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It is now ten o'clock in the morning, looking at the silent night sky outside the window, but I burst into tears again!

Today is the 1223rd day since you left me. But today I learned: In fact, love does not have to have results.

Although our love only met on that illusory network, my first love at that time was a memory that I can never forget, and it also changed my destiny! !

Recalling that we met on QQ in 2006. At that time, we were young and vigorous, and no one would admit defeat. It seems like it was just yesterday.

I remember when I first met you, I weighed more than 170 pounds, but the Internet told you that I weighed 120 pounds. You were in Langfang, Hebei Province at that time, and we texted and called each other until late at night every day. You said you were infatuated with my voice and liked my kindness. You said you loved me and that you would play football well and buy a house for me to live in Beijing. You promised me that you would walk around the world with me while holding your beloved shepherd dog. Every corner. You said no matter what I become you will never leave me!

When you really saw me, you smiled and said with a smile: You have put so much into this relationship, but this is the result. You said that our love is limited to the Internet, and you only love me online. If God could give you another chance, you would never choose this relationship. I know everything is over, but why do so many things never end? Why do I love you but you no longer love me? Too many reasons make me very disappointed, sad and sad!

In the days to come, I will still send you text messages and call you as usual. Only to find that your phone has been turned off! I couldn’t figure out why you were avoiding me, so I ran from school to your house in the morning to find you, and stood stupidly downstairs at your house! I wish you could show up. But there was still no trace of you, so I had no choice but to go back to school in frustration. I sat quietly in class, and that was the first time I knew what it meant to be distracted! Ren Missing's tears kept falling, but there was still no news from you. However, after school, I came to your house again and waited downstairs, hoping to see you this time. I keep calling and texting you, but you still turn off your phone! But I really didn’t want to give up. I thought: Maybe stupid people are lucky, and God will take pity on me and let me wait for you... Just like this, it rained after six o'clock, and I stood stupidly in the rain. It kept hitting me on the face, but I still stood there motionless, calling your name in my heart, and suddenly burst into tears. I couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears that hit my face. I returned home after eight o'clock, but I didn't expect that I still had a high fever from the rain. But still crawl to the computer to see if you are online. The result was still as disappointing as I imagined! It continued to rain for the next few days. Gradually I got used to waiting downstairs for you in the rain! Maybe some feelings are really fruitless. And what I imagined was really naive. So I decided to bury my feelings for you in my heart. Choose blessings!

However, you showed up again soon, called me to complain, and asked me if I missed you and if I had been waiting for your call! I was a crying mess that night. In the following days, we started to contact each other again, but I started crying secretly every day because you didn't love me.

Finally, your birthday is approaching! I know you like Ronaldinho and Nike things, so I bought exquisite accessories and a Nike wallet and mailed them to you. I will send you a text message to wish you well at twelve o'clock in the evening. God pays off. My every move really moved you, and you agreed to date me. I was over the moon with a feeling I hadn't had in a long time. I'll still act coquettishly and jealously for you as before! But it feels like your heart is so far away from me now. A week later, you broke up with me again! You said something feels wrong, but the feeling I had for you before will never come back! I smiled and said yes! After hanging up the phone, I started to cry again!

After we broke up, I wrote to you every day. I still feel that I can move you and you can discover my love for you! I know that I have reached the point where I love you so much that I can’t help but have you! Even if others think I am worthless, I still keep writing to you every day! Maybe my life has really been disrupted by you! Made me lose myself.

One day you sent me a text message: You said you were getting more and more annoyed with me! You didn't want me to write to you anymore, and you scolded me and told me not to contact you. I couldn't bear it anymore because I was so fragile. My heart was broken, so I called you and told you: I want to commit suicide! I would rather not live without you. You are so scared that you call me every day. I know you are afraid that something will happen to me, but it is true that I really don’t want to live anymore! I was so deeply in love with you that I thought that if two people fall in love, it will last forever!

Our matter finally caused an uproar in my family and yours! After committing suicide, I lay on the hospital bed, looking at the white sheets and crying. You still didn’t come to see me, you just sent text messages asking me if I was okay and asking me to stop doing this. Seeing your discomfort and sadness, I know that this is your pity for me, not love. I looked up to the sky and shouted: For you, I must lose weight. I want you to fall in love with me!

