I accidentally opened my ex-husband’s phone and found a lot...

Recently, my mobile phone is not working well, so I had to tinker with the old phone I used seven years ago.

The mobile phone belongs to my ex-husband, and there are many text messages and photos in it.

Out of curiosity, I looked through his text messages and chat history, and then I was shocked.

Memories that had been buried for many years came to me overwhelmingly, and my heart, as calm as the sea, was suddenly ups and downs.

Unconsciously, we have gone through six years.

Divorce is already a thing of 2020. It turns out that we have been divorced for almost two years.

It was 2018 when I got married, and it felt like a lifetime ago.

In six years, he and I have experienced so many things.

It turns out that we were once so close to love.

Once upon a time, he was also a ambitious, passionate and energetic young man. He once shone like a superstar in my eyes.

Before he met me, he worked hard to make money every day and took the initiative to laugh with the big guys, just to prove himself in front of the girl who rejected him.

After we met, I told him not to play tricks in front of me. Those things you boys did were all left over from my tricks. I would see through them at a glance. I was just too lazy to expose them. .

If a girl likes you, you can succeed without any tricks. If she doesn’t like you, no matter how many tricks you use, it will be useless.

He agreed, and for a long time after that, we were straightforward when we were together, doing whatever we had to do without any unnecessary nonsense.

Rather than being a couple, we have always been getting along like partners, doing our own thing without interfering with each other.

I warned him that we are just partners, and we should not have feelings for our partners beyond friendship. Only by lowering our expectations can our friendship last forever.

Later, we all changed.

I always thought that the bad relationship between us was because we were tired of each other, so we had a lot of quarrels and worries. He pushed me away again and again, and I left him again and again. Blocking and deleting became A common meal.

I have never thought that only strangers can be polite and respectful to each other, and when we started to torture each other, it was when we developed feelings for each other. I don’t know when the relationship between us started. It adds undue expectations, because without expectations, there will be no disappointment, and only because of disappointment will you quarrel, hoping that the other party can hear your voice.

He began to test me, deliberately getting close to other girls, deliberately praising other girls, trying to belittle me, testing my reaction, and seeing me angry and sad, he was triumphant.

Now, when I opened the text message chat history between him and other girls, I found that apart from saying hello, most of them were silent.

It turns out that those girls were his tools to test me and make me jealous.

It turns out that he often said that I was so good to my son because I deliberately made him jealous. In fact, he himself was the one who often deliberately tempted me to be jealous.

Everyone likes to judge others by themselves. Only when you think so will you feel that others think so too.

Yes, he is so naive, deliberately making me jealous and proud of it. Only in this way can he prove that I love him.

It’s just that I didn’t know it at the beginning and thought he was a carefree scumbag who was playing with my sincerity.

When we torture each other most intensely, it is when our feelings are most intense.

It turns out that he once had a toothache and I neglected to care about him, so he blocked me.

At that time, I thought he was unreasonable and all he wanted was to break up with me and block me with simple and crude reasons. Now it seems that things are not that simple. There is an insecure person hidden in his heart. A child with a toothache made him miserable. He was afraid that I didn't care and was afraid of my indifference, so he pushed me away repeatedly to test my sincerity.

When I clicked on the long text message record between me and him, I found that he was capricious only in front of me. Sometimes he was childish, sometimes he was mature and steady, and sometimes he was cautious.

He often deliberately made me angry and then searched for my traces all over the street, almost digging three feet into the ground.

Several times, he couldn't find me and was so anxious that he almost called the police.

At that time, I often stayed up late to write. He was afraid that my eyes would be irritated, so he forced me to go to an optical shop to get a pair of anti-blue light glasses.

Because I said that I like bicycles, and riding a bicycle with the person I like is particularly romantic, he gave me a new bicycle and often took me for rides.

I said I couldn’t contact him because my phone was broken, so he bought a phone as a gift to me without hesitation.

When our first child was born, he carefully noted the time and frequency of my breastfeeding.

He likes to pry into my privacy. When he sees someone of the opposite sex on my phone, he has to get to the bottom of it and "clean up the door" for me.

Actually, I didn’t tell him that I was originally a clingy person and extremely insecure. My ex was scared away because I was too clingy. Therefore, when I was with him, in order to be with him for a long time, I pretended He became independent and independent, and restrained his impulse to seek him out countless times.

We often go days and nights without contact, without calling or sending messages. Even if he disappears, I will restrain myself from making phone calls.

I'm afraid that he won't be able to accept my clingy nature, even if the zodiac sign says that we are a perfect match.

What I didn’t know was that he would also be insecure. He often deliberately took me to various social occasions and deliberately chatted with beautiful women, just to test my reaction and make me jealous.

Only now do I realize that he just wants to confirm my sincerity. In fact, he has no interaction with beautiful women in private. Instead, he always stays with me every day, even if he is just playing games when we are together. Must be with me.

Only now do I realize that real lovebirds are secretive and dare not speak out. How could they be so upright and upright like him and eager to publicize it in front of me? It turns out that he deliberately acted it out for me.

But I knew nothing about it at the time. When he tested me, I pretended to be calm, pretended not to care, and silently alienated him.

He was even more anxious. When I alienated him, he tried his best to belittle and exclude me. He found troubles and quarreled with me in all kinds of ways. In fact, he was just to make me notice his existence, even in the form of quarrels. He also has to work hard to establish his presence.

When he was showing off his presence, I suddenly lost confidence in myself. When he tortured me and pushed me away, I forgot his sincerity and thought that our relationship had collapsed.

So I ran away from him in a panic.

In fact, we are all right. His love is testing and pulling. After the lover has gone through many difficulties, he remains firm to each other. But my love is acceptance, tolerance, and fulfillment.

My fulfillment is very simple, just leave.

After I left, I saw the relationship between us clearly and realized that we were both wrong.

He thought I was not firm enough, so he left him.

I also thought that he no longer loved me, so I fulfilled his wish.

I flipped through the records on my phone and saw that the dusty memories were awakened. It was really confusing.

I only understand the love he wants now. Unfortunately, before he understood me, we had exhausted each other's passion.

Then, I clicked on his profile picture, and coincidentally, he was visiting his mother-in-law in the hospital and was also playing my WeChat video.

He laughed at me for being shameless. Two years after my divorce, I still lived in his house and took care of his children.

You are the same, a shameless guy with no self-esteem. I laughed and cursed.

Perhaps, we need each other more than damaged self-esteem.

Thanks to time for retaining our sweetness. The heart-piercing process at the beginning has now been turned into precious memories by time.