I broke up with my girlfriend for 2 months and still had an affair. I really still love her. I don't know. She's not yet. Is this relationship normal? help me

Ambiguity is not normal, in other words, ambiguity is actually flirting. That depends on whether she has a new boyfriend now. If she does, it means she is playing with her feelings. Playing with feelings is undoubtedly playing with fire. But if she still doesn't have a boyfriend, it means that she is obsessed with you and afraid of being hurt again, so she stays away from you. That depends on your attitude and practice.