Love Story 02-Those years, the vows were blown away by the wind

01

In the evening, my boyfriend and I stood on the side of the road, waiting for Lao Tian to arrive.

As the Mid-Autumn Festival is approaching, our company has distributed five boxes of salted duck eggs and two boxes of mooncakes to each employee in advance. I decided to generously give Lao Tian two boxes of salted duck eggs. Although my boyfriend was not very happy, but He still had to respect my decision.

Lao Tian is my high school classmate. He is tall and thin, has a good temper, and is highly myopic. Every time we meet, he looks at me for a long time even if he wears glasses.

After graduating from college, we returned to our hometown city, so we could get together often. Before we fell in love, I had cheated on him many times because his salary was much higher than mine at that time. And our relationship seems to be much better than it was in high school.

There are more and more cars on the street, and it’s the rush hour after get off work. The cars coming and going, the flashing car lights and street lights, accompanied by a slight chill, suddenly make me feel that everything in front of me has changed. It becomes unreal.

At this moment, Lao Tian’s car stopped in front of us. Lao Tian opened the car door and walked up to me. I was about to complain about why Lao Tian was so slow. Suddenly I saw another person coming out from behind the car and walking over. Before that person could reach the front, Lao Tian said, "Well, Li Shuo is here too."

Huh? I was a little surprised. Li Shuo?

Lao Tian adjusted his glasses and said, he came back from Shanghai today, and I happened to pass by the train station, so I picked him up and let's have dinner together later.

Hi, long time no see. Li Shuo walked up to us and said hello to us first.

Long time no see, I replied weakly.

Is this Li Shuo? I haven’t seen him in a few years, and he has become fat and chubby. His facial features are torn, and coupled with his short stature, he is a fleshy lump. I don’t know why, but I suddenly feel sick in my heart.

I heard that you are getting married. Congratulations! Li Shuo said again. Well, I knew it must have been Lao Tian who told him.

Well, yes, thank you. And you? When are you going to get married? I asked.

Me? It's early! I'm still single at the moment! He laughed.

Okay, don’t talk here anymore. I’ll load the duck eggs into the car and we’ll find a place to eat. Lao Tian said to us while bending down to move the salted duck eggs.

02

We didn’t get together for dinner after all, because I made an excuse and said I still had something to do and we should be together another day, so I took my boyfriend and left.

My boyfriend said, is that person also your high school classmate? Are you familiar?

No, we are in the same class. Lao Tian is very familiar with him, but I don’t talk to him very much. I haven’t seen him in the past few years.

We walked to a stall selling porridge, drank some porridge randomly, and then went home.

My boyfriend started playing games, and I also held my phone and watched TV.

Ding ding, the phone rang, and a WeChat message came over.

You are about to get married, why didn’t you tell me when the wedding will be held? It turned out to be Li Shuo.

Well, the wedding is on November. I replied, feeling a little inexplicably angry. Why should I tell you that I don’t want to invite you to my wedding at all.

Oh, that’s it, that’s coming soon. I wish you a happy wedding! He sent a congratulatory emoji.

Thank you, I will simply reply. After that, we said nothing more.

Then, I immediately deleted our chat history, even though it was just an ordinary chat.

However, I still don’t want these things to exist, let alone his name appearing on my phone, or even in my memories.

Of course, another reason is that I don’t want my boyfriend to see that I have any relationship with Li Shuo.

However, in the following time, I couldn’t watch the TV series anymore. The male protagonist on the screen suddenly changed into Li Shuo’s figure, short and fat, and the heroine turned out to be me. !

I turned off my phone and closed my eyes, not wanting to see or think about it anymore.

But the gate of memory opened with a "squeak" the moment I closed my eyes, and scenes came flooding in, which could no longer be stopped.

03

Let us be each other’s confidante and confidante. If anything happens in the future, you can tell me and I will treat you as my little sister. .

No, you don’t have to be so cliché. I don’t like any brothers or sisters. Let’s just talk about what we have. Whatever you tell me, I will keep it secret, and of course, I hope you will keep what I tell you.

Well, it is really painful for me. I have liked her for three years, but she is indifferent to me.

I am not the same, people who like me don’t like me.

Don’t think about it, the college entrance examination is coming soon, study hard.

……

In the last year of high school, Li Shuo and I were deskmates. In countless self-study classes, we spent time writing small notes to exchange our thoughts. .

Academic performance is in a state of ruin, but emotional trivialities are overflowing. Two scumbags get together.

Things in the books are enemies, and those outside the books are relatives.

Li Shuo likes a female top student in our dormitory. He has been buying her food and drinks for three years, but she just ignores him. Our whole class knew that Li Shuo liked female top students, but everyone said that he was a toad who wanted to eat swan meat.

