Li Meng: Things often go the way you think.

the deepest scene in my memory is that one day when I was a child, I was walking along a tree-lined road. At that time, I wore a tall ponytail, a jacket and worn jeans, and a pair of leather boots. I had no expectations for the future, and the world in my eyes was only as big as my primary school. However, a strange man broke into my narrow world and broke a calm childlike innocence. He came up and introduced himself with dignity, and told me that he thought my image was very suitable for being an actor, and he had a film looking for a girl with an image like me. I didn't have a mobile phone, so I wrote my home phone number in a cowhide book he handed me. I wrote it carefully, and finally I carefully checked it twice before giving it to the gentleman shyly. In the next few weeks, as you can imagine, I waited for this gentleman's call every day, but he just disappeared and never appeared again. He may have lost that book before he called me, so I comforted myself. However, that sentence is deeply imprinted on my heart: "Your image is very suitable for being an actor."

In other words, my name has a word "dream" since I was a child. When I was studying, the subject teacher or head teacher of the school always mocked me for not listening carefully with "daydreaming". Yes, I admit that I grew up as a problem girl and did a lot of "daydreaming". I asked my dad why I was called "Li Meng". My dad's answer is very romantic. He said that it was early in the morning when I was born. There was a tree outside the window of my mother's delivery room. There were two birds on the tree. After my mother gave birth to me, the birds crowed three times, and the sun father-in-law got up in a proper way. He thought it was very beautiful, like a dream. Later, he specially looked up the dictionary. "Dream" is also an auspicious word, symbolizing hope. He hopes that my dream will come true all my life. I was tearful after listening to it. Although I didn't know where his logic was, I accepted it. Life is such a coincidence. In the year when I left Shenzhen to be admitted to the Beijing Film Academy, the slogan of welcoming new students hung by the school was the same sentence "Where dreams begin". That was the last time the school used this slogan, and the next year it was replaced by another sentence.

I went back to my home in Shenzhen on the National Day when I was a freshman. On the plane back to Beijing from Shenzhen, I met a person who changed my life-the deputy director of White Deer Plain. She left me a phone number at the Capital Airport and said to call me. I want to play "White Deer Plain" with you. My first focus plane was completed by the Ergun River. It was on October 11th, which happened to be my 18th birthday. After filming that scene, a documentary director rushed over to interview me. He said, "Today is your birthday, which is very rare. How do you feel about acting for the first time? " I looked at the Ergun River and told him that I seemed to see my future, just like this turbulent Ergun River full of unknown dangers.

when I first got the script "Babylonia Junior", I was doing beauty treatment. I think I bounced out of bed and shouted, "What fun!" I'm afraid such behavior scared the beautician who served me. I admit that I am secretly pleased, and I like this story full of absurd words. Soon I met director Guoqiang Xiang, Dong Zijian, and went to Qingdao, and became the heroine of Young Babylon, Bai Lan. That unforgettable shooting experience came into my blood with the thick clam smell of Qingdao seaside. There may be only a few orgasms in my life, one of which I dedicated to Bai Lan. When I first saw the film, I was a little surprised. It was bolder and richer than I expected. I didn't know what I was like when I was in it, and I didn't understand my role until I finished watching the film. To tell you the truth, I am not satisfied with myself. I think what I have done is not good enough. I should be better. I recall the time when I was filming. Most of the time, I actually relied on my instinct to perform white and blue. I couldn't really interpret this role without myself. Now that I think about it, my understanding of white blue far exceeds that at that time. If I have something to commend, I must thank my rival actor Dong Zijian. Because of him, I know how to play Bai Lan. Film is such an art, it records you in this period, and it will never come back. This is a road with no turning back, full of incomplete regrets.

when I wrote this, my heart was actually at a loss. I think being an actor is a painful profession, and your sensitivity will hurt your body and mind. I have been immersed in it for such a long time, and it is difficult to extricate myself. I've watched "Babylonia Junior" countless times, from the first time I saw the rough cut in the computer room in 214 to the final release, and finally I'm going to draw a full stop with you. I have never lived in a factory, and my parents were not born as workers. But the era of that big factory is inseparable from my life today, and I want to thank it. My father has worked in a bank for 3 years, and I know that one day he will leave that day-to-day job to find a new life, just like a road. The only difference is that my father is old, and he dare not take any more risks, because the burden on him is too heavy and he has too many responsibilities to bear. I once met a worker's aunt in the workshop of Qingdao Alkali Factory. I asked her, Aunt, how long have you been in this factory? She smiled and said, I can't remember. I grew up here from birth, stayed all my life, and never went out. I almost couldn't help asking, so why didn't I go out? I finally held back and felt that I was asking too much. Obviously, she doesn't want to go out. It's not that she can't go out, but where she can go if she goes out. The factory has a stable income, a family, meals, relatives and friends, and everything is arranged, which is enough for her. The aunt is 52 years old. In fact, I live the same life day after day, and each of us lives such a repetitive life more or less, with responsibility as the ideal for life. The reason why I persist today is love. I hope all my efforts are to leave a little value and meaning for life.

I climbed up the chimney of Qingdao Alkali Factory, overlooking the whole alkali factory. Such a great and spectacular factory, just like Dai Cheng in Young Babylon, is a besieged city. We thought that leaving this besieged city is a free and vast new world, but in fact we just entered another besieged city. The train whistling in the distance shuttles through this huge factory alone, carrying the dreams of each of us and continuing to go lonely.