The full text of the most novel The Long Engagement

one

Yu Qi, without you, I'm sure, sure, I can live a normal and natural life, marry the person I like, and have a child to raise.

Li Jingyun sat by the sea for a long time, and her legs were numb with the wind. She clung to the purple velvet box. The fog on the sea was so thick that she was wrapped in wet and foul water vapor. She couldn't help but want to cry, wondering why she just put the rest of her life behind a filter like those melodramatic and delicate heroines, waiting for this filter called "Old Love" to be shown at will and use it to mark everything.

Although I don't like to think so much, when Ji proposed to her, she still remembered her face in vain, and then confessed to Ji that she had an old lover who couldn't give up, which led Ji to put the ring in her hand awkwardly and told her that you could reconsider.

This is all your fault, Yu Qi.

At first, when he told Yu Qi this, he reluctantly smiled, apparently looking at Li Jingyun's direction, but his eyes crossed her and looked at the bare branches entangled by the wind outside the window: "Is it already cold outside?"

At first, you can pretend to hold a notebook and say to Li Jingyun, "The incidence rate of women is higher than that of men, and this disease mostly happens to adults, especially middle-aged and elderly people. I completely overturned these two probabilities, haha. "

"Shut up, you," said Li Jingyun, who wanted to pat him on the head as before. Suddenly, he saw all kinds of hats that he carefully selected for being handsome, and held back his sadness. "It would be nice to have another operation."

Yu Qi kept silent, turned off the webpage page by page, and then said slowly, "What am I afraid of? I started writing a suicide note two years ago. "

"What do you think your blind date is for, having fun!" When he met Ji for the second time, he showed the virtue of a gentle scum, regardless of the image, sitting with her in a greasy restaurant, which he called "the most authentic barbecue restaurant in the city", eating a mouthful of oil. After hearing her say that she kissed more than 20 times a year, she suddenly came to this sentence.

The restaurant was full of smoke, the electric fan was whistling and the clerk pressed a TV channel. When the hero died, he hugged the heroine and cried into tears, howling: "My heart ached to death."

Just like the big bang, everything flew into the sky with a bang, and only insignificant fragments were caught in the hand. She even remembers the expressions of the diners sitting around, the greasy and spicy taste, and the tie that she untied casually, while she pulled a corner of the table with her fingers. Why do you want a blind date? The answer is always so simple and certain.

Blind date is for marriage, of course.

I want to get married, I love to get married, I envy those who wear wedding dresses, and I have dreamed of the day when I became a bride since I was a child.

I can say these words as a matter of course, and I won't blush, because I am an old girl who is about to turn 30. I won't be embarrassed by kissing my relatives and friends dozens of times. If you and I don't succeed, I will register with the marriage agency. Anyway, I want to get married.

Ji looked at the woman who was a little shy at first glance, made a long speech angrily, and then laughed with her.

He didn't expect that the woman who wanted to get married went back on her word at the critical moment.

two

When I was young, I attended many weddings. At that time, I still lived in the house assigned by my parents' work unit. My parents' colleague had a happy event and the whole community was very excited. Because of her beauty, Li Jingyun is often a flower girl. Yu Qi has always been his companion, but later she had to stand in the crowd and make faces at her because she shaved her head.

/kloc-The days before the age of 0/7 can be said to run through the wedding, and Li Jingyun likes every link. She likes to enter, bow, exchange rings and give speeches, or the red cheongsam in China and the white wedding dress in the west. I once thought that the bride could be a profession, but later I joined the army to grab the bouquet, and I felt ashamed.

"You want to get married so badly," Yu Qi looked puzzled and patted off the paper for her. "With so many bouquets, if you don't get married after the deadline, you can't get married."

"What am I afraid of? I have you as backup! "

Li Jingyun casually hooked Yu Qi's neck: "If you don't live up to what you said, see how I punish you!"

Yu Qi grinned, revealing a mouthful of white teeth: "Yes! Future wife! "

What a wonderful memory it is, and how tragic it is when things change and are recalled.

Thought of here, Li Jingyun sighed, and the phone suddenly rang. She looked at the words "mother's adult" on the caller ID, sighed again and picked it up.

It turned out to be the result of questioning the blind date. In the past six months, this has become a question about the progress of his communication with Ji, which can be summarized in two words: "forced marriage."

But this time I finally miscalculated.

The sun was dim, and she almost instinctively noticed that something was falling apart and gradually faded out of the atmosphere she could control. Think about the happy things at the beginning. Smile only drew an empty arc. A few years later, when she read Yoshimoto Banana's Kitchen, she suddenly realized her feelings.

