He walked through his heart (Chapter 65438 +0 ~ 5)

When she divorced, An Qin got drunk and said to her friend, "I never want to see Yi Song again. 」

Unfortunately, within ten days, she met her ex-husband at a friend's private party.

I can't help it The circle is that big. She was not drunk at that time, so they smiled and nodded gracefully-very appropriately. Anyone who sees it should praise it. The two divorced very gracefully. They divorced peacefully. How peaceful is it? Ten minutes before Yi Song's divorce, An Qin was still talking with him about the Mid-Autumn Festival. She prepared moon cakes and gifts, divided the tastes according to different people's preferences, and told Yi Song about her arrangement: "Your mother called yesterday and said that there was a small family gathering on Mid-Autumn Festival night, and there were many rules, so it was difficult for you to get away. We went to my mother's house in the morning, left for home after lunch, and stayed in our ancestral home at night. " An Qin does everything. After marriage, she quickly found her place in the huge family interpersonal relationship of the Song family. Everyone praises her exquisiteness, and even his picky mother is satisfied with this daughter-in-law, who has a thousand choices-this is the advantage of being suitable, and each other is a child who grew up in a big family and has his own means of personnel relations, which saves trouble and effort. But he was absent-minded. An Qin soon found that he was absent-minded, so he stopped it in time, took a sip of the cup on the coffee table, and then asked intimately, "Did you meet something? He pondered for a long time, and then calmly negotiated with An Qin: "Let's get a divorce." AnQin looked up at him, calm as she also appeared extremely fast eyes out of focus, which was caused by too much impact, but it was not obvious on the surface. She quickly reacted and didn't even ask him if he was joking. Her eyes wandered around his face inch by inch, as if to confirm whether what he said at this time was thoughtful. She soon came to her own judgment, so she was silent for a while and asked him, "Why? Yi Song found the next words a little difficult. He seldom feels guilty about such a person, but he has to say, "I'm sorry, I have a person ... who I liked very much before, but my family doesn't agree ... I met her a few days ago ..." After a few words, An Qin understood the cause and effect of the incident. She looked at him with a slightly pale finger bone holding the cup and quickly asked, "Song Yi paused and then said," No ... no, I just met her two days ago. " His words were very difficult, Anqin's tight shoulders relaxed slightly, and Yi Song continued to explain, "But Anqin, I don't know, when she left me six years ago ... six years ago, she was pregnant. I accidentally dropped the cup in my hand, and there was a thick blanket at home. An Qin picked it out by herself after marriage. There was no sound when the cup fell, and it was soaked in the carpet, but the color was darker. She just heard Yi Song say in a trance: "That child ... that child is five years old this year. It took Anqin a long time to find her own voice. She may be thirsty, so her voice is hoarse. She began to arrange the divorce: "This started with you, Mom-"She paused and adjusted her wording. You explained to your mother that my parents might embarrass you, but I couldn't stop it. You should be prepared in advance. " "We don't have many properties with * * *, and there are two sets of properties with * * *. This set is mine, and the one in City A is closer to your company and yours. "I'll pack your luggage and give it to your assistant before tonight." Yi Song has been listening silently, and then she interrupted me: "I feel sorry for you. The house in the city is yours. Besides, we have some debt funds for you. An Qin nodded silently. They don't have much property, but they are not people who care about it. Yi Song only lightened his guilt in this way. An Qin didn't speak. After a long time, he said, "You can handle the divorce yourself, and you can explain it to your elders." She rubbed her temples wearily and then said, "My elders are convinced. You signed the divorce papers and sent them to me. I will send it to you after I sign it. After you get the divorce certificate, just let your assistant put it in the living room of that house in a city. I'll get it when I have time. " Things are so organized that it is simpler than what Yi Song used to think in his mind. He even thought about how he should persuade An Qin, but she didn't give him a chance. The above thoughts seem to have exhausted her energy, so she smiled slightly, alienated and unfamiliar: "Mr. Song, it's getting late, so go to work first if you have something to do. By the way, don't forget to leave your keys at home. " "Yi Song stood up. Just two steps after turning around, I heard an Qin behind him calling him, "Mr. Song, don't forget to take the moon cakes and gifts from the living room." She smiled. "I won't go to the Mid-Autumn Festival." When you go out, Yi Song looked back at the living room. An Qin leaned back on the sofa, burying his face in his hands, and looked very thin. When Yi Song walked out of the door, she even wondered if An Qin was crying, because her body was trembling slightly.

