Turn over old scores.

Whether we all have a chance to say this sentence.

At this moment, is the person you love still with you?

one

That year, Yao Yao and Lu Xiao met by chance. If there were another minute, or a minute later, they wouldn't have met. Perhaps this is the fate that love and hate are destined to entangle their lives.

Four years ago, Yao Yao's best friend Xiaole broke up with her boyfriend of four years. When you are lovelorn, it will always relieve the pain to have someone around you. As the best friend, Yao Yao naturally wants to accompany Xiaole. On weekends, she went from the North Fifth Ring Road to the West Fifth Ring Road to accompany Xiaole to go shopping, eat and chat. While Xiaole is shopping crazily, she scolds the smelly man. Yao Yao also scolds a few words from time to time, "Yes, he is such a fucking asshole" and "He left you, and he can't find a more beautiful girl than you". For a woman who has just fallen in love, don't tell her the truth of love, and don't say that there is still a long way to go. It's all nonsense. Just accompany her to scold the street.

They didn't go home until the mall closed that day. Girlfriend brokenhearted, Yao Yao didn't go back at night. She intends to stay with Xiaole all the time. They went to the supermarket not far from Xiaole's house to buy something to eat and settle the bill. Not far away, Xiaole stopped.

"Damn, I forgot to buy cigarettes."

If they hadn't turned back to the supermarket and walked back that day, Yao Yao might not have met Lu Xiao.

Xiaole lives in a residential building with an alley downstairs. There are several small restaurants in the alley. On their way back, they passed two men who came out of the restaurant and smelled of alcohol. They should go to the back toilet to pee. One of the men looked back at them from time to time. Xiaole was a courageous and straight-tempered girl. Xiaole shouted at them arrogantly: "Why do you always look at me? Do you know me? "

Yao Yao then took Xiaole and said, "Go quickly, they are all drunk."

Be such a shout, two people stopped looking back, also didn't speak. Xiaole looked at this situation and shouted, "What are you looking at? Know each other! ? "

One of the little boys smiled and said, "Oh, I know you. Why don't I know you? Come in and have dinner together. " As he spoke, he walked towards them.

This restaurant is just below Xiaole's house. Xiaole often comes here for dinner and is very familiar with the boss here. Xiaole lives but is familiar with it, so she has to go in. "I'm afraid you are a bear. What can I do if I have a meal? "

Yao Yao pulled Xiaole and whispered, "Don't go, I don't know."

Xiaole casually said, "What are you afraid of under the house?" Then he whispered in Yao Yao's ear, "Don't you think this boy is handsome? I like handsome guys?" Then he dragged Yao Yao and the boy in without hesitation. Stepping into the door, Xiaole greeted the proprietress with great enthusiasm.

The young man called him Chen Chao and took them into the drinking water tank. Chen Chao said to five or six people sitting on the wine table, "These are my two friends." Then find them two seats to sit down.

At this time, the box was a mess, full of alcohol, bottles and ashes. A group of big men were particularly booed when they saw two girls coming. Fortunately, Xiaole has a glib tongue and is not afraid of strangers, as if she is really a good friend of Chen Chao. Yao Yao watched them drink loudly and just sat there awkwardly. During the conversation, I learned that they are all in the army. In different units, they just came to the party today.

About half an hour later, a very young boy staggered to open the door, glanced at the room, walked over to Yao Yao and sat down.

The boy pointed his glass at Yao Yao: "Hello, my name is Lu Xiao. You look like one of my junior high school classmates." Yao Yao looked at him and smiled, thinking it was a very old-fashioned conversation. "Hello, call me Yao Yao." Say that finish, I took a sip of the cup and ignored him.

Later, Lu Xiao said that they drank a lot of wine that day, but later they couldn't stand it. A person ran to another private room to sleep. After waking up, he went in and found two more beautiful women. He doesn't know what happened. When he saw Yao Yao, he thought she was cute, so he couldn't help sitting next to her.

After the people on the wine table dispersed noisily that day, Chen Chao obviously didn't want Xiaole to go back so soon, pulling Xiaole to say that the rest were all one of their own and going to KTV to sing. Yao Yao doesn't want to go, but it's hard. Xiaole obviously still wants to continue playing.

