My mother-in-law looks down on me. I hate her to death.

I am a woman in a provincial capital city, born in an intellectual family with brothers and sisters. I am the youngest in my family, cheerful and confident.

My husband was born in an old prefecture-level city, a worker's family and an only child. He is three years younger than me, and he is somewhat introverted and not very confident.

Moreover, there is no direct route between the two cities. No matter by plane or train, you have to transfer to a plane or train.

We met when he was in college in my city, that is, in 2003.

In 2004 10, a love relationship was established.

We got married in 2008, naked, without a house or a car. We rented a house outside, and our relatives helped us find the index of affordable housing. Their family said they didn't have the money to buy it and didn't need it. We're still arguing about it.

At the end of 2008, he said that his family had arranged a stable job for him. He thought it would be better to go back, and promised to return to my city within three years in front of his family. Then I went back to his hometown with him.

At first, I lived with his parents At the beginning of the probation period, our salary adds up to 1000 yuan, and we have to give it to his parents 300 yuan every month. Get up at six or seven every morning, and you will be scolded if you get up late; They say I can't do housework; Mother-in-law clearly said not to be too close to her husband at home, and we don't hold hands at home. Later, I got pregnant, and my husband suggested renting a house outside, so we moved out, but it didn't feel very good. I can't accept his attitude towards us or his attitude, but I gave birth to my child and a girl. My father-in-law said in the hospital that they had no money, so we had to do it. I lie in bed and want to die.

Because it is winter, the house we rented has no heating and air conditioning, and my in-laws said they would stay at their parents' house for a month. In the next few days, their parents-in-law have been finding fault. My mother is in charge of childbirth. My parents-in-law said that the quality of my milk was not good for no reason and would not let me feed my children. Just like the mother-in-law in the double-sided tape, she even poured out all the milk I squeezed into the bottle. Besides, my mother gave us 7000 yuan, and we all put it in his hand. In order to adjust my appetite, my mother bought me ribs and simmered soup. My father-in-law said it was our own business and told my mother to leave us alone. My mother took care of my mood without saying anything. Before leaving, she hugged her father-in-law and cried, hoping to treat me as the girl they raised. After the full moon, my mother went back, and my mother and I cried bitterly.

I was delivered by caesarean section, and I was inexperienced. It was very hard to take care of the children by myself, so I told my mother-in-law. My mother-in-law sneered that it was nothing. She has never been here like this before. In fact, she answered the phone at an acquaintance after retirement, which was very leisure, but she made it clear at home that she would go home to take care of the children after I went to work. I told my husband that I wanted to go back to my parents' house. My husband said he was busy at work and couldn't leave. At that time, my husband's classmate's husband was a graduate student in a university in my hometown, and he was just going back, so I thought I had a companion on the road and went back to my parents' house. My husband told my parents-in-law, who made a scene at home again, saying that when the children were older and the weather was fine, they would go back to their parents' home together, so I gave up for my husband and children.

I put up with taking care of my children alone, and my parents-in-law swear at home whenever something happens. One day, they came home from work and began to cry when they wanted to eat milk. The mother-in-law hugged and fed, but the child still cried and refused to eat. I hugged and nursed, and the child began to eat. When my parents-in-law went to the living room for dinner, my mother-in-law called me stupid and out of my mind. Throw away the bottle in a fit of pique and talk about it at home. I had to go back to my parents' home, where my parents-in-law lived. I was afraid that others would gossip and wouldn't let me take care of the baby, so I called home. Later, there was a quarrel. I insisted on taking the baby and said who stopped me. I jumped down with the baby in my arms and my mother-in-law knelt on the ground. The husband cried and helped his mother-in-law up. I didn't expect this, so I didn't insist on going that night. A few days later, my husband sent me and my children to my parents' home.

I took my children to my parents' house for about two months, during which my husband and friends only came once when they got married, stayed for one night and left. During the Spring Festival, my husband called me and asked me to go back. He picked me up at the transit station. I think my parents are old, so many relatives always ask. I don't want to take my children back because I have put too much pressure on my family.

In the meantime, I also thought a lot. So many things have happened, which may be related to the great geographical differences, different concepts, untimely and unsmooth communication, and my inability to do housework. So I also reflected a lot on myself, always looking for reasons, and found that I was not myself, not the confident, happy and simple person, and I began to doubt everything. I want to take care of the children alone. But I finally convinced myself to go back and get along with them.

