to turn pages. I carefully hide my feelings, but some people still say that we are gossiping. When my name was Master Lin Xueyan, someone called me Guo Er with a smile. When she heard this, Lin Xueyan usually grabbed what she could use as a weapon and smashed it.

Lin Xueyan will also like to hit me. In the evening self-study in the winter of senior one, Lin Xueyan and two friends tore the unwanted books into paper balls and threw them into my hat from behind. About half a class, I saw the head teacher come in and dropped the paper ball in my hat on the ground. Then he picked up a useless book in the drawer and tore it up. Every time I tear off a page, I roll it into a ball of paper and throw it on the ground.

The head teacher came over and asked me why I tore the paper. I said it was my way of venting. The head teacher looked at a big paper ball under my seat and called me to the office. In fact, the head teacher is just worried about my state of mind and won't scold me. Being scolded is something that Lin Xueyan and Fan will encounter. I chatted with the class teacher for half a night's self-study and returned to the classroom after class.

Lin Xueyan and her friends are helping me clean up. I used to pick up paper balls with her. She apologized to me. As far as I remember, this is the only soft word she said to me.

I kept my distance from her because I knew she was in love with someone else. She was not in my class when I was a freshman or a sophomore. For me, this is a good opportunity to break this relationship.

Sister Mi and I are not in the same class, but she is still worried about me. She must know that I have some feelings for Lin Xueyan. There are many girls around her. She thinks I'm okay and wants me to have a love affair. After all, some people always say that liking someone is the best way to forget another person.

But I don't want to fall in love.

three

But I still fell in love with a classmate in senior one. Sister Mi lost her temper after learning about my love affair. She blames me for falling in love, so why not tell her. She knows a lot of girls, and she doesn't want me to get hurt emotionally.

I think Sister Mi cares too much. My falling in love is my business, and she always wants to take care of it. But in fact, the first love broke up within a month. Sister Mi comforted me for a while and said that the sooner my relationship ended, the better.

I don't want to hear it from her. I don't think first love is bad. Even if it's only for a month, I'm grateful for her feelings. I don't have much affection for Mi Jie's desire for control, although I know that Mi Jie's emotional intelligence is much higher than mine.

Lin Xueyan broke up. When Sister Mi talks to me, she always gets the upper hand with one word.

You can choose to pretend to be with her. She wants her first love to forget her. If you feel it, you can continue. But she needs your help now. Sister Mi explained everything to me concisely. This is my chance, although it is only acting, but it is also an opportunity.

Ok, I'll help Lin Xueyan. I can't refuse Sister Mi, let alone Lin Xueyan. Lin Xueyan deleted my contact information when talking to her first love. She added me back, recognized my new identity, and then went back to school to see me.

She bought me a cheap couple dress and tied a simple red rope on my hand. She also asked me to tie the red rope for her. I touched her wrist, it was soft, soft, and I was in a panic.

Chen Zheng, how can you be so stupid that you can't even tie a rope? Lin Xueyan will still scold me, I still can't turn the book well, and she is too lazy to teach. She thinks we should do something that couples should do.

My love with Lin Xueyan should be the one with the biggest ranking gap in the school. There are more than 630 science classes. On the leaderboard, I am the first, she is 60 1, and we are 600 short. I hate it when people talk about their achievements and feelings together. I am more stupid than Lin Xueyan in all aspects.

Lin Xueyan and I do what couples should do at school. We are wearing school uniforms and jackets. I stood in the corridor and felt her hair. After the evening self-study, I sent her back to the dormitory and went to the canteen to eat together. There is nothing wrong with putting on a couple's costume and pretending to be a couple.

I didn't know she was so thin until I fell in love with her. She is more than 1.6 meters tall, but only 78 pounds. I can pick her up with one hand, but I dare not. I broke her down. Her calf is about as thick as my arm, and I dare not hold her tight because I am afraid it will break her up. I can't imagine how she picked up the bench when she heard the scandal between me and her freshman year.

She and I were just acting, and I kept reminding myself. But I really can't control my feelings. Use the word "too deep into the play" to describe me at that time. It was she who brought me into the play. It was she who brought me into the play.

I can see that when she is with me, her eyes are getting dimmer and dimmer. This is a ridiculous thing. The heartbreaking feelings in novels and lyrics are so clear to young me. Lin Xueyan obviously can't let go of her first love, but she wants to perform a play to make her forget. When I looked at Lin Xueyan, she didn't dare to look into my eyes; When I hold her, I can feel that she is thinking of others.

This play, no matter how it goes on, will not have a good result. I talked with Lin Xueyan, hoping that she can face up to her feelings and make up with her first love.

In this way, I became a stepping stone to Lin Xueyan's feelings. In everyone's eyes, I am the buffoon who interferes with other people's feelings but asks for it. Too much pestering and crying is not suitable for Lin Xueyan and me. We are just two poor actors, and we can't even play the role of lovers well. Where can I play the good guy or the bad guy?