But his steps stopped, but he didn't look back.

Maybe wrong, he thought. After all, she behaved so calmly, and besides, they didn't get married because they fell in love. Divorce broke my heart, and friends in the circle also gossiped with An Qin. Yi Song's mother flew into a rage, and Yi Song's face was covered with bright palm prints during that time. In fact, the old man once called An Qin, hating the tone of iron not turning into steel: "He is leaving, won't you do something?" "children? This child belongs to the Song family. Is she Jing Zhao? I think the child entered the Song family's door. Is she worth it? " Finally, her voice softened and she said, "Qinqin, mom knows that you have been wronged, and mom makes decisions for you, and you-"Anqin interrupted her and said, "Auntie," which obviously choked her. An Qin continued, "Aunt, I have agreed to divorce. "This aunt broke the old man's heart. She actually likes anqin very much, and it's good for her. It can be said that it is the pain of being a daughter, so I hung up the phone for a long time with a sigh. Things have gone so far, about a month later, the Song family softened, and her mother became angry again, so she couldn't help standing in front of her and calling her grandma timidly. Yi Song personally sent the divorce agreement to settle down. An Qin's parents are decent people and professors from famous universities. They don't swear and fight, but they are short of breath. Yi Song knelt in front of the two old people for a day before Anqin's mother called her back.

Yi Song is a favored son of heaven. An Qin came back and saw him standing under the ginkgo tree in his yard. The twists and turns during this period probably exhausted him, but soon, he was in The Faithful Wife. Ginkgo orchards rustle in the branches, and layers of gold are covered with branches. An Qin stood behind him and called him. He replied, turning back. An Qin even smiled and said, "Didn't you just say to send it to me?" Yi Song was silent: "After all, I want to apologize to the two old people. After that, he looked at An Qin with gloomy eyes and said, "I'm sorry, too. An Qin quickly tilted his head, blinked hard, and then held out his hand and said, "OK, give me the agreement. An Qin signed the letter and gave it to Yi Song's assistant. Soon after, she received a short message from Yi Song, saying that the divorce certificate had been put on the porch of a house in a city so that she could get it whenever necessary.

She replied politely, "I see, thank you."

Their social circles overlap too much, even if they deliberately avoid it, sometimes it is inevitable. When they met at that private banquet, they nodded and smiled, and all eyes were fixed on them more or less. Yi Song also asked politely, "How have you been recently?" 」

"Thank you, very well, and you? 」

"Me too. 」

It seems that they haven't slept together for more than three years-three years, five months and six days.

