Please give me your advice for the rest of my life

Chapter 13: Beginning of Autumn

1

Beginning of Autumn held the pregnancy test stick and her heart trembled.

He turned around and threw it into the trash can. He walked out of the bathroom stall to wash his hands. He looked at himself in the mirror with good makeup. He was stunned. Then he turned around and picked up the pregnancy test stick and threw it away. On the sink.

O’Hare Airport. This was her first time in Chicago. She attended the MDRT Million Round Table meeting as a COT member. She wore the same clothes as the Olympic Games and walked down the long red carpet against the background of the Hong Kong regional flag and the Chinese national flag.

Already ranked among the top 5% in the industry.

I went to primary school in Hong Kong at the age of 5, middle school at the age of 11, studied for an undergraduate degree in the UK at the age of 16, returned to Hong Kong to study for a master's degree at the age of 19, and graduated from graduate school at the age of 20 and a half. Life is like pressing fast forward again and again, rushing forward.

Only 25 years old, his career is booming.

The child came out of the blue, like a sudden click of the PAUSE button, telling her to stop.

Looking in the mirror, I washed my face randomly and only put on a little makeup. I glanced at the pregnancy test stick on the sink, was startled, stuffed it into my bag, and took off my makeup seriously.

When she was boarding the plane, her colleague was shocked when she saw her. She waved her hand and said, "I have to sleep for more than ten hours. You should unload it too."

Looking back, she hasn't seen anyone without makeup for many years.

Goodbye, Chicago.

2

When I landed in Hong Kong, my phone dinged. It was Su Ming, and he sent dozens of similar "I miss you."

Beginning of Autumn stared at the phone. Think, I miss you too.

It was completely dark at half past eight in the evening, and the familiar air-conditioning made Li Qiu wrap up her clothes tightly and jog along while pushing her luggage. When she arrived at the entrance, there was a crowd, and she recognized him at a glance. He was tall and thin and energetic. Su Ming waved to her and held up a box of snacks. Even with her eyes closed, she could tell it was Tim Ho Wan's sweet-scented osmanthus cake, which she loved most.

Cool, sweet, not greasy.

At the beginning of autumn, I snuggled up to Su Ming, and countless little joys emerged from my heart. Where there is Su Ming, she wanders and has a destination.

We have been married for five years, and we have never blushed. We are so affectionate that we cannot be apart for a day.

This is the person he wants to spend the rest of his life with, and they want to go into a nursing home together and flirt.

Life has just gotten better, why is it such a coincidence?

"Dad... I'm pregnant." Li Qiu said as the cool breeze blew in the car on the way home. She liked to call him "Daddy" whenever something happened, and he was always happy to clean up the mess for her.

She felt Su Ming's hands tremble and he pressed up the car window.

"Yeah." He said, "Don't catch a cold, be good."

3

The first time I talked to Su Ming, I was still reading Master.

At the Starbucks next to the Main Library, I accidentally lost my student ID card and couldn’t get the student price. Just when I was about to get away with speaking Cantonese, I handed over my student ID card and said to the clerk in a nice voice: "She is my classmate."

It was Su Ming.

They often see each other in the library and their faces are familiar - but they have never spoken.

They became lovers by chance. They were so compatible that they got married right after graduation.

Su Ming is from Beijing. In Liqiu, her mother had passed away and her father had no longer interacted with her. She married him alone. A marriage that everyone is happy with.

Su Ming is three years older than her, graduated from the same master's program, and works in marketing management at MUJI. He is a gentleman with talent and style. Yes, he is a gentleman. The gentle temperament accumulated over the years makes him stand out among the Hong Kong boys who are eager for success, and he becomes a breath of fresh air.

Li Qiu loved his quality so much that she wished she could haunt him day and night.

"I don't want to let you go at all. You have a little round face, and you are always confused and careless when doing things. You are so cute." Su Ming always said this to her, with a Beijing-style expression. He has a smooth accent and can listen to it tirelessly in the beginning of autumn, which is very useful.

4

Returning to North Point from the airport, there was no traffic jam along the way and we got home early.

"It's very late, go to bed early." Su Ming hugged her and said softly.

"Don't say anything like this... I'm afraid." Li Qiu said.

"Are you panicked?" Su Ming asked.

Panic? How could you not panic? She herself has not grown up yet and has been living under Su Ming's protection. She can't even act coquettishly enough, so how can she have the ability to take good care of the baby. Secondly, for young couples, work has just started. As soon as the baby is born, trivial matters come one after another, not only slowing down their own lives, but also affecting the baby's growth.

In the final analysis, she was not willing to let her baby come into this miserable world alone.

"Are you still worried?" Su Ming hugged her. Li Qiu sniffed and felt a little like crying. Su Ming covered her eyes and said, "If you don't cry, it's my fault. I shouldn't mention it."

Li Qiu wiped her tears and joked, "It's okay, I don't know. Why..."

Su Ming didn't say anything and could only hug her again.

5

When she was a child, about four or five years old, her mother loved to dance, so she took her to the ballroom; she loved to watch movies, so she took her to the cinema; she loved to have afternoon tea, so she took her to the Peninsula Hotel . Everywhere, there is an uncle, and my mother said: "Call me daddy."