KTV box, Chen Chao sitting next to is, two people also don't know what to talk about, have begun to flirt, chat very warmly. Yao Yao sat in the corner of the sofa, playing with his head down. Lu Xiao came to see him several times, but he didn't pay much attention to him. She felt a little disgusted with Liu Xiao's vulgar opening remarks just now. Several other buddies were drinking at first, and then fell asleep on the sofa. Lu Xiao was there alone, ordering songs and singing.

Suddenly Xiaole leaned down and squatted in Yao Yao's ear and said, "Chen Chao said that Lu Xiao told me that he likes you just because you don't talk, and he is a little afraid of you."

Yao Yao glanced at Xiaole: "Stop it, how old is this child? You'd better continue to hook up with Chen Chao. "

Xiaole blinked and leaned in: "I asked, I am an adult, 20." Then I shouted at Lu Xiao: "Lu Xiao, Lu Xiao, you sing a love song for Yao Yao, and I will give you her phone number." Say that finish Chen Chao and another elder brothers also follow applause input.

Lu Xiao particularly embarrassed to say, "I don't know what to sing. Sing ... sing a damn tenderness. "

Hearing this, Yao Yao secretly smiled again. What kind of love song is this? Isn't this a breakup song? Alas, it's still Ray Ma. She won't listen to this kind of song for ten thousand years. At the same time, I think this boy is also very interesting.

two

Lu Xiao has Yao Yao's telephone number. I call her every day after work and ask something like "Have you eaten" and "What did you do". Yao Yao told him that he would hang up in a few minutes. At that time, she didn't want to have any further development with Lu Xiao, although she knew that Lu Xiao liked her. But Lu Xiao is a few years younger than her, and that's the age gap. It is absolutely impossible between them. But she didn't know that the later Lu Xiao was so important to her that it hurt her bones easily.

After they kept in touch for some time, Lu Xiao stopped calling. Yao Yao thought it was all over. Sometimes she picks up her hand and thinks, why didn't she call suddenly? But then she thought, I don't want to talk to him anyway.

Later, Lu Xiao told her that she couldn't get a "signal" after calling for so long. She felt that Yao Yao was not interested in him, so she stopped calling. Every time I talk about it, Yao Yao scolds Lu Xiao. There is no such thing as chasing girls. Men should not be stubborn and pestering.

After the contact was interrupted, Xiaole called Yao Yao again one day and asked her to accompany her. When she was still on the subway, she suddenly received a phone call from Liu Xiao:

"I heard that you are coming here?"

"Well, yes."

"I'm on duty. If you go back early, you may not see you again. "

"Nothing, I won't go to see you."

Although I still don't think so, I am very cold to him, but my heart is a little secretly pleased, and I didn't tell Liu Xiao that I stayed at Xiaole's house at night and never came back.

Izzy and Chen Chao are tired of each other. I don't know if they love each other. Judging from this posture, they must get along. That night, Chen Chao went to KTV again and called Lu Xiao. He said in a very special tone, "Yao Yao is here, too. Come here. " Xiaole also shouted: "Yes, yes, Lu Xiao, come on, Yao Yao is waiting for you!"

Yao Yao smiled and scolded a few words, and played a few times. "Well, what's your situation now? How are you getting along? "

"Ha ha, not yet, look at his performance. Anyway, I am single now, so I don't have to think about XX (ex-boyfriend) when I fall in love again. " Having said this, Xiaole whispered again, "You haven't been in love for so long. You can consider Lu Xiao. What's the age? What does it matter if you are a few years younger? I heard from Chen Chao that he is still a place. "

Yao Yao blushed after hearing this: "What are you talking about? Neither of us can. " But in my heart, I look forward to seeing Lu Xiao. That's what women say.

It didn't end until the wee hours. Xiaole and Chen Chao got on a bus. She got into a car with Lu Xiao and a friend. They sat side by side in the back. Liu Xiao was a little drunk and looked at her face with a cocked head. She was embarrassed to be seen, so she pulled Lu Xiao's head forward with her hand and said, "What are you looking at?"

