Fan Meizhong's article "At that moment, the earth shook" ——5 12 "Wenchuan Earthquake Biography"

At that moment, the earth shook and the mountains shook-5.12 Personal History of Wenchuan Earthquake.

Without psychological preparation, I experienced the most horrible experience in my life in Dujiangyan, which is closest to Yingxiu, the epicenter: 5. 12 Wenchuan M8.0 earthquake!

As usual, this afternoon is my first year of SL Chinese class in IB. Before class, both my students and I felt very stuffy. I walked around the classroom and tried to open all the windows. The content of this lesson is the thirteenth time of A Dream of Red Mansions. As usual, the students will speak first, but they will finish in less than ten minutes. I think students in many places ignore the past and ask students to ask questions. The students have no problem, so I have to go into battle myself. When talking about Qin Keqing's dream interpretation for Feng, I asked the students, "Is this a magical realism?" The student said, "This is superstition!" I asked the students again: "Will Cao Xueqin think this is superstition? Will Xifeng think so? " The student said, "No! Because they believe it! " From this, I persuaded the students: "Today, we think that dreams, fortune telling and geomantic omen are superstitions, because we look at these things from the perspective of modern scientific positivism and rationality. Science and reason have greatness, but they also have their limitations. For example, the meaning of my life is empty. Can scientific rationality be solved? Can science and reason comfort those who have lost relatives and friends? Can science and reason guarantee our happiness? Therefore, many problems and fields can't be understood or solved by science and reason, so we shouldn't be too conceited about science and reason, and we should keep awe of the mysterious forces in the universe ... "At this moment, the desks shook, and the students were stunned and a little overwhelmed. Because I have experienced several minor earthquakes in which tables and beds shook before, I have some experience in earthquakes, so I calmly comforted the students and said, "Don't panic! Earthquake, nothing! ..... "Before I finished, the teaching building shook violently and even made a loud noise (because the classroom is a big study room built of wood on the basis of a bungalow), and I instantly reacted-a big earthquake! Then I rushed to the stairs and even fell down when I went downstairs. At this moment, I suddenly had an idea, "Is China under nuclear attack?" Then roll and climb to the center of the football field next to the teaching building at the fastest speed! I found myself the first person to arrive at the football field, followed by a foreigner with a two-year-old child coming out of the nearby teacher building and a student coming down from the boys' dormitory. At this time, the earth had a violent horizontal shaking, maybe one meter! At this time, I only feel that the end of the world is coming. People often say that they are down to earth, but when the ground is unstable, I feel that nothing is reliable! With the earthquake, the 50 cm thick football wall on the east side of the football field collapsed in a few seconds! Gradually, students and teachers are concentrated on the football field, because during the graduation examination of IB level 2, some students didn't attend classes, some students slept or played games in the dormitory, so some students ran out naked in slippers and shorts! At this time, I noticed that the students in my class had not come out yet, and it took a while to see them coming to the playground one after another. I asked them strangely, "Why don't you come out?" The student replied, "We didn't react at first. We just watched you run away and disappear. When we reacted, we were all scared and hid under the table! We won't come out until the serious earthquake subsides! Teacher, why don't you take us out before you leave? " "I have never been a dedicated person, I only care about my own life, don't you know? Last time there was a fire in the middle of the night, I also fled quickly! " Having said that, I then asked myself, "Why didn't I organize the students to evacuate and escape?" In fact, at that moment, the house shook so badly that I knew I was just an instinctive reaction. With a strong sense of crisis, I react faster and escape faster every time I encounter danger! However, the instantaneous instinctive choice may reflect the balance between the inner self and the lives of others. Later, I told the students who were disappointed with me: "I am a person who pursues freedom and justice, but I am not a person who dares to sacrifice myself to pursue others!" " At this moment of life and death choice, I can only consider sacrificing myself for my daughter. In this case, others, even my mother, will not care. Because I can't tolerate adults, it's meaningless to run away from one when I can't send it. If it is too dangerous, I will die with you. If there is no danger, I don't care about you, and you are not in danger, not to mention that you are seventeen or eighteen years old! "This may be my self-justification, but I don't feel any moral guilt. I also told the students: "I will never be the one who dares to fight with a knife gangster!" " "Having said that, I can't estimate what I will do next time the danger comes. All I know is that I'm not the one who rushed to the forefront in the face of totalitarianism and went to jail for it.

