Lang rides a bamboo horse around the bed to read Qingmei’s diary

Concubine

When you were five years old and I was four, my family moved next door to yours, and my mother took me to visit my neighbors. When I entered your house, the first thing you said when you saw me was, I look really ugly. I cried as soon as I brushed it, so you were scolded by your aunt for a long time

You were ten years old and I was nine. I always like to run behind you, cling to you and play with you, but you always think I am timid and avoid me.

When you were sixteen and I was fifteen, a boy in my class confessed his love to me. When he lowered his head and told me that he liked me. But your shadow appeared in my mind, and I ran away nervously. From then on, I never dared to look into your eyes again.

When you were eighteen and I was seventeen, you failed the college entrance examination. That night, you knocked on my window and asked me to go out for a walk. We walked one after another on the path we used to play in when we were young. The moonlight shone on your back, making you look thinner and thinner. You turned your head and stretched out your hand. At that moment, I thought you wanted to hug me. You just touched my head with your hand and said in a voice that I could barely hear: "I don't plan to repeat my studies anymore, and I plan to go out into the outside world. You have to study hard and get into the university of your choice." Then. At that time, I just responded to you lightly. I'm afraid if I say one more word, my tears will flow uncontrollably. We didn't talk anymore, we just walked along the path. You know, how I hope this road is endless. The next day, without saying goodbye to me, you got on the bus and went to that distant place without me.

From then on, I started reading like crazy, reading day and night. In the end, even my mother started to be afraid. He advised me not to work so hard, and it wouldn’t be a big deal if I couldn’t get into college. However, she didn’t know that I was here for that promise, the promise that you would study hard and go to college. The results of the college entrance examination have come out, and they are quite satisfactory. I can apply for a relatively good university in my province. However, when I was filling out my application form, I chose the one where you were among all the schools because I wanted to be closer to you and I wanted to breathe your breath.

A few days before school started, I grabbed the small piece of paper my aunt gave me your contact information and dialed your number while trembling. In this year, I was so stubborn that I didn’t contact you just for this moment. I am full of joy and want to tell you that I have been admitted to your university and will be reporting as freshmen in a few days. You just said to me in a calm tone, congratulations to me, and you came to pick me up at the train station that day. Then, you hung up the phone. Do you know how disappointed I was, but thinking that you must be too tired from work, I didn’t care about it.

The day I met you, I wore a white skirt. Because, I remember you said that girls look good in white. As soon as I got out of the train station, I saw you. You are still so thin, but taller. There is a beautiful woman standing next to you, wearing a miniskirt and smelling hot all over her body. You held the woman's hand, walked towards me with a smile, and then told me that she was your girlfriend. I suddenly felt like I had heard a huge joke, and then I started laughing so hard that I almost thought I would choke to death. Since then, I have never taken the initiative to contact you again, because I know there is no need for it.

This year, I am twenty-four and you are twenty-five. You called me and asked me to attend your wedding! When I saw you at the wedding, I found that you were no longer so thin, and the bride was not the same as before, but she looked gentle and virtuous, and she really matched you. I thought I would be sad, but at this moment, I felt relieved. It turns out that if you really like someone, you will feel happy for the other person's happiness.

I like you, but it has nothing to do with you.

Lang Pian

That year, you moved next door to my house. I had never seen such a thin child, wearing a white skirt, but he looked like an angel. But, who knows, I would blurt out that you are ugly. As a result, my mother punished me badly that day.

After you moved here, we played often. However, one day my classmate said that you were my little girlfriend. From then on, I avoided you in the name of disdain for your timidity.

After entering junior high school, you have become more and more handsome, and boys have confessed to you one after another. I am surprised that I have a feeling in my heart that I don’t like you being liked by other boys.

I failed the college entrance examination. My grades were never good. I thought there was no need to repeat the exam, so I planned to go work outside with my cousin. That night, I asked you out. I had a lot to say to you, but after seeing you, I couldn't say anything. The moonlight shines on your face, making you look so unreal. I almost wanted to hold you in my arms, but my reason told me not to.

Working outside is very hard. I get up before dawn every day to rush to work, and I have to work overtime at every turn. But thinking about you working hard like me from afar, I feel full of energy. Countless times, I wanted to call you and listen to your voice, but I was afraid of disturbing your study.

I will always remember that day when you called me and told me that you were admitted to xx University and would be arriving in my city soon. At that moment, I was so excited that I almost couldn't hold the phone. But when I change my mind, the gap between you and me is even greater now. You are like clouds in the sky, and I am nothing. I couldn't bear it any longer, and I started to feel extremely depressed, so I hung up the phone in a hurry~

In order to cut off all possibilities between you and me, when I picked you up, I made an appointment with my colleague and asked her to pretend to be mine. girlfriend. You were wearing a white dress that day, just like the first time I saw you, as pure as an angel. I mustered up the courage to introduce you to that woman as my girlfriend. After you listened, you started laughing, and with your laughter, I seemed to hear the sound of broken glass. That night, I stayed up all night. From then on, I never contacted you again because I didn't dare.

Later, my family arranged for me to go on a blind date. The woman was gentle and quiet, and she looked very much like you when she spoke. I can't be with you, so why not be with someone who makes me feel like you! I told my parents that I was very satisfied with her, and the family quickly arranged a wedding for us. I originally planned not to ask you to come, but I don't know if I will have the opportunity to see you in such a grand manner after this. I was selfish once, and this is the last time!

As long as you can be happy, I am willing to stand behind you forever.

After reading Li Bai's "Changgan Xing", I originally wanted to write a love story about childhood sweethearts, where the hero and heroine can love each other until they grow old. However, I am afraid that marriage will ruin the beauty of love in the beginning. As soon as we enter the palace of marriage, we will be troubled by all kinds of trivial matters. I have heard others describe marriage in this way. It is just a tool for men to sleep with women without restraint and for women to grow old with peace of mind. Although the marriage will not be so unbearable, it is probably so~ So, in the end, I cruelly separated the hero and heroine, although they never expressed their feelings to each other from the beginning to the end. However, I believe that this kind of love that has never begun is the most lasting! Oh my god, it’s scary for a woman who doesn’t want to do serious business. Just a song or a poem can start all kinds of obscenities.