Lu Xiao conveniently held her hand in it and turned her head: "Look at it."

Yao Yao felt nervous and pulled out his hand and gave him a push: "Just don't look."

Uncle, the driver in front, drove calmly. Yao Yao saw the buddy sitting in the co-pilot smiled and didn't speak. She felt embarrassed and upset. At the last place, I only felt that someone kissed her face quickly. Her head was covered and she looked back. Liu Xiao still pretended as if nothing had happened, facing out of the window. Before she could speak, Lu Xiao turned and smiled at her. "Here we are, get off."

After Lu Xiao secretly kissed her, her heart began to shake. In the days after coming back, she touched the place where Lu Xiao kissed her face from time to time. There will be some sweet smiles.

That day, Yao Yao complained to Lu Xiao that she was going to the shopping center two stops away from home to buy a dining table, but she couldn't move it herself. Sure enough, Liu Xiao asked for leave to accompany her shopping.

She knew she was looking for an excuse to see him, too. She needs someone to help him, but he doesn't.

After receiving Lu Xiao at the subway station, they walked towards the shopping center. Walking, Liu Xiao took her hand by hand. Yao Yao pretended to be angry and looked at Lu Xiao: "What are you doing?" .

Liu Xiaoxiao smiled, said nothing, and didn't mean to let go. Just pulling her forward. She looked at Lu Xiao, somewhat helpless and somewhat happy, and stopped: "Idiot, your hand is upside down, which makes me uncomfortable." With that, he took out his hand and put it back in Liu Xiao's hand. "Oh, why are your palms so sweaty? It is still spring. Are you so hot? "

Lu Xiao saw Yao Yao's move and showed a bright smile on his face: "I'm nervous."

Then they got together.

A lot has happened in our years together. Later, those days of repeated quarrels and mutual torture may be deeper and more passionate memories, but she can't remember the reasons for each quarrel. The details of the first acquaintance are always vivid in her mind. The way Lu Xiao talked to her shyly for the first time; After he secretly kissed her for the first time, he looked like a prude; He held her hand for the first time, so nervous that his palms sweated; Even for the first time, they had an intimate relationship, and he couldn't untie his bra, so he was anxious and clumsy. At that time, the movements were cautious, the expression was worried and expected, and every shy heartbeat was so clear and beautiful. If we had only one life, we wouldn't have so much pain.

She was the first woman in Lu Xiao, but she was not his only one.

three

It was a summer night after two years together. Lu Xiao went out drinking with his comrades-in-arms, and this time he came back very late. She waited for him as usual, and every time, no matter how late, they didn't go to bed until after the phone call.

Lu Xiao drank too much and got drunk. He said, "Yao Yao, if I did something wrong, can you forgive me?"

Hearing this, Yao Yao lost his mind and his heart hung in mid-air. But she really wants to know what Lu Xiao did to herself. "Well, you say. You tell me the truth. If it was a long time ago, I wouldn't care about you. "

After listening to this sentence, Liu Xiao seems to have a guarantee in his heart, or maybe he will continue to drink. In fact, during the Spring Festival holiday, he and his comrades went to KTV to sing, and a comrade-in-arms helped him order a young lady.

As soon as Yao Yao called the young lady, she knew immediately what had happened.

"Go out and check in?"

"hmm."

"How much did it cost?"

"No money."

"No money?" She asked incredulously.

"Spent room rate. I said I had no money. Would you like to go out with me? She left with me. "

"My husband's charm is quite big, miss don't money to go with you. How many times have you done it? "

"Just once, I drank too much. Then I left before dawn. "

"How many times have you asked the young lady to sing?"

"I don't want it. They insisted on giving me some and laughed at me. I have occasionally called several times before and never went out to open a room. "

"Where is the room? Do you have a condom? ……"

She has been pretending to talk to him in a calm tone. When he was drunk, she wanted to know more, more. She wants to know everything, even all the details. Some things you know clearly, the more you know, the more painful it is, but you can't stop your curiosity.