When we got back, we took our children to see our parents-in-law, and my husband's cousins were all there. Naturally, it was awkward to meet, but I called my parents-in-law, and my father-in-law symbolically agreed. My mother-in-law ignored me, so I kept it to myself. My parents-in-law and husband want their children to stay upstairs. My husband and I went back to the rented house to start working and often went to see the children.

Naively thought that life would go on like this, but it was not. Not long after, my father-in-law drank too much, so he called my husband and asked us to go up. We took a bath in the public bathhouse, but he said we would go tomorrow. Who knows, ever since he rushed to our place and made a scene in the yard, I felt bad. The landlord and his wife live next door. Afraid of an accident, I called the landlord. My father-in-law said a lot of ugly things in front of the landlord. My husband ran upstairs, and I followed, ready to pack up the children's things, take back the house we rented, and call my mother-in-law's sister. My father-in-law won't let me take the baby away. My husband tried to hit me, and my father-in-law said with a smile, well played, kill her. I was paralyzed at that time, the children were taken away by them, and my parents-in-law shut me out. The sound of fighting attracted my neighbors upstairs and downstairs, who advised me to relax and go back to sleep. At that moment, such a thing happened to a person in a foreign land. The plot of the TV series happened to me, and my body didn't hurt at all. My heart is empty and desperate. My husband's cousin dragged me to our place and advised me to leave. I sat on the bed numb, and my husband was silent. I ran out when he wasn't looking. I really want to find a place to kill myself My brother called and gave me a lot of advice. Then I found an Internet cafe and stayed overnight. Suddenly I had no money, so I went back at noon. My husband said that he and his father-in-law looked for me all night. I don't want to pay attention to this cowardly bastard Just fucked a kitchen knife, ready to go upstairs and take the children out of this nightmare place. My husband took the knife away and I went upstairs alone. My husband seems to have called the top, but the door is locked and I can't open it. I called the unlocking company and asked someone else to unlock it. After a while, his wife and the company security guard came. They pulled me, and my mother-in-law moved the child away. He called the leader of my unit, and everyone came to persuade me not to do stupid things for my children.

My family is worried about me and wants me to go back alone. I really can't bear to leave my children for a few months. I ran several times and finally died. They won't let me see the children at all. I really can't help it. I didn't see the children, so I packed my things and went back to my parents' house.

I didn't tell anyone when I left, because they would never leave me alone if they knew. At noon that day, my husband called me and asked me if I would pick me up after work. I said I had left, and he hung up.

Many scenes are staged in front of me like movies, and many vicious words keep ringing in my ears, which makes me feel crazy. My family said that I am not as smart, cheerful and lively as before, unhappy and slow to respond. I don't want them to worry about me. Start working a week after you go back, so that at least you have something to do during the day, which will enrich you a little.

During this period, my husband called and said that he missed his children and told him that he would send me photos and let the children video with me. He has two QQ's, but his usual one deleted me. It was not until three months after I left that his company organized a trip to China International Import Expo(CIIE) that he stopped by for one night. That night, I cried and begged him to come out for the children. He didn't make a clear statement, just said that I would call him if I wanted to drive and he would pick me up. I told his army that if he wanted to open it, I could pick him up. He said he would come if he wanted to open it. When I left, I also said that my parents-in-law had worked hard to take care of their children. At noon on a hot day, I bought them cakes they liked and asked my husband to take them back.

He added me as a friend when he went back, but he didn't have the right to see his space. It wasn't long before his signature said that he humiliated his parents and didn't want to give up his stable job. In those months, I often sent him warm messages, told his colleagues that we were husband and wife and reminded him to pay attention to his health, but he never returned. Once we chatted on QQ for a while. He wants me to go back and I want him to come out. As a result, the conversation broke down. Not long after, he left a message saying that he couldn't stand it and wanted a divorce. A few months later, on my birthday, he didn't leave a message or call. I feel so bored. A month later, I deleted his QQ and left a QQ with a child's name among my friends. I called him and asked him to send me a photo of the child. I asked for it many times and sent two photos. I thank him. I was busy at that time and said I would talk to him later. He said there was nothing to talk about, he didn't want to talk to me, and asked me not to disturb him. I'm speechless. At first, I wanted him to come to my city with me and take the children there. My mother can help me, but now his attitude makes me frustrated. My conditions are not bad in all aspects. I gave up my suitor who had a car, a house and a company for him. I don't regret marrying him without a house or a car. I am sad to think that they still treat me like this. And my husband can't even protect his wife and children. What can such a cowardly man bring to me and my children? But if I divorce, they will definitely not let me see the children, and they will definitely say that I don't want him and the children. How can children live well in such an environment? The child asked me why I left her. What should I say? I'm really struggling!