At this time, I began to worry about the safety of my family, Fox and Li Yulong. But at first, my cell phone had no signal. Obviously, due to power failure, the station can't work normally. After a while, the mobile phone got a signal. Maybe the station started the standby power generation equipment. But there are too many people calling at this time, and my phone can't be dialed out at all, nor can anyone else's phone. Water, electricity, communication and traffic were all cut off, so we had to wait quietly on the playground. Some students even played football when they were very nervous, and I joined in wearing hiking shoes. At this time, we need to adopt such a calm attitude to ease our inner tension! In this way, it was not until five o'clock in the afternoon that the teacher listened to the radio broadcast of Deyang Radio Station with a miniature radio: an earthquake of magnitude 7.8 occurred (editor's note: it was later adjusted to magnitude 8.0), and the epicenter was in Wenchuan! It's the same magnitude as Tangshan earthquake! Everyone is dumbfounded! And the epicenter is so close to Dujiangyan! Everyone speculated: "Wenchuan must have been washed white!" At this time, one of my students looks very heavy because his parents, brothers and other relatives are all in Wenchuan County. Only then did we know that the epicenter was Yingxiu in Wenchuan, not at the foot of Wenchuan County! I didn't know Dujiangyan was actually closer to the epicenter than Wenchuan County! Wenchuan has completely lost contact with the outside world, and the traffic is completely interrupted! This student told me: "Wenchuan often has earthquakes. The year before last, an earthquake of magnitude 6.5 occurred, but except for some old houses, all the houses in Wenchuan were repaired according to magnitude 7, so nothing happened." But this Dujiangyan is worse than the Wenchuan earthquake last year ... "Speaking of this, the student almost choked! Then I remembered that I couldn't sleep in the dormitory office. Don't I live in the playground at night? That also needs quilts and clothes! If I go back to Chengdu, I also need money! I opened the building and went back to the dormitory in fear, only to find that the bucket on the drinking fountain was shaken off and some clothes on the stool were also shaken off. In a hurry, I only took the money but forgot to take the clothes and quilt, because my dormitory is a house that has been repaired for 16 years, and there is a big crack between the bathroom wall and the room wall! So after I came out, I never had the courage to go back to the dormitory!

After that, I wandered around the former playground and found that students from primary schools and kindergartens were there. President Qing was there, so I went to chat with him. I said, "In my impression, the house in Guangya School is not very strong! Why didn't one fall? " President Qing replied proudly, "The houses in our school are built like bunkers. How did it fall? " ? I'm a contractor, not a contractor! Those contractors argued with me about the contracted materials, but I was determined not to do it. I bought materials! I can pay more, the house is cast in situ! The ground is connected to the wall! Fix it. We checked the content of reinforced concrete with instruments! "It turns out that he didn't have foresight, but he didn't cut corners, and he didn't have any special quality assurance and earthquake-proof design! I'm relieved that even the houses in Guangya School that don't look so good haven't fallen down, and there is not much problem elsewhere. At this time, I received messages from Guo Chuyang, Lv Dong and Radish Pit asking about safety, and they all replied successfully. In addition, I successfully sent a message to Li Yulong and received a reply, knowing that he and Fox are both fine. At this time, it suddenly occurred to me that my mother, brother and sister in my hometown may have seen the news of Dujiangyan earthquake and felt worried. They should call home. At this time, only the landline can be connected, but there are too many people calling. I waited for a long time without waiting for the opportunity, so I had to give up! At this time, a student who came back from walking into the city to observe the situation said: "Dujiangyan City was seriously affected, and 20% of the houses collapsed! "The house of Guangya School really stood the test this time!" Teachers and students of this school have been complaining about the architectural quality of Guangya School. After the earthquake, they couldn't help but sit up and take notice of President Qing and his Guangya school house!

