I heard that we should not meet_1200 words

It is a pity to meet the right person at the wrong time. The most romantic encounter between you and me in that autumn was destined to be a sigh with no ending.

You and I met two years ago. When we met, you had just married your girlfriend who had been with you for many years. There was no love, only mutual affection. I probably felt that this was how it was between people. At that time, you were already a 25-year-old mature man. Getting married and having children was your long-cherished wish after living abroad for these years.

How many times have you had a brush with death, how many times have you wandered on the edge of death, and have you come through the days of being homeless and living in poverty, living in the countryside, raising a family on your own since childhood, and being alone at the age of 16? When I go out alone, I have experienced the desolation and warmth of the world. I have always known that there are many people who add to the cake and add insult to injury, but there are no people who can help when the time is right. Maybe at that time you thought I was the person who helped when the time was needed, so you were willing to talk to me, so Two people who had known each other for more than two years had their first formal conversation and thus established a profound friendship.

You were 27 years old that year, and your child was about to be born in your hometown. I was 21 years old at that time, and I was at a crossroads in my life, not knowing the way forward.

I have always known that I am a person who does not give easily. Over the years, I have been surrounded by passers-by in twos and threes, and no one has forgotten each other in the end, or the friendship between gentlemen is lighter than water.

However, you are an exception, or you give everything first, while I am a person who does not like to owe others feelings and favors, so I give passively.

Due to work reasons, you have the opportunity to drive me to and from a place that can be easily reached in just 30 minutes of walking in the cold north on a windy night. In order to prevent me from being cold, you waste your time It took you 20 minutes to drive me home. You pay attention to details and are very considerate. There are always hot buns and soy milk when picking up in the morning. When I finish drinking a bottle of green tea, there is another bottle on the table immediately. Give it to me if I have a cold. When buying medicine, he called me to check on my condition, which made me feel a warmth I had never felt in the two years I had been living abroad.

When you go back to your hometown, in the third month of our deep friendship, on the third day when I caught a cold, because there are still 20 days before the due date of your child’s birth, you have to go home to take care of your wife. Take up your responsibility as a father.

Those nearly one month were difficult for you. You had to bear the ups and downs of becoming a father for the first time. You were in the hospital and at home in a strange environment. You had to take care of your wife and mother. Got to take care of kids, tired, sick. Due to long-term lack of sleep, I was in a bottle all morning long, with your mother by your side. You have been living alone for these years, solving everything by yourself. At that moment, you opened your eyes and saw your mother beside you. Since you shed tears like that, after all these years of living outside, no matter how hard or tired you are, you have never shed a tear.

You said this later when you recalled the joys, sorrows and joys of that month. In fact, I know your feelings very well, just like the feeling when you care about me, I often burst into tears.

My heart aches when I listen to your story thousands of miles away. You have been walking like this in the wind and rain all these years. You have shouldered the thorns along the way, and I feel sad for you.

After a month's absence, you are back and you have lost 10 pounds. You are still treating me better than before. The way you look at me is more and less than before. I am not an innocent girl who has seen the meaning of that look countless times. I will not point it out or expose it. I am just pretending to be ignorant. Let’s start. I deliberately avoided your pick-up and drop-off. I really don’t want to destroy the pure brother-sister relationship between us, because I really cherish it. After all, who is really kind to themselves when they are wandering outside?

After all, I am not a master of ambiguity over the years, nor do I play ambiguity. Maybe if we met a few years ago and developed such a relationship, I would have let us date. If we could finally spend a lifetime together, I would also No objection, because I surrender to the warmth around me.

But this time is wrong, this season is wrong, we can only be brother and sister.

Once you were drunk and sent me a text message saying, sister, I love you but I don’t deserve it. I was surprised that such a responsible person could tell the truth after drinking. No reply, the next day he picked me up near my home half an hour earlier than my normal departure time. I didn't mention the content of the text message, I just told you that you are already a married man, don't think about anything and just work hard to make money. I cherish the brother-sister relationship between us.

From then on, your eyes looked at me normally, and I was very content. Really, with such a brother who keeps me warm, why wouldn't I do it?

We are not crazy men and women who cannot be entangled until death. We are just ordinary people who are used to constant dependence and refuse to give in. The habit that has penetrated into the bone marrow of our lives for so long and countless days needs to be used in the future. How much time will it take to get used to life without you?

So let this habit continue, my brother forever!