Shallow joy is like a pale dog, and deep love is like a long wind.

One is to make the other half better, and the other is to make the other half worse.

Obviously, I am the latter.

Maybe-not because.

For example, I was afraid to describe any details about you. For example, I hesitated to write a memo about you, but it never took shape. For example, I dare not admit from my heart how much I like you. For example, if I brainwash myself and say that I dumped you, you should be disgusted.

However, impulse always breaks these rules unconsciously.

1, people will change.

People really change.

I finally admitted it

I remember I hated smoking, that kind of erratic smoking, and everyone around me smoked this harmful substance. But-people really change, and I finally admit this view.

If you touch a folded pocket, there will always be a pack of unpacked cigarettes lying inside.

One, two, three, four ... Yes, once.

Knowing that smoking is equivalent to chronic suicide, knowing that you can't eat, and being so annoying, obviously-

But I still want to smoke, when I often don't know what I'm doing, when I often want to cry and laugh, when I'm in black and white for a long time, when I'm unfamiliar with it, when I'm familiar with it, when it's sunny and when it's raining.

Maybe I'm not in love with anyone, just wasting my life in another way.

How fast can you forget someone?

In a blink of an eye, you can forget it as long as you make up your mind.

People always say that if you forget a person, you will first forget his appearance, then his voice, and finally only a vague shadow remains.

Actually, the above two sentences are wrong.

2. A painful and happy fate

Intentionally or unintentionally

People who break into your life.

Only you know that he is fate.

You will be that person from the inside out, from your eyes to your heart-

When you meet a figure similar to him, you will think it is him with ecstasy. When you pass by similar scenery, you look at ghosts holding hands like crazy. When you hear everyone speak in a similar tone, you desperately want to verify it. When you eat deja vu food, you will drown the restaurant and find out if that person is hiding in the corner and watching you secretly. You will always be trapped in the world you weave, and this state will continue aimlessly until-

Finally, you suddenly realize that he is no longer in your world. He is the shadow of your tarsal maggot, making you feel like him when you see any image, and making anyone who has something in common with him look forward to him.

In fact, you know the way, he has already left; In fact, you may have forgotten that there are millions of people and the scenery is as heavy as Qian Qian. How can he park in the same place as you? You know, waiting is the hardest, and only those who still have hope will choose this way.

But you will never forget that the person who broke into your life intentionally or unintentionally, you thought he was just a passer-by, and only you knew he was predestined.

This kind of memory will accompany you all your life. He is an unforgettable rain in your youth memory and the biggest rain you have ever had. You can forget that person's appearance, voice, and even advantages and disadvantages, but you will never forget the taste of getting wet in the rain-

Pain and happiness.

The fundamental difference between reality and fiction is that there are only results in reality without miracles.

The movie Breaking the Contract is the only love drama left after I deleted it. I didn't feel much about romantic dramas before, but it seems to have changed from some moments. Those melodramatic and old-fashioned plots easily move me.

In five years, people will grow old and dried bamboo shoots will grow old, but their feelings will not change, and they will rise and fall in ups and downs, but they will only be as stable as a rock, although people's hearts have changed since ancient times. Even if they have bad feelings, they still laugh and play like old friends.

3. Pretend to be vicious

I'm sick.

My needs are far greater than yours.

Most people will disagree with this vulgar view and think that they should not go back after a long time.

Yes, it's not time that passed, but us, and we will never be there again. That depends on whether those feelings last forever or disappear.

However, in reality, when we meet, we are either full of embarrassment or vent all our emotions like a scourge, just like a vicious little witch. When he really gives up completely, you will be particularly frustrated.

You should know that you are expecting this reaction from him, right? Isn't that what you want?

We know why this happens, and we have always advised lovelorn people to talk well. Once it's their turn, you'll look like a fool. Probably some love will hide their joy with the hypocrisy in their bones. This is the so-called love will react from the heart to the behavior, that is, deep love is like Changfeng.

But this is not a long-term love, but a kind of false viciousness. Only you know that it is false, and it is not from the original intention. But-you also need to know that no one will forgive you, and deformed love will only leave a dead back and never look back. Even if it's just a white lie, you should know that people's hearts are easy to satisfy but also easy to break.