At this time, the principal's wife in Chengdu also came back. She said: "Chengdu is fine, but the teaching building of Dujiangyan Juyuan Middle School collapsed. Eighteen classes of students were buried below, and hundreds of people died. The director of education knelt there and cried! " Another resident near Guangya School who came back from Juyuan Town said, "At that time, I was shopping and running very fast. The houses on both sides of the street collapsed instantly. I ran over a body. It's terrible! " Another parent of Guangya School said: "It seems that the quality will be better if I pay more, and my children will be fine in Guangya!"

From five or six o'clock in the afternoon, some parents of Dujiangyan and Chengdu came to the school to pick up their children. I also took my parents' car back to Chengdu at nine o'clock. The traffic in Dujiangyan is so bad that excavators and ambulances can't move forward smoothly because there are too many cars running around in the driveway! I walked on the Second Ring Road for nearly an hour. At ten o'clock, the bus finally got on the Chengguan Expressway. After the bus ran for a while, I received a short message from Wei Yong: "You are still alive!" I quickly replied, "I'm fine. Our school is very good, but the situation in Dujiangyan is very serious! " After the car drove out of the toll station, we found that the west line had been used as a special channel for disaster relief, and the vehicles bypassed the city from the expressway around the city. Then I took a taxi and went straight home. There was no one at home. Before that, I had received a short message from my wife, knowing that they had taken refuge in the open space of the nearby Waldorf School, so I quickly rushed to Waldorf School with my bank card and found that the school had set up two big tents and a dozen small tents, and my daughter had fallen asleep in her car! My wife is sitting and chatting with some Waldorf teachers and parents. My sudden appearance surprised my wife, because my phone has been disconnected since the earthquake, and she has been worried about me! That night, I slept on the school bus at Waldorf School. I can't stretch. I feel bored when the door is closed. There are mosquitoes when the door is open. Anyway, I didn't sleep well. Between dreams and waking, I felt the car shaking obviously twice again, because it was outdoors and there was no psychological burden, so I didn't make any response.

After six o'clock, my aunt called me and said that her sister stayed up all night, because she didn't adapt to the environment, because mosquitoes kept biting, and the little guy kept awake and crying. We have to hurry home. But at this time, everyone has become a frightened bird, and the response to the earthquake has reached a state of fear and fear. I always stare at drinking buckets and teacups to see if the water is shaking. When I sit on the sofa and feel the sofa move, I will solemnly say, "It seemed to move again just now!" " "Get ready and tell everyone to run! In fact, there are many aftershocks of the water shaking in the cup in a day, and there are two big aftershocks of the chandelier shaking! We have packed our clothes, bought dry food and stood at the door with an umbrella, ready to rush down, but in the end we didn't rush out, and many people have already rushed out! Because it was too uncomfortable to sleep outside, we simply slept at home on the night of 13, but I was always alert and didn't sleep well because I was worried about the little guy. I can run very fast myself, but if I hold the little guy, I may not be able to! And panic is likely to stumble, so you must react quickly to buy time, and you must not be careless! In fact, I infer that aftershocks will not exceed 5. 12. Since 5. 12 Chengdu is not dangerous, the aftershock Chengdu is definitely not dangerous. But Chengdu residents who have never experienced such a violent earthquake are obviously frightened, and the tension they created has also infected me! I'm nervous too! At noon that day, I received a short message from Li Yong, informing me to store water quickly, because the Dujiangyan chemical plant leaked water and the water source in Chengdu was polluted! So everyone rushed to find pots and pans to store water! I don't think water can be used How did this happen? So I quickly asked the water delivery company to send five buckets of water, and there were only two buckets left! People in the shopping mall are also snapping up mineral water! At this time, I have already considered whether to quit my hometown Longchang or simply go to Kunming where my wife and brother are located! Turn on the TV, and the TV station is repeating the rumor that there is no such thing as water leakage in China factory, and there is no problem with water in Chengdu! I should be relieved, but because our party is a liar, even if it is true this time, I can't believe it, so I directly called Chairman Qing Guangya of Dujiangyan. He said: "There was no leakage from the chemical plant, but the gas explosion caused the fire! "I am relieved!