The place I know, the smell I know, and the peace of mind precipitated by my habits can't offset the anxiety in my heart. Knowing that that person's life is like a countdown, even in the happiest time, I miss a piece from my heart, blowing an uneasy wind.

Two years ago, Yu Qi was found to have a brain tumor, and then he had an operation. The doctor said that he recovered well. After Yu Qi, he almost returned to the way he used to laugh, and the results of the reexamination were very good.

However, Li Jingyun sat at home and typed "tumor" on the computer again and again. When she saw the words such as high recurrence rate, she still cried and closed the webpage, re-entered and searched again, hoping that an expert would tell her a satisfactory answer. From then on, she planted the seeds of anxiety in her heart, laughing and laughing with Yu Qi, and finally her heart was full of tired worries.

Want to get married, want to marry Yu Qi. I have been with him since I was a child, and I like him very much. I hope to be with him in the future. As if nothing had happened, in fact, I asked him about his illness in my mind, whether I was going to cry when I sat on the swing, or whether I should hold back my tears. Li Jingyun said this sentence over and over again in his mind, and finally said softly, "Don't mess up the flowers. If you dare to marry someone else, I'll smash your head! "

Yu Qi is no longer glib. He said in a low voice, "well, we'll get married after graduation from college."

three

Sister Xiao Lin didn't know where she got Li Jingyun's phone number, so she woke her up early in the morning.

"ah! Little girl, you dare not come to my sister's wedding! " Wu Xiaolin is still a generous tone.

Li Jingyun made it clear that she was happy before hanging up.

I have never been to a wedding since I was a child, but I can give it a push at any time and ask my colleagues and friends to bring the gift money. There are several invitations, all neatly placed in a box. Li Jingyun respects these. She knew that the newlyweds were carefully and happily choosing to hold the wedding, and she also wanted to experience the feeling of anxiety and happiness from the heart. Yu Qi has also had several boyfriends. Some blind date people have a good impression on her, but most people don't want to go to the auditorium with her. Some people think she is sick. Except for Ji. After dating him for more than half a year, Li Jingyun fell in love with him. He also hinted that both of them were not young. It turns out that I think getting married is a natural thing, just waiting for Ji to give her a ring, and then tacky to say, marry me. I didn't expect to underestimate you, Yu Qi. After listening to Ji's proposal, suddenly, like a rusty machine, he squeaked back to the afternoon when he moved. Yu Qi privately said that we would get married after graduating from college.

Looking at Ji's sincere face, she choked and shook her hand, staring at her eyes for a long time before spitting out a sentence: "What can I do? I can't seem to forget my old lover. Am I ... I can't get married! "

Autumn is deeply in the air. Li Jingyun walked on the fallen leaves wrapped in a shawl. A thick layer of golden yellow on the ground was blown up by the wind, and the sky above her was blue. As she walked, she felt that she would fall into this colorful wave. Twelve years ago, it was almost a reincarnation, so Li Jingyun skipped classes and went to the old city. Yu Qi finally couldn't hold back on the phone, because his consciousness was unexpectedly like an overstretched spring, and he could never go back. Li Jingyun soon realized that something was wrong with her. When he remembered the symptoms on the data, her head turned into a mass of waste paper and was torn to pieces.

The countdown began again, and the sound of ticking penetrated from the scalp.

Yu Qi was lying in a hospital bed when he left, curled up in a corner because of a severe headache, as thin as a shrimp and ridiculously pale. "What are you doing here! Go back quickly! " The expression on his face was distorted, and his voice was distorted by pain.

Someone on TV gave his girlfriend a stomachache to understand her dysmenorrhea. When Li Jingyun looked at it, he smiled and shed tears. He tries his best to understand other people's pain, but all he can understand is eleven or twelve.

She secretly dropped out of the weekend cram school to see Yu Qi. I could see that although he was angry with her for her disobedience, he was still very excited.

"This weekend, I will go with a gift. On the way to the airport with your father, it was the second son of Lao Fan, our former community. Gifts and invitations are on the dining table. You can take time to get it these two days. "

"You know I don't like to go to that occasion, why give me the task! I am not available. "

"You XiaoLinJie is the bride! How kind she was to you when she was a child. You will definitely regret it if you don't go. "

Li Jingyun stood up, put the ring box in her bag, and felt stimulated before she was allowed to attend the wedding.