"Why did you tell me? If you keep it from me, maybe I'll never know. "

"I feel sorry for you in my heart, and I feel guilty every time I see you. Can you forgive me? "

They played from midnight to early morning and talked a lot. Lu Xiao on the other end of the phone became more and more sober. He regretted it too late and cried bitterly, begging F to forgive him. The first time Yao Yao heard a man crying like a child, her heart was so moved, but it also made her extremely heartbroken and desperate.

Why did all this happen suddenly? Why does a beautiful love change beyond recognition overnight? A few hours ago, how did two kind and loving people suddenly become devastated? She doesn't know how to accept this fact at once, and she doesn't know what to say to Lu Xiao. Forgive her? Break up? How did you make your decision? After she was at a loss, a great sadness came to her, not because of Lu Xiao's betrayal, but because she saw that love was being destroyed and collapsed! All the beautiful things become dirty and shameful in an instant, and my heart seems to have been twisted a few times by hand, which is particularly painful.

She picked up the blade and began to row on her arm, one by one, hoping that the pain in her chest would be transferred to her body. But it is so weak, I still feel my heart like a cramp, tearing wildly. Everything existed at that moment, as if everything had disappeared. About Lu Xiao, memories, the past, and photos of him in bed with another woman, all exploded in my mind. She didn't know how many times she was scratched, and blood flowed down her arm to her thighs and floor. She sat in the bathroom crying, just wanting to know an answer: "Why did love suddenly change?"

four

A month later.

A group of friends accompanied Yao Yao to sing and drink in KTV. I wonder who ordered a song sung by Lu Xiaoxi. She gulped down the beer left in the bottle, picked up her mobile phone and sent a message to Lu Xiao: "I seem to have lost a very important person in my life." Before the words were finished, tears fell on the screen of the mobile phone.

Lu Xiao sent a text message saying, "Do you know how much I miss you? Let's make up. "

Yao Yao looked at the message and shed more tears. How much she wants to forgive Lu Xiao, how much she wants it to never happen, and how much she wants to go back to the past. But in her mind, there is always a picture of Liu Xiao staying with another woman. This month, thinking about this scene, she felt that she was going crazy.

But during the time when she tried to leave Lu Xiao, she was not happy at all, even more desperate. Desperately thinking about nothing, working hard, going out to play with friends, and trying not to let yourself be idle, still can't alleviate the inner pain and despair. Lu Xiao is away, and no one shares the joys and sorrows of life with her. The world seems lifeless and no longer means anything to her.

She wanted to cry in Lu Xiao's arms, or beat him and scold him, as long as Lu Xiao was by her side.

So, they made up, and the quarrel became more and more fierce. She tortured Lu Xiao willfully. When she is happy, she will make Lu Xiao happy and then die. When she is angry, she will scold him in the most vicious language. The word "uneasy" always makes Yao Yao nervous. She wants to know where Lu Xiao is, who he is with, where he eats, check his mobile phone, WeChat, QQ, and even call his mobile phone to locate. She's crazy, which makes Lu Xiao crazy.

Many times, Yao Yao wished she could let go and start all over again. She is eager to believe Lu Xiao, but she can't convince herself. She is eager to forgive him, but she can't pretend that nothing happened. She lived in contradiction. At one time, she felt very happy, but at the same time, she felt that Lu Xiao was hypocritical.

If the days were calmer, she would be uneasy. I think if life is too peaceful, Lu Xiao will have a comfortable psychology and will do something wrong to her. So every once in a while, she will try her best to "do", even if it is a small thing, she will make a scene, deliberately turn over old scores and deliberately find fault with him. She wants to torture Lu Xiao, see him angry, go on the rampage, see him sad, see him cry ... Every time she deliberately challenges Lu Xiao's maximum endurance, or she apologizes, or Lu Xiao apologizes. After all, Lu Xiao will come back and hug himself. At that time, she will have a little pleasure of "he can't live without me", and she can feel that Lu Xiao really loves her.

Their love turned into twisted love. But if it is tangled, it is better to say that it is reluctant; If it is reluctant, it is better to say that it is too much love. No matter for Yao Yao or Lu Xiao, if there is no deep affection between two people, who will be willing to let the other side destroy it? Sometimes it's harder to persist than to let go.

five

Lu Xiao: "Let's all get rid of it. Being together is suffering. "

F: "Let me go if you can. I have never had the courage to make a choice. You make a decision. "

Lu Xiao: I can't make up my mind.