Of course, the traces of these three years are not without traces. During the period of their divorce, An Qin felt very uncomfortable. After the divorce, she experienced long-term insomnia, loss of appetite and vomiting. She thought it was stomach upset caused by fatigue and insomnia. After the symptoms lasted more than half a month, she went to the hospital. Holding the test paper, she sat on the bench in the garden downstairs of the hospital for a whole afternoon. The sun is still very hot in late summer. She was completely exposed to the sun, but she still felt cold. Her arm is tightly wrapped around herself, which is really bloody. She sneered at the bottom of her heart, but she couldn't help but give me a bleak smile on her face. An Qin saw Yi Song when he was taking delivery. After the divorce, she lived in the apartment she bought. Song Yi came here once. He may have looked everywhere he knows. When An Qin came back with paella in slippers, he saw Yi Song's car downstairs. He leaned against the door, smoking, and lost three or four cigarette butts at his feet. An Qin suddenly realized that the hospital she went to was invested by the major shareholder Song Jia. After she got married, she had a regular physical examination in this hospital. When she went to the hospital, she didn't think of it at all, so it is normal for Yi Song to know the news so quickly. In fact, Yi Song is the most restrained and forbearing person Anqin has ever seen, which is probably related to his growth. His controlling mother suppressed his forbearance. He has great self-control and seldom smokes. Now that he has smoked so many cigarettes in such a short time, An Qin can almost feel his anxiety and slap her face to face in the form of emotional materialization. So she stopped unconsciously. Yi Song looked up at her, then quickly put out the cigarette butt, raised her hand and waved the cigarette in the air. Then she looked at Anqin, and the two men confronted each other silently. After a long time, An Qin heard him ask in a difficult tone, "What are you going to do, boy?"? They have been married for more than three years, and they are separated. Yi Song is a very responsible person at heart. If he hadn't filed for divorce this time, she would never have known that he had someone in mind. He has been fulfilling her husband's responsibilities, being tolerant, considerate and steady, remembering every anniversary and her birthday, and remembering her preferences and tastes. Besides not loving her, this man is simply a model husband of twenty-four filial piety. Now he is standing in front of her, struggling to ask word by word: "You don't want to keep this child, do you?" An Qin didn't know what kind of emotion and expression she wanted to face Yi Song who asked this sentence, so she tried to ask calmly, "Are we divorced? This is my business, Mr. Song. " Yi Song hung his eyes and looked at her. He was very tall, so he looked at people with an imposing manner, but the lights on the roadside were projected and broke his eyes. There seemed to be something surging in his thick eyes, but it was a pity that he pressed it down. In retrospect, the only thing that can make An Qin feel better is that he is dumb and has a deep voice, as if he is sorry for his decision, or that he is sorry for this child who has no chance to be born. He said, "You know An Qin, this child ... if our two families knew about the existence of this child ..." He hesitated, and Qin An understood in an instant. If the two families knew about the existence of the child, the chips at both ends of her and Song's scales were clear and easy to choose, so they didn't need to think too much, so when he heard the news, he drove over immediately. An Qin, who didn't say a word of nonsense during the divorce, could be laughed at by insiders. When she saw it, she could still maintain a decent and kind An Qin, and finally raised her hand. A few months later, the heavy slap finally hit Yi Song in the face. He endured it silently. She went to C alone for surgery, and An Sok has a wide network of contacts. Any hospital in a city, after such an operation, will spread to the ears of two old people, so she can only go out. When she was lying in bed under anesthesia, she saw the ginkgo tree outside the window. It was windy that day, and the ginkgo garden rustled. She remembered holding the medical certificate that day, but she didn't know what to do. After thinking for a long time, she ordered the only normal meal after the divorce. At that time, she thought, it would be bad if the child was malnourished at birth. She was afraid to tell any close relatives and friends about the miscarriage. She came out of the hospital bed, clutching her lower abdomen, and a tall figure leaned against the wall. Yi Song knew that the time and place of her operation was normal. It is obvious that she did the operation, but he seems to be in pain, with one hand on his forehead and his eyes closed. An Qin just finished the operation and was shaking all over, so everything was shaking. When Song Yi helped her with trembling hands, she pushed her away. She didn't have any strength, she didn't have the strength, but Yi Song stumbled, leaned against the wall to steady himself, and said sorry to her with a pale face. She was numb with pain and walked past him without looking back. It's been a year since Yi Song finally got his wish. At that time, she was on holiday in Australia, and the people around her protected An Qin very well. She brushed the circle of friends and saw the photos shared by their friends in the circle of friends. This is an invitation with a bunch of flowers and a white tablecloth in the background. This may be a wedding scene, which was shot so quickly that she could see two names: Song Yi and Zhao Jing, who looked up and wrote side by side. She paused, came to her senses, and saw a familiar friend's comment: "What are you doing in a circle of friends? "I'm afraid she will see that the circle of friends will be deleted soon-I don't know if she has been prevented from resending it. Someone called her at night, and she was lying on the balcony, with the blue sky hanging low, and her friends faltered for a long time. Finally, even An Qin couldn't listen anymore. She asked bluntly: Did you make a positive result with his first love? " "Her tone is too calm, no indignation, no sadness, so my friend breathed a sigh of relief, probably thinking that Yi Song divorced her for a grassroots first love, just hurting her face. How do two people get married because of their life experiences feel? So when my friend was surprised, she began to gossip with her cheerfully, with a disdainful tone: "You don't know the old lady of the Song family who can't get on the table?" In such a big family, the daughter-in-law of the eldest son and grandson only set five tables for the banquet. "When she married, the wedding banquet with Ann was held for eight days, and all her friends were indignant about Ann's marriage, so the tone was obviously schadenfreude:" It is said that the old lady of the Song family was primitive, and the unknown woman quietly joined the Song family without opening the door. Even if she gave Yi Song face, how could she cause a big sensation? " This is the final decision. An Qin was silent, and finally hung up the phone wearily, thinking blank, as if thinking about many things, Li Kenuo ... Finally, she fell asleep on the sofa, as if she had a dream in a daze.