When you want to move, don't do anything. Go out for a run with Yu Qi and sit on the swing in the community. The sense of urgency of countdown still makes me feel palpitation when I think of it. Li Jingyun looked at his watch. "My parents will definitely start looking for me soon. We can only stay for more than an hour."

"Oh, you!" Yu Qi just stood behind her and pushed the swing for her. His hands are skinny and his veins are like a winding river. "You are not a cuckoo who tells the time, so my head is very big. I calculated that before we entered the university, there were nearly 25 marriageable young men and women in our community, 8 of whom had fixed goals. Counting Comrade Fan Tongsheng who is chasing Xiao Lin's sister, we may attend at least ten weddings in the next two years, and we will definitely meet each other then. Besides, you just moved to another district. Don't think so serious! "

As a result, well-meaning encouragement brought Li Jingyun's suspicion of his dirty eyes. ...

In fact, what I am worried about is whether his sick vaccine will recur during the isolation period. I don't know anything.

"Take a rest, your head hasn't hurt recently ..." Because of brain surgery, Yu Qi kept his head bald for a long time, and everyone called him a brother.

"This is just a tumor. I'll be fine after the operation. Besides, if you are so worried, why do you keep knocking on my head! " Having said that, when Qi Yu just grabbed the swing hand and grabbed the rope, his eyes began to blur again, and he barely grabbed the rope after touching it several times. In front of Li Jingyun, he only cared about quarreling with him, but didn't notice that he put his other hand in his trouser pocket, and the veins stood out in his temples suddenly and violently because of pain.

Li Jingyun was hugged tightly by her mother and finally got ready to get on the bus. Because the door of the apartment building was a mess, Yu Qi stood in the crowd leaving them and waved to her with a good-natured smile.

So the class teacher scolded her in class, always absent-minded. When she threatened to invite her parents, she cried hysterically, but she thought, "He will die. What do you want me to do? " I can't regret it all my life, or I'll drop out of school! "

When Yu Qi was eating, he suddenly said, "When you were all away, I was lying here alone with nothing to do, so I went outside to count branches."

He said, "I'm counting and I want to know how many leaves and buds there will be on each branch in spring." Will I lie here and count, or am I dead? "

The emperor's qi can vaguely see the black qi on his face, while Li Jingyun is desperate and panicked. She looked at his rambling eyes and was so sad that she could hardly hold the spoon in her hand. But I pulled myself together and said, "Forget it, just do another operation. If you don't let me get married, I will never forgive you in my life. "

Yuji still tilted his head, and tears stayed down the corner of his eyes and dripped into the bowl.

Visiting hours have passed since I last went to see him. She sneaked in. Yu Qi suggested that she go to the movies and told her that she would have an operation in three days.

"If I die unfortunately," he said when he was about to inherit the estate. He saw Li Jingyun's tears rolling down his face and explained quickly. "Hey, don't cry. I mean if, if nothing happens, don't cry, I will try my best to heal and marry you. I mean, just in case, here you are. " He took out an envelope from under the pillow. "Don't peek. Give it back to me after the operation is successful. Take it with you first. You are taking an exam recently. Come and see me when I call you. "

"It's all your fault. I'm sure I can't get into the top three in this exam. " Li Jingyun soon thought of something easy to change the subject.

Although Yu Qi's hand is dry and thin, it can still hold Li Jingyun's hand tightly. He was lying in bed talking to her, and the wind was blowing hard outside. His eyes crossed Li Jingyun and looked at the shadowy branches outside: "Is it already cold outside?" I’m going home. "

Li Jingyun walked out of the hospital carrying a schoolbag, covered her face with a scarf and sobbed. She said over and over again that she really wanted to get married. The hospital building behind her was very bright, but she just felt freezing cold.

Three days later, the sky was gray and everyone hurried home after the exam. Li Jingyun pressed the power button, and when her fingers were numb, she didn't receive a new message. She pretends to despise herself easily. People who have just finished surgery don't have the strength to make phone calls, but their steps are beginning to falter. Taking a deep breath of cold air suffocated her. After returning home, she hid in bed and told her mother to sleep.

When dad came back in the evening, she heard him talking to his mother in the living room. In winter, the light shining into the bedroom is solidified into warm yellow. She just lay there listening: "Director Yu's son failed in surgery, so he died on the operating table." "It is sinful to be as big as Xiaoyun." When she heard that "he and Xiaoyun have such a good relationship, let her know." Finally, her mother said something. Both of them stopped talking. Li Jingyun just turned over and put the quilt over his head.