Feelings are never wrong, only willing or not. I am willing to act, I am willing to listen to Lin Xueyan, and I am willing to quit. Whether it is pain or happiness, it is my choice. Sister Mi was very sad to see me brokenhearted. She said she wanted me to let go of Lin Xueyan, and I agreed.

I wrote a lot of melodramatic words, and Lin Xueyan gave me a unified reply, saying that I had been moaning, and I thought so.

There has always been a sentence hanging on her homepage: I will accompany you to drink and laugh for 30,000 games, and I will never complain. I can't get up online or offline. I remember she kept calling me stupid, and I felt the same way.

They said it was time for me to put Lin Xueyan down. I thought the same thing.

four

The reunion is arranged on the day of off-year. I arrived at this restaurant a long time ago. After some people came one after another, the table was almost full. Lin Xueyan wore a long white down jacket and finally came in, leaving only a seat next to me. Everyone didn't speak, and their eyes were not good. They all looked at me. Rice stood up, paused and pulled Lin Xueyan to her seat. You didn't pay much attention to me after Chen Zheng graduated. Today, you should honor your sister Amy and give her food.

Lin Xueyan sat opposite me and served with a smile. There is not much embarrassment on the table, but it is a bit deserted. After all, it is a reunion of senior one students in two classes, and it is good to have a table of people. The atmosphere of the meal is very good. I naturally cooperated with her and showed great generosity. Someone even played a joke on Lin Xueyan and me later.

I can't drink, but I drink juice, and neither can Lin Xueyan. Everyone wants me to have a drink with her and smile. She and I both laughed, but we really have no rancor.

It is normal for everyone to go to KTV after dinner, and everyone needs to buy something. I am carrying a big sports bag and let me buy it. By the way, I asked someone to accompany me. All the people looked at Lin Xueyan.

Let's go. Lin Xueyan didn't feel very strange. I am not familiar with this area. Lin Xueyan took me around and bought delicious snacks in remote stores. Her hair is a little longer than in high school, and a long white down jacket hangs down on her legs, still with straight bangs. She bounced in front of me, hung her bag around my neck, bought food all the way, and looked back at me from time to time.

These shouldn't be my plot with her. I know it very well, but I enjoyed these dozens of minutes inexplicably. I think this is more real than those forty-five days. I bought things with her, went back to KTV, and everyone started drinking. I can't drink, so I sit on one side and neither can Lin Xueyan, sitting on the other side.

Don't want to sing, my heart is always blocked by something, and I am inexplicably flustered. Lin Xueyan sat far away from me and looked at me with some gaffes, so she brought a case of beer and opened it bottle by bottle.

I can't drink. I shook my head.

Me neither. Yan finished twelve bottles of wine and then began to pour. Every time I drink two cups, Lin Xueyan takes one, touches the bottom of my cup, says a word, drinks it, and then drinks it all at once. I know Lin Xueyan and I can't drink, but she asked me to drink, so I drank. She and I drank twelve bottles at one go, and then went to the bathroom with me.

I vomited in the bathroom with her, and all I spit out was wine, runny nose and tears. I don't understand why she did it, but I'm used to listening to her. I vomited with her for a long time, and then sat in the corridor together. Both of them blushed and looked pale, but they were both laughing. Her phone and mine have been ringing, but neither she nor I want to answer it.

You and your first love are getting married, right? How nice. I know this, but I still asked Lin Xueyan.

Yeah, that's great. Lin Xueyan bound to laugh.

I always feel that you are still like a child. Lin Xueyan looked at me with contempt.

What, do you still think I'm stupid? I responded to her.

Can we talk about adults? Lin Xueyan looked at me seriously.

I didn't do what adults did. I smiled, but I basically knew.

So what do you want? Lin Xueyan smiled and continued to ask me.

I can't have anything I opened my eyes wide and my eyes were full of sarcasm. I stood up and walked to the box. I should know my bounds.

I'm leaving. Are you going to see me off? Lin Xueyan stopped me.

I'll take you there. I turned around.

He will also be there. Lin Xueyan face some provocation.

Then I'll go and meet him. I answered.

When I walked through the balcony door, Jie Mi just came out. She kept calling me, but I didn't answer. Lin Xueyan's phone call should be from her boyfriend, and she didn't answer it.

Chen Zheng, where are you going? Sister Mi stopped me.

I'll send her to meet her boyfriend. I answered truthfully.

He won't see you off, so go. Your boyfriend is waiting for you downstairs. Sister Mi took me and looked at Lin Xueyan's eyes with some anger.

I'd better send it I broke away from my younger sister, and my steps towards Lin Xueyan were a little wobbly.