What moved me most in the movie was what the heroine said: I am sick, so my demand for you is far greater than yours.

So she let him go.

You said: I really don't like the way you give up on yourself.

I replied: Did you get used to it before?

Good, you give me air, as you wish.

Maybe I can imagine you gnashing your teeth when you say this, but maybe there is nothing you can do, just as I feel about myself.

4. Self-righteous

Why bother?

Actually, maybe I deserve it.

In fact, I can only say "I don't know" to others about many things. In fact, I may have forgotten to tell you that when I said that sharp sentence, I was more sad than a million ants. In fact, maybe this is the real me, cold and vicious, but I just don't want to drag you into this.

Yes, things that you are more reluctant to let go of others and more eager to brainwash yourself and give others happiness are going to be buried, but you know-

In the end, you still can't do it, you can't ignore your inner powerlessness, you can't be free and easy, and you can't hear those opposing voices.

You won't tell the world that you are selfless like an idiot. You're great.

Maybe this is the general trend from the beginning, but why-why bother?

Probably. I don't know.

Actually, you are right. I deserve it.

But it is also possible-you really never liked me. How can a self-loathing and self-loathing person avoid rejection from others?

Maybe I am resigned to my fate, from birth to life, to the end. As time goes on, there is nothing to admit.

I should envy being a person like you, really cheerful and optimistic from the inside out. You are not afraid of other people's thorns, but you want to pounce on me. I just feel like a freak and don't even know who I am.

Who am I? This is a very funny question.

At this time, I think I should have another cigarette.

I like you very much, but I hate who I am with you.

I can't figure out why the habit I used to hate has changed unconsciously now, as if I really lived the way you hoped. In fact, it is really-habits are too difficult to change, even more difficult than life or death, and death is too easy, with 1000 ways and 10000 ways.

But it may be to experience seeing yourself from your point of view, or it may not be-it's crazy.

5. A strange dream

Have you ever loved anyone?

Yes, but I'm not me anymore.

Of course you don't know, now I just need to put on my pajamas as soon as I enter the door, although I always run out disheveled;

Of course, you don't know. Now you clean up the mess while cooking, although it is still as bad as ever;

Of course, you don't know. Now as long as the weather is good, I will sit outside in the sun, although I still hate the sun and can't think.

Of course you don't know, now you go out for a walk almost every night, although you walk around aimlessly like a fool;

Of course, you wouldn't know. You have appeared in my dreams thousands of times, and I am looking forward to dreaming, because I can see you in my dreams.

A girl came to a cabin in the forest and wanted to go out to play, but the owner was not there, only the man who helped look after the cabin was there.

The man turned away the moment he saw the girl, but the man didn't expect that she saw herself.

She walked up to him and asked if she had seen a young man. The man said, no.

Then the girl begged him to call her, and the man took her to a hut with a telephone.

The girl told the man that the person she liked abandoned her. She wants him back. I heard that he likes to travel around, and that he spent some time in this forest, so she traveled halfway around the world to find him.

The man said with a straight face, this is it. You can call. The man didn't seem to pay attention to what she was saying.

The girl dialed the familiar phone number, but it didn't exist. She's a little scared.

Until they turned to leave, the man's companion stopped him, "XX, are you ready?"

Only men and women stand in the same place at the same time, and their companions keep talking. The girl was stunned. It turns out that the boy she has been looking for is a different XX.

So the girl held back the name she heard. She asked the man, Let's go hiking together.

When crossing the bridge, the girl naturally asked the man: Have you loved anyone?

The man walked away without looking back, as if to say something irrelevant: yes, but I am not me anymore.

The girl's heart is like a knife. Of course, she knows that her beloved J is not herself, but-for better or worse, she still loves it.

This is the only dream that has touched my heart for a long time. As for why I had such a dream, I still don't know.

I thought that love can fill the regrets in life, but it is love that creates more regrets.

But it doesn't matter, I'm not afraid to expose these secrets and regrets.

As long as a person is buried in the dust, those unforgettable secrets will rot, and no one will remember them except me.

Think of it as a madman's nonsense and a bad joke.

Fortunately, fortunately, you will never know. Fortunately, you remember the cruelty I want you to remember.

But maybe-

You don't wanna know.