I haven't had a comfortable meal for two days in a row. /kloc-on the morning of 0/4, I finally cooked a three-course soup with my heart. Steaming, delicious dishes are ready to serve, and tomato and egg soup is almost ready. Just then, I suddenly got a call from Fox, saying that there was a big earthquake between one and two, and told me to evacuate quickly. As soon as I saw that the time was 1 p.m. 16, a big earthquake might happen at any time, so I immediately turned off the fire and told everyone to leave quickly! My wife is still reluctant to part with food! And my aunt's five-year-old son just cooked jiaozi and couldn't bear to eat one or two! I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. Compared with life, what is a good meal and a bowl of glutinous rice balls? If a devastating earthquake happens suddenly, will your mother-in-law be too late? Women are as irrational and indecisive as children! Rushed to Waldorf, where many students and parents have gathered. It's raining lightly, so we've been sitting under the big tent, because many children are noisy there, and the little guy hasn't been able to sleep well, as if in a depressed mood! After a while, we felt two obvious shakes. I estimate that the magnitude of the epicenter is about five or six, which is still worrying for people in the epicenter area, but the magnitude will generally decline by two levels from the epicenter to Chengdu, that is, three or four. What's the problem? People are really scared. Because the shaking was so slight, we even judged that the big earthquake had not yet arrived. After five in the afternoon, my wife and I finally decided to go home. Because even if we can stand such an environment, the little guy can't stand it. /kloc-on the evening of 0/4, I still got up the courage to sleep at home. Considering my family, especially that little guy, I am still alert and still half asleep. Only then did I feel that I cared more about my family, especially my daughter, than my students! At about eleven o'clock that night, another strong earthquake happened. The mothers of three children under one year old who live in my house reacted quickly and rushed out of the room with their children in their arms, while others in the same community basically went downstairs. As soon as the vibration subsided, I told everyone not to go out, but I didn't trust them, so I told them to sleep in peace. I sat alone in the living room and watched it all night, so I stayed up all night. I spent the next few days in this panic. After several days of tension, anxiety and sleepless nights, I feel exhausted. I feel, I'm afraid we will collapse before the earthquake comes! I'm really afraid of coming, but I don't know when. Fear is the most terrible! /kloc-on the evening of 0/7, I began to sleep peacefully. 18, I even breathed a sigh of relief. I no longer doubt it, because my stool has moved and my eyes have been fixed on the water glass! I slept comfortably that night and felt more than half of my energy restored. Then at ten o'clock in the evening, I saw people in the community fleeing and saying, "The TV announcement says there will be six or seven aftershocks today and tomorrow!" " "I quickly turned on the TV, and sure enough, the emergency notice is being played repeatedly on TV! Many friends also called to inform, and the atmosphere suddenly became very tense! After a calm analysis, I said, "The aftershock area is the area where the aftershock occurred, and Chengdu is obviously not in the aftershock area. In this case, we shouldn't worry! "My wife insisted on going out. She said: "TV said nothing but Chengdu! You are not an earthquake expert! "Considering that there are three children living at home, I finally decided to go out together for their safety. At this time, the street was in chaos! I spent the night on Waldorf campus again! The little guy was so excited that he almost didn't sleep all night. Wow, I don't know what to say! The foreign teacher Waldorf who slept next to him reminded me to keep my voice down. I didn't expect this little guy's "whoa, whoa, whoa ..." voice to get louder. Everyone laughed! Children don't know the seriousness of the matter, they just think it's fun! That night, I slept in the car for three or four hours. After nearly ten days of tension and fatigue, my body finally collapsed, with a stuffy nose and a headache. Obviously, I have a bad cold! Fortunately, the earthquake seems to have finally passed! In the following time, the frequency and intensity of earthquakes are decreasing. Maybe you can gradually feel relaxed.