In the dream, I vaguely remember that when she just married Yi Song, they went to Delphi for their honeymoon together. Delphi is her choice, which is not the best choice for honeymoon, but she likes it very much, because in Greek legend, one day, Zeus wanted to find out where the center of the world was, so he put a pigeon in the opposite direction, and the two pigeons finally met at Delphi and stayed on an oval boulder, so Zeus decided that Delphi was the center of the world. A very romantic city. However, two people who have no emotional foundation have nothing to do with romance on their honeymoon. Since they put down their luggage at the hotel, Yi Song has never stopped handling official business. At first, she and Yi Song came into contact with marriage, but both elders thought it was appropriate. Neither of them mentioned feelings. An Qin is good at hiding her feelings, but no matter how decent and generous she is, she is just a 23-year-old newly married girl. When Yi Song was dealing with official business, he didn't look up and said angrily, "You are busy, I'll go out alone." 」

After this visit, she lost her way. She lost her way at the foot of the mountain in the town of Kalambaka. The remains here are ancient and complete, and stand solemnly. During the day, this is a magnificent scenery. At night, the tall and quaint stone carvings are reflected by the setting sun, and the empty place seems empty. An Qin was afraid at that time. When she called Yi Song, she almost cried, but Yi Song's voice had a strange calming power over the phone. He asked calmly, "Where are you?" What landmarks are there around you? 」

At last he said, "You stay where you are, and I'll be right there." After a pause, he added, "Don't be afraid." He came so fast. The tall figure shuttled back and forth from the tall and quaint stone carvings against the light, constantly looking around, and there was an obvious anxious look on her face. An Qin actually didn't know what she was thinking at that moment, but there was a bang in her head. Unconsciously, she reached out and confessed to Yi Song, shouting, "Yi Song-"

Yi Song looked up at her, relieved and relaxed, as if she knew he was worried about her. An Qin sighed quietly at that moment and suddenly felt that this is really a romantic city. She and Yi Song, they are like pigeons from two ends of the world, flying around different trajectories, but it doesn't matter. Anyway, they will eventually meet in Delphi, starting from here. Could this be the beginning of a beautiful story? Although their marriage was short, they had to admit that they had many wonderful memories. Yi Song is a man with a strong sense of responsibility. He is mature and steady. He has no other shortcomings except being busy. After marriage, for convenience, they didn't rest in Song's ancestral home. They live in a flat building in a city, but An Qin and he are both strong in the private field. They don't like strangers disturbing their space, so they don't look for hourly workers or nannies. An Qin has packed everything at home. When I first got married and lived together, I had no memory after packing. One morning, Yi Song went to work. They both slept late the night before. In the morning, Yi Song may have overslept and had an important morning meeting. An Qin slept in a daze. She only heard him come and shake her and asked in her ear, "An Qin, where did you put my black suit for me?" What about that dark blue tie? "She was so sleepy that she couldn't open her eyes and waved in vain. The whole person curled up on the bed and tried to roll her head in. Yi Song giggled, laughed and worried, and coaxed her in her ear: "Hurry up, An Qin, I'm really late." He put it on her ear, and the breath brushed on her ear, itchy. An Qin's ears are the most sensitive, and she wakes up with a smile. "AnQin struggled to get up, in a daze to the cloakroom to find clothes for him, found to Song Yi change. When Song Yi changed back, An Qin leaned against the cabinet behind him in her pajamas, her head leaning against her head, and fell asleep again. So he carried her to the bed in the bedroom and let her go back to sleep. In fact, there is no vigorous plot. It is this homely atmosphere that will give birth to warmth and affection for a long time. She is not one of the big ladies in an ordinary big family. She is independent-minded and graduated from a prestigious school. What is rare is that she has a high emotional intelligence, good communication with people, proper advance and retreat, and can take care of herself when studying abroad. What is more rare is that she can cook. Yi Song was shocked when she cooked for the first time after marriage. After taking the first bite, she joked, "As a qualified husband, I thought I would bite the bullet and finish these dishes and praise you. I didn't expect it to be so amazing." She laughed so hard that her eyes bent deeply. Yi Song is actually very good at cooking. Sometimes she works overtime. If Song Yi comes back first, when she comes back, he will have cooked dinner for her. Occasionally, it is rare for two people to rest at home and cook a big meal together. Only one thing-neither of them likes washing dishes. When they first got married, they both took them. If this meal was cooked by this person, the dishes must have been washed by that person. Courtesy, very well, after two people naively playing tricks on each other. At first, it was rocks, cloth and scissors. Once, the atmosphere was really good. It's raining heavily outside, separated by a layer of glass, which makes the room more quiet and comfortable. After eating and drinking enough, An Qin lost, and she fell down on the sofa and couldn't get up. Yi Song pulled her over. She smiled and dodged. Somehow, she blurted out, "I don't wash it. It's someone else's." So close, both of them froze at the first exit, and the blush and heat spread from the cheeks to the whole body very quickly. An Qin quickly turned over and said, "I'll do the dishes." Yi Song gherardini to hold her down, laughing with a long sigh, also don't know whether this is hurting her or what, anyway, the tone is also very happy: "forget it, I am also an open city manager, how can I calculate these small things with my wife? I will wash it. " It was the first time that Song Yi started calling his wife and made a little joke, but she blushed, just like the little red on the tip of a peach on a ripe branch in early March, which was the sweetest bite. There was no obstacle at first, probably because she discovered Yi Song's secret. Actually, it wasn't intentional. She and Yi Song both had their own houses before they got married. On that occasion, Song's mother gave her an address to get something. Yi Song was there when she opened the door and came in. Two people looked at each other. She was so shocked that she could hardly manage her expression, while Song Yi was embarrassed. A large apartment on the first floor has been completely opened, without any furniture, only a showcase, half of which is handmade and half of which is Lego model. Yi Song sat in the empty seat in the middle, his shirt on his cuff, and his neatly combed hair hung loosely between his eyebrows. He is only a few years old, like a college student who just took off his childishness. He was surrounded by Lego parts and held a model plane in his hand. Qin An dazed, have no reaction to come over. He subconsciously asked, "aren't you in a meeting today?" Song Zong, who has always been steady, mature and reliable, seems a little angry. He blushes suspiciously and says, "I'll stop by after driving ..." An Qin couldn't help laughing loudly, with tears in his eyes, and then came over to hug him and whispered, "Let me show you something. "An Qin took him to his premarital apartment, which was not as exaggerated as Yi Song's, but there was also a small room full of Lego toys. Yi Song's eyes almost lit up. He pointed to the set of pirate ship models on the table and was a little excited: "I have a whole set, too." 」