You can't lose the next building! Sister Mi's roar startled me and I stopped. Lin Xueyan was well-advised to leave. Sister Mi dragged me into an empty black box and gave me a slap in the face.

Chen Zheng, you are crazy! Did you drink too much? Why did you go to see her boyfriend? They will get married after the new year! Sister Mi didn't expect me to be so rude.

Sister Mi, I was wrong. I was in tears. I know what is right and wrong, but I prefer to listen to Lin Xueyan.

It's been five years. Can you make some progress? After listening to my apology, Sister Mi was still very angry, but then she sighed.

I called you here just to let you meet her. Don't think about anything. Some girls want to marry you. Sister Mi softened her tone.

After a long time, I guess my tears dried up, and then I went back to the box. I ordered a song, Silent King's The Year, and left in KTV.

"That year's unscrupulous freedom, so I took your hand, regardless of your feelings, I don't know what tenderness is, loneliness always takes me away ..."

five

I may just be carried away by loneliness.

Sixteen or seventeen years old is a period of war and confusion. That person can occupy one of your cities with a smile. No matter how many years you have prepared the army, you still can't beat it.

On the way home alone, the cold wind is very sobering. I took a bus to the West Bus Station, where I stood and watched this humble city for a long time. In fact, the city is not without anything.

I know that this small town has the most beautiful fireworks in the world, and there are occasional fireworks music festivals on the observation deck; When you climb to the top of the West Lake and look across the city, there will be a warm current flowing back to the Liuyang River, and the grass will leave every spring. There are many Internet cafes behind Martyrs Park, and McDonald's on the pedestrian street can witness many encounters and departures. You can buy "Germination" near Liuyang No.1 Middle School, and the first floor of Xinhua Bookstore is a pharmacy. I am familiar with all these things, but I am always a stranger here, because I have been going through parting all my life.

I have never been familiar with this city, because there is no one I can be familiar with. I have been walking alone as a passer-by. The mountains here are just mountains and the rivers are just rivers, which has nothing to do with me. I once read a sentence in a book: if you walk through Qianshan, Qianshan is you; Qian Shan, it's you. But this is just a book after all, where there will be someone's shadow.

15 It snowed in Liuyang this afternoon.

I got on the bus and looked at the large snowflakes flying outside the car, and suddenly felt very suitable. It hasn't snowed in Liuyang for many years, but I'm leaving the city now.

When the car leaves the city,

I can't see the twilight jungle in the front mountain,

Can't see the heavy snow all over the sky,

I can't see the girl's face.

I can only feel the cold wind rolling snowflakes into my eyes and turning them into scalding tears.

The lunar calendar says that everything is suitable for off-year days. I think this is really a lie.

Pick up the phone and see a group of pictures that someone has been crazy about recently. Someone shared his experience of falling in love with a girl for ten years and now wanting to marry someone else. Suddenly, I don't think I should be so sad. For me, it is just a wonderful thing for a girl who likes her to get married for the first time or fall in love with her. Looking at this man's story, I suddenly felt that my experiences in those years seemed to be other people's stories, and I became more and more unfamiliar with this small town.

At the end of this story, I saw such a sentence: "You are the strongest wine in my youth, and I am really drunk." I remembered the girl named Lin Xueyan again. As far as I'm concerned, actually, Lin Xueyan is not even a wine, but even if I haven't touched a drop of wine, I'm totally drunk for her.

I think I may never return to this city. Even if I did, I would only be a passer-by. Today, I didn't even fall in love, just recalled a sad past.

I definitely won't go to Lin Xueyan's wedding. I shouldn't owe her anything, five years ago. We ended a long time ago. We owe each other nothing, and there is no resentment or hostility. Even I loved her then. Why is there something to struggle with?

I should live a good life and never see Lin Xueyan again, so I told myself.

I remember in high school, Lin Xueyan and I discussed our views on love. I once said a word to Lin Xueyan: A man can give a woman two things: a blood stain on a white sheet and a white wedding dress on a bloody stall. I asked Lin Xueyan what she wanted. She replied that she wanted both. At that time, I thought it was naive to judge my feelings so early. Now it seems that I am the naive person. She's right. That man can really give her both.

When I got home, I was going to delete all her contact information, but when I clicked on the delete interface, I suddenly felt naive. Just then, she changed the picture on the homepage, instead of the sentence: "Laugh with you 30,000 times, don't complain about parting." Well, I thought about it, so it doesn't matter.

This is originally a sentence used to end. Why do I always have to impose some unnecessary plots?

In fact, I also seriously thought about it and found that I never regretted it. I left Lin Xueyan's contact information, but I blocked all her information. After that, I really never touched it again.

I was born with no stories to tell, all I have are stupid things I have done. But it's good to look back When you are young, you should do something special for love. In this way, if you really meet someone who shares a glass of wine with you in the future, you can at least tell a joke when there is no story to drink.