The following days I started my weight loss career. But it was really painful. In order to lose weight quickly, I only ate one cucumber and one egg almost every day, and then ran. I actually lost more than 20 pounds in one month! Later, my friend told me that yoga is great for losing weight. So I started practicing yoga again and lost another 12 pounds, so I lost 138 pounds!

I called you again on May 2, 2006, and said I wanted to see you tomorrow. But you still rejected me. So I began to beg you, and I said: If I go there and don’t see you, I will come back. You say: Okay! Just hung up. In fact, I was supposed to go to Baotu Spring as a tour guide that day, but it was because of you! I gave up that opportunity for that thousandth chance.

I vaguely remember the scorching heat on May 3rd. I got up at around five o'clock in the morning. I took a taxi to your house downstairs at half past six. Original thought: I came so early, maybe I can see you during your morning exercise, and I feel peaceful and happy. But it was almost eight o'clock and I still didn't see you, so I started to call you impatiently. I called once and you didn't answer my call. I hit it a second time and a third time with the same result! Until the Nth time... It was almost twelve o'clock. I had not eaten since morning and I was so hungry. My skin was really sore from the sun. So I went to the canteen downstairs to chat and eat with the aunt I just met. Then I sent you a text message telling you that I will wait here until you come! At one forty a strange woman came in to see me. She said she wanted to talk to me. I know she must be your mother. I still remember what my mother said: She said that she and you had just woken up, and she kept holding my hand tightly and wanted me to live well and not let me fuck. He also told me that first love cannot stay together for a lifetime. The most important sentence is: Yangyang doesn’t love me anymore! Not loved at all! I really hate that I keep pestering him like this. I don't know why, but when I heard this sentence, tears of dissatisfaction surged down, and I suddenly felt that I was extremely fragile at this moment. But I still really wanted to meet Yangyang, so I boldly told my aunt about my idea. My aunt's actions told me that she really didn't want me to see him, but she still reluctantly agreed. After a while, Yangyang came down from upstairs. I still remember the expression and movements. You pinched your waist with both hands and said loudly to me fiercely: My mother has told you everything you need to say! I turned around. Turn around and run away, tears continuing...

I hate you, I really hate you. Unstoppable hate! Hate even more motivated me to lose weight and aroused my ambition! I told myself, I have to work hard! I must let you see a different me.

That’s it, I really lost weight. After losing weight to 120 pounds, I started my revenge! First I fall in love with your best friend, then with your brother and other teammates. To me, they are just my pets. When this toy falls in love with its owner, I will abandon them all. . Then I will proudly tell you: I have toyed with whose feelings again! It’s just that what’s waiting for me is you scolding me again and again, and gradually I get used to you scolding me.

But to this day, I still remember the most classic sentence you said to me. You said: I have neither touched you nor touched you, why do you always pester me? You also said: You will never marry anyone in this life. Even if all the women in the world die except you, you will not marry me! This is also the first time I cried and laughed!

Not long after these days went on, I became notorious in your team. I laughed at how shameful my behavior was, but I also hated your abandonment and thought it was you who forced me to be like this. !

My personality is becoming more and more withdrawn, and my friends are gradually leaving me, leaving only my own corner! One day, a person I had hurt said to me: He doesn’t blame me because he still loves me so much. He said that he really wanted to see the kind and understanding Linlin before, and I suddenly felt aggrieved. burst into tears. In fact, no one knows how I have lived these past four years. While I was playing tricks on others, I was also blaming myself and feeling uncomfortable. I have never been happy. Really, I have never been happy! It's just that hatred once really made me lose my way and closed myself off for four years.

After that experience, I thought about it and let go. Now sometimes when I calm down and carefully recall the sweet and vigorous love between Yangyang and I, I am still grateful: I I think if it weren't for him, I would still be a "fat girl" weighing over 170 pounds. He helped me lose weight. It was also he who made me try what love is and how to love, care for and cherish someone. In fact, he also gave me his first true love and tears. Although he still hates me now, those things are no longer important to me! The important thing is that he is living a good life now, he is getting better and better, and he is very good in the team! This is enough for me! Some feelings are not what you want, and working hard doesn’t mean you will have them. People who truly love you will always accompany you and wait for you until you grow old! However, in the world of love, no one is right or wrong. As long as we let it go, we will be happy!