The countdown is over. To catch my breath, I thought the time bomb had been dismantled, but it was blown to pieces.

Sneak out in the middle of the night and take out Yu Qi's letter, which turned out to be a hand-painted invitation. There are big photos of two people with the names of Yu Qi and Li Jingyun written on them. The date is August 12 of the graduation year, Li Jingyun's birthday. Xiao Yun, I want to watch a movie with you today, and I will have an operation in two days. We all know how low the success rate is. But didn't you say in that crazy TV series that from now on, 25 million years later, we will experience what we are experiencing now and meet people we met before? Then I will definitely cure the disease and give you a grand wedding. Until then, you can live with me, find a good man to marry and prepare to be a bride. See you then.

See you then. Li Jingyun squatted on the ground, not knowing how to keep silent by crying. She hates Yu Qi for ruining her wedding, but she hates Yu Qi for giving her an agreement after 25 million years. She hates these dirty plots, and she thinks she will bear them forever and lose the courage to start a new page.

four

After greeting Sister Kobayashi, she took Li Jingyun's hand and said, "Look ahead, my little girl."

The bride is always so beautiful. Li Jingyun was infected by her smile, and the whole person relaxed. The young girls were laughing and joking when they grabbed the bouquet. She stood in the distance and was deeply moved. Finally, I decided to write a long letter to Ji, and finally wrote awkwardly: I have a shadow. If you are afraid, come and take the ring away tomorrow. I wish you happiness.

The hall was dimly lit and the bride and groom toasted each table one by one. Old acquaintances whom I haven't seen for years greeted loudly, and the children were all dressed up and running around. Li Jingyun's desk is a bit deserted, and only a few people are burying their heads in eating. The man in a hat outside three or four seats suddenly bent down and sat down: "Hello."

His eyes are black and bright. "Envy these married people?"

Royal prayer.

Despite Li Jingyun's surprised eyes, he turned and gave her a chopsticks tray. "You love it."

"How did you come back?"

"Comrade LaoFan is older than me, but he is also my bosom friend. He must come, and besides, he has an appointment with you to meet at the wedding. "

"I miss you very much." Li Jingyun unwillingly red eyes.

"Silly girl, why don't you get married? That man is so good that I am jealous. "

"I'm afraid. I am afraid that he will be allowed to marry me and run away like you. "

"I said how do you live more and more confused, happy to enjoy all too late, afraid of this fear that, it is alarmist. I have to wait for you for a long time, in time. "

"Xiao Yun," Yu Qi put away his smiling face and became serious. "Remember the last movie we saw? After a long engagement, the protagonist finally lost his memory, but they will definitely live happily in the future. Xiao Yun, I'd rather you forgot me. You forget these burdens before you can start a new life. "

I opened my eyes and found that it was a terrible dream.

Just like taking a nap when I was a child, there was no one in the house and I suddenly felt flustered. Then there is the loneliness described by Hitchcock. "It seems that you are the only one left in the world." Li Jingyun paused and burst into tears. It was the first time that she dreamed of Yu Qi after his death. On such a cold and sunny afternoon, she tried her best to cry all her thoughts and disappointments.

JiLinYan pacing uneasily, afraid of being Li Jingyun QiangBai again, got a beating.

Looking at Li Jingyun coming from a distance, she hurried to catch up. Before she could speak, she said, "I thought about it. If I don't marry you, I have to live with the shadow. I can't compete with the dead, but I will try my best to make you happy. "

Li Jingyun stared at him until he pointed to the ring strung with a thin chain around his neck: "You are so stupid, don't you see?"

Ji Linyan was as excited as a child and picked up Li Jingyun to make her giggle: "Let's go and take you to eat delicious food!" "

"Go to eat again? ! "

"Who wants me to be a glutton!"

When I was young, I liked to attend weddings and put on my most beautiful clothes. One winter, I even secretly wore a down jacket and ran into the crowd to watch firecrackers in a royal blessing suit. Unexpectedly, I was accidentally splashed by Mars and immediately burned a big hole in my shoulder. Li Jingyun curled her lips and wanted to cry for fear of being scolded by her mother. Yu Qi told her to hurry home and change. She said with tears, "No, my mother will definitely find out if I walk over."

So Yu Qi put his hand on Li Jingyun's shoulder and walked slowly behind her.

Through the crowd, he pushed her through the crowd almost steadily.

He said, don't make a fool of yourself. I'm watching from behind you. It's sure to be no problem.

I'm sure it's okay.

Li Jingyun also tried to tell himself this in his mind.