As for me, I like a boy in the next class, but what’s even more pitiful is that he doesn’t even know who I am. Although I love him “to death” all day long, I can only die in vain in the end.

We two fools became tablemates, we sympathized with each other, but we had endless things to say. In addition to discussing each other's feelings, sometimes we also talk about things at home, or discuss a classmate after get off work that we don't like. In short, we talk about everything.

Of course, this is all done on small slips of paper. We are bad students, but we will never affect other people's learning in class. We are really super quiet and only make rustling writing sounds on paper.

At that time, I admired Li Shuo's infatuation with that female top student and thought how could a boy like someone so wholeheartedly.

In addition to not being good at studying and being short, he is actually good-looking and has a good temper. I often lament that it is such a pity that the top female student did not follow him.

And Li Shuo often encourages me to confess to the boy I like, saying that if you express it, who will know that you like it? Even if the boy doesn't like you, at least you have to let him know. What regrets would there be.

But I was still timid and didn’t say anything after all. Sometimes Li Shuo is so angry that he rushes to express his love for me. Of course, I pull him back every time with a small note.

A year passed in a blink of an eye, and the stack of small notes Li Shuo and I wrote was much thicker than our review materials.

After the college entrance examination, our grades were naturally a mess, and we barely passed the college entrance examination line.

No one thought about repeating the study. On the day of application, Li Shuo gave me a thick envelope and said he would read it when he got home. Of course, I also gave him an envelope, which was full of stuff. My encouragement and blessings to him are probably not to give up, and continue to pursue female academics, as his efforts will definitely be rewarded.

And when I got home and opened Li Shuo's envelope, what I saw was two large Chinese college entrance examination answer sheets filled with words. I estimated that the densely packed small print would add up to more than 10,000 words. I was so moved that I read every sentence he wrote to me.

Some of them talked about their feelings for the female top student, some complained about their family situation, some expressed their dissatisfaction with a certain classmate in the class, some encouraged and comforted me, and some expressed their dissatisfaction with me. Best wishes for the future.

What I remember most clearly is that he said that he would continue to pursue her and would not give up as long as the female top student did not get married.

Then we are required to be lifelong confidants who talk about everything.

I think this is the best vow we made in adolescence.

In September, we went to different cities and started our college life.

04

Life in college is very colorful. I like this kind of relaxed life without study pressure. After all, it wasn't a good university, and I didn't think about continuing to study for a bachelor's degree or a postgraduate entrance exam, so I lived a comfortable life eating, drinking and having fun with a bunch of roommates every day.

Li Shuo went to the same university as the top female student in the city, but she was in a key university and he was in a third-rate school. But this does not affect his feelings for the female top student. He will run to her every now and then.

Saying goodbye to the boy I had unrequited love with in high school, my emotional world was completely blank, but my classmate Li Shuo, who had been frustrated many times, was still bitter.

We could no longer write small notes, and letters were too slow, so all our communications were transferred to QQ. Chatting, leaving messages in space, posting updates, and writing emails have become ways for us to express our feelings.

I like every post he makes, and I comfort him every time he is sad. Through him, I learned that the female academic tycoon finally rejected him sternly. Later, the female academic tyrant fell in love, and Li Shuo was finally in pain, but he was still unwilling to give up.

And I seem to have seen the reality clearly, and feel that I can no longer encourage him to go all the way. She began to comfort him and at the same time warned him that some feelings should not be forced and that he should step out and find a new world.

He was a little angry at first when I said that and said I no longer supported him, but then he probably figured it out and said he was ready to give up. But not long after, he went to find a female top student again, and after being frustrated, he said he wanted to give up. This happened over and over again, and I couldn't bear to abandon him and ignore him. I would still encourage and comfort him, and at the same time give him strict education.

Two chaotic years have passed. Li Shuo and I are still single, and our relationship has no relationship. In the meantime, I also liked a few boys randomly, but I found that they were just a passing cloud. When it comes to the person of the opposite sex who has the most contact, it is still Li Shuo.

My roommates once joked that they thought Li Shuo and I were the most suitable. The two of us chatted all day long, and even sent gifts and other things on holidays and birthdays. We looked so much like lovers! At this time, I will immediately stop what they are saying. What nonsense are you talking about? Li Shuo and I can't be together. We are just good friends and spiritual allies. There is only friendship, no love!

Besides, when we were in high school, we made a vow to each other to be lifelong confidants.

Although I say this, I also find more and more that I feel that I can't go through a day without chatting with him. Maybe it's because I'm used to it. I sometimes wonder, is it possible for us?

But he quickly denied himself. He is not my ideal partner. He has liked a female top student for so long, and it would definitely be awkward for us to be together. Besides, he is not tall and is not good at studies. For the sake of the next generation, we cannot find him!