At the age of four or five, I learned to look on with a cold eye. Someone would always ask her in the dance hall: "This is your mother, then is this your father?" She would say: "Yes." She was as well-behaved as a doll.

And what about the real father? He retaliates in kind, and Li Qiu has an aunt.

They were young at the time, their mother broke up, their father proposed, and they got married within a month of knowing each other. The circle of doctors from the University of Hong Kong is so small that they did not separate even if they did not fall in love because of shame. When her mother was alive, she would always look at her sadly and say, "Be good, mom and dad are together because of you." She would only sneer in her heart without missing a beat on her face.

After graduating from high school, her mother passed away from brain cancer. She went to England alone. At the age of 16, she got lost at the Dubai airport during a connecting flight. She gritted her teeth and never called home. Later, her father married a hotel waiter who was only five years older than her. When she was still a minor, he cut off all her living expenses and had no contact with her except for the tuition fees she asked for.

In this family battle, she lost everything.

She obviously did nothing wrong, but she became the biggest victim.

If having children is not based on love, then all sexual behavior is meaningless.

6

"Actually, my biggest wish is to play the piano, take pictures or write, rather than sell insurance." Li Qiu looked at Su Ming with tears in his eyes and said, "I can do it. Yes, I am only 25 years old and can already go to MDRT. But what can I do? No matter how good I am, I am just an insurance salesman. I have chosen a life that even I despise, just to make money. ."

Su Ming hugged her and wanted to give her all his arms. She wiped away her tears and continued: "Actually, when I was a child, I was held in the palm of my hand. Even those who are nice to me are always scheming. If one gives me pocket money, the other will give more. If one buys something delicious and fun, the other will throw a bag over to me to put books in - growing up Later I learned that it was something that ordinary people couldn’t afford with a whole year’s salary—but after my mother died, my father turned to attack me as a substitute like a fighting cock without an opponent.”

"But, what did I do wrong?"

Su Ming wiped her tears with her sleeves. She cried so hard that she didn't dare to cry out. It is a mental illness that is imprinted on people by observing words and emotions while growing up in a repressive environment for many years. She always whispered to him "Daddy", just to get some love that her father never gave her. Thinking of this, Su Ming felt a lump in his throat: "It's okay, it's okay. You're fine, I'm here."

Li Qiu leaned against him and wiped his eyes randomly. In fact, the tears were almost gone. She actually wanted to smile to lighten the mood, but she couldn't. She could only lower her voice and continued: "As you know, I don't want to have a miscarriage. My parents... have had too many miscarriages, but they just don't have a sense of responsibility. But I And I can’t bear to let it live a bad life... We don’t have enough money to give it everything it needs.” She coughed, suppressing her voice, and continued, “It’s a joke to make you cry so ugly, but it’s okay. I'm not wearing makeup."

Su Ming was amused by her, kissed her face and said, "They all look good.

"He turned around and went to the bathroom, took a wet towel, wiped her face carefully, and said, "I actually didn't want it to come so soon. We have only been married for a long time, and we haven't had enough fun yet. But when I look back, I think about it. , if we don’t give the baby the right to come out and play just because we don’t have enough fun and don’t make enough money, it would be unfair to the baby. What’s more, if you go for an abortion, your health will be worse. Even if you are willing, I Not even the slightest bit reluctant to part with it.

The Beginning of Autumn Chicken nodded like it was pecking at rice, and said, "Then I will work hard to earn milk powder money for the baby after I give birth to my daughter-in-law." "

Su Ming scratched her little nose and said with a smile: "Maybe it's a girl. ”

“Then let the son-in-law marry you, and I won’t let my baby go.” ”

“So, don’t worry about anything. As long as you love it, it will be the best growth.” Su Ming kissed her again, turned on the bedside lamp, hugged her and said, "Go to sleep." ”

7

The night in North Point is so gentle and intoxicating. Outside the window is the bay, and from near to far are construction projects, docks and cargo ships. When sleeping, it is customary to leave a window open at the beginning of autumn It was raining now, and the rain was hitting the windows, and a drop or two seeped in through the cracks, and she felt extremely peaceful.

25 years later. When I recited these two words in my heart, I felt an inexplicable feeling of melancholy, and I suddenly felt like I had experienced all the ups and downs in the past. Now I only want stability in this world. >

Perhaps the age of 20 is a turning point. Before the age of 20, a person would move forward alone, fearless, young and energetic, trying to challenge the injustice of the world, running into obstacles everywhere, and not even having the courage to cry. . Every time I called my father, I felt like I was trapped in the darkness, unable to recover, and I didn’t dare to ask for any tenderness.

After I turned 20, I was rescued by Su Ming, and I rushed to his arms.

Like a prisoner being released from prison, the sun was so bright that it hurt his eyes, but he ran away regardless.

With a wave of his hand, he dispersed her life. Pervasive fear.

Reach out to her and take her away

8

Li Qiu shrank into his arms again and murmured: " Love you, dad. ”

“I love you too. "Su Ming whispered into her ear.

(End)