Yao Yao: "I especially hate the way you talk to me now."

Lu Xiao: "My heart hurts like a tear. You are driving me crazy, I really can't stand it. "

At the moment, Lu Xiao is training outside, and it is forbidden to use mobile phones. He hides in the toilet or quilt and sends messages to Yao Yao every day. I don't know why, but they quarreled again this time.

Liu Xiao sent another paragraph:

"I'm not afraid of being tired. You are my motivation. When I finish running three kilometers, I want to stick to it and I can chat with you when I come back. I cut my hand and got blood bubbles on my feet while practicing guns. The skin above the neck burns like a black man. I don't recite the questions from books every day. I just want to stay with you for a while. Why bother? One second I was in love with you, and the next I was conquered. I really can't stand it. Since I can't let you go, don't torture me any more. "

Yao Yao saw this passage, and her heart began to soften. Some regret, even though she has a hundred reasons to be angry with Lu Xiao, should she stop? If the evil forces in my heart really can't pass, why bother all the time? However, Lu Xiao has already become her flesh and blood, preferring to pester and torture, and she has no courage to bid farewell to Lu Xiao in life.

This time Lu Xiao is so serious, so serious and calm to say goodbye. Before, they quarreled, broke up, abused each other and even started fighting. Every time I shout, I will die of old age. But in fact, both of them know that after all, they are inseparable and will not leave. After two years, the day when I was exhausted and tired of quarreling finally came, and everything made sense.

F looked at these words of Liu Xiao. Although she couldn't see his expression, she felt the power that Liu Xiao wanted to break free completely. She stared at the screen in a daze and suddenly didn't know what to reply. She doesn't want to lose Lu Xiao.

For four years, she watched Lu Xiao change from a little boy to a man. She has been asking him for a mature man. As long as he doesn't do well, Lu Xiao will scold him. It never occurred to me that it takes time for a boy to become a man. In addition to "betrayal", Lu Xiao did give her too much care and tolerance.

When crossing the road, Lu Xiao always lets her walk inside to avoid being met by pedestrians.

When he caught a cold, Lu Xiao went to the hospital to get pills, granules and syrup, and ate a bunch of them at sixes and sevens, enough for several years.

When I get paid, the first thing to do is to buy her a skirt.

Lu Xiao accompanied her to watch any movie she wanted and never picked a movie. At dinner, Lu Xiao said yes to everything she wanted, and never said that she didn't like this or that.

When she was awakened by a nightmare at night, at three or four o'clock in the morning, Lu Xiao received her call. Although she is not very awake, she will still vaguely say, "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I am here."

It was her coolie when she moved. She takes it out on her when things are not going well at work. She is her audience when she is sad.

……

If you are destined to be inseparable, why embarrass yourself and Lu Xiao? If everyone has a chance to be forgiven. Then I should forgive you from the bottom of my heart, right She leaned back on the bed and thought about it, so her eyes were wet. She picked up her mobile phone and typed quickly: "Lu Xiao, do you love me?"

Lu Xiao: "We have been together for four years. You always ask me that. Can't you feel it? "

Yao Yao: "Can you promise me clearly that there will be no more betrayal in the future?"

Lu Xiao: "No, why don't you believe me?"

F: Lu Xiao, if there is still time, let's start over. I believe you this time, and you believe me, okay? "

After a while, I didn't receive a reply from Lu Xiao. Her tears could not help falling, and this time she was really determined to let go of Lu Xiao and herself. However, she felt Lu Xiao's hesitation and hesitation. She started to get scared and sent a message to Lu Xiao: "I hate it, you are so fucking annoying, don't do this to me. Let's start over, I really want to hold you and cry. "

Then Lu Xiao sent a message: "I want to go back to Beijing early and hold you and smile."

If it's not too late, you are still in love while he is not far away. Let bygones be bygones. Let bygones be bygones and return to the way you were in love.