Just in countless lonely nights, our moods are entangled and changing. Li Shuo said that he thought love was quite boring, so he decided to really give up and not fall in love anymore, so whatever.

I mean, people who are in love argue and argue all day long, and break up if things go wrong. What’s the point? It’s not all in vain in the end.

Yes, but we can’t stay single forever. In the end, we have to find someone to get married and have children. he said quietly.

I said we’ll talk about it when the time comes. Just find someone to marry. Anyway, you’re just getting along, and it doesn’t matter who you’re with.

How about... He paused and said, let's make an agreement.

Agreement? What agreement? I became interested for a moment.

If we haven’t found the right person by the time we are twenty-seven, shall we get married and live together? he said.

I was really shocked, but I quickly calmed down and said, is it true? If you take it seriously I agree.

Of course it is true. In fact, you are quite good. We should be good together.

Um, okay. Then let’s remember this agreement. Later I thought that what I called calm at that time should probably mean that I was hot-headed.

The strange thing is that the number of times we chatted gradually decreased. I felt that maybe there was something changed between us, but I couldn’t tell what it was.

But I remember the agreement he made, the oath we made together, and I believe he does the same.

05

After graduating from college, Li Shuo went to work in a southern city, and I returned to my hometown.

Two months later, he sent a text message saying that the female top student got married, and I said oh.

He said, I should really end it.

Maybe, you take good care of yourself over there, I wish you find your happiness soon, I wish you the best.

Let’s not think about happiness or unhappiness for now, let’s talk about work first.

A few months later, it was time to celebrate the Spring Festival. Li Shuo came back and found me. We had dinner together, talked about the past, and went to sing together in the evening. But something went wrong. Just lived together.

It seems that everything is going as it should, as if everything is like a dream. Because the next day, he left, and then sent a text message saying, let’s forget about what happened last night.

I said yes, but he was surprisingly calm, even I was shocked.

After the Spring Festival, everyone went back to work, and Li Shuo and I did not see each other again.

It’s just that he started sending me text messages, two every day, one in the morning and one in the evening. He told me to have breakfast in the morning, and asked me to cover myself with a quilt at night. I would also send him text messages, but I didn’t know what this meant for us. Could it be that we were falling in love? I don’t know.

In those two months, all our communication was two text messages a day, there was no chat content on QQ, and we never made a single phone call.

I accepted such strange feelings and felt a little weird warmth from him, but I never asked him what this was. Maybe it was his own way of treating friends.

Until one day, probably in the third month of texting, very late, he texted and said, I think we should be friends again.

Be friends again? Could it be that in the past three months, he regarded me as his girlfriend, and I was so confused that I didn't know anything. I was actually taken as a love interest, and now I want to be friends again!

I couldn't help but laugh. This all seemed like a joke.

OK. I only replied one word. It’s just me, becoming calmer.

After that, we stopped contacting each other.

What occasionally reminds me is the vow we made about our soulmate and the twenty-seven-year-old.

In a blink of an eye, the Spring Festival came again, and the high school classmates reunited, and we saw each other again, just looking at each other. I saw him move his lips and wanted to say something, but nothing came out. I turned around and went to chat with other classmates.

Later, I dated a boyfriend, and we broke up within a year.

After that, we went on blind dates and fell in love, until I met my current boyfriend. We had a tepid relationship for four years and finally got married.

During this period, I occasionally learned some news about him from my classmates, but it had nothing to do with me.

I once accidentally found his Weibo, which was all about a girl. Of course, that girl is not a female academic. I have read all his Weibo updates. It seems that he and that girl were in love for a year and then got dumped. However, he still misses her. Weibo is full of comments about her. Missing her.

Looking at the time, the time when he and the girl started falling in love was exactly the time when he told me that we wanted to be friends again. I couldn't help but sigh, but I didn't know what to say. After all, it was all very far away.

A few days later, Lao Tian drove to meet my boyfriend and I for dinner.

I just sent Li Shuo to the train. By the way, didn’t you tell Li Shuo that you were getting married? Lao Tian asked as soon as it was served.

No, I’m not familiar with him. I said calmly.

I remember you two were roommates in high school, right? Lao Tian asked again.

Is there any? I can’t remember how long it’s been. Okay, let’s eat! Hey hey hey, I want to eat that snail, move it this way. I urged Lao Tian.

Great class! Come on, let's do one!

The three of us raised our glasses and drank the cold beer in one gulp.

The wind in September blew my hair away, and my boyfriend helped me tidy it up with his hands. I raised my glass again, cheers to the upcoming wedding and my twenty-seventh birthday!

And the vows we made one after another in those years will eventually be blown away in the wind...