An Qin was also very excited and said, "I saw it. 」

Two people glances, from each other's eyes to see the mutual appreciation of bosom friends. Later, they decided who would wash the dishes, that is, set an alarm clock, and two people prepared the same mini Lego to see who would finish it first and then who would wash the dishes. Yi Song's childhood was not very good. His father died early, and Song's mother took care of him to the point of abnormal condition. An Qin only got a glimpse from daily and occasional conversations. He had no time to play with these things before. In addition to his normal studies, he also has courses in business, stocks and funds. In the eyes of Song's mother, things like Lego are just depressing things.

So it's just a secret between them.

This tacit little secret seems to have brought them closer together. Their marriage, getting along so well, is more harmonious than anyone who has been in love for several years and entered the marriage hall. They are husband and wife, friends, have the same hobbies, and their families and horizons are at the same latitude. Friends around me can't help feeling: "How come you are so well matched?" This kind of matching, like the soul of the other half, blends together and finally completes.

How did this happen?

It is a very unexpected thing to meet their family of three.

At the transfer airport, the VIP room is very large. She was leafing through a book at that time, and then she heard the children laughing. She subconsciously raised her head and froze. Fate is so cruel that they can't avoid meeting in this space. Yi Song is holding a child in one hand and a toy in the other, accompanied by a woman, who should be called Jing Zhao. She only read the wedding invitation once and remembered the name.

Jing Zhao snuggled up to Yi Song and smiled and reached out to tease the children.

A standard happy family of three.

Her brain went blank. When Yi Song looked over, she was obviously at a loss. The woman next to him looks very sensitive and suspicious between them. Fortunately, they are decent people who are good at hiding their emotions. An Qin was the first to react and said, "What a coincidence! Did the Song family go out for a trip?" "Yi Song stay for a while, put down the child in his hand. I don't know what the mood is, panic? Guilt? Awkward? She is tired and doesn't want to analyze. She only heard him reply in a low voice, "Yes. 」

Two people are like strangers with only a nodding acquaintance, and then they stop talking. She pretended to read with her head down, but soon put it down because her hands were shaking and she was afraid of being laughed at. It's okay, anqin. It's okay. She closed her eyes to comfort herself. It doesn't matter. This is just a meeting. You can do it. Calm down. Jing Zhao doesn't think so, or just say hello, or maybe not, who cares? She tentatively asked AnQin, "Do you know Ayi? What's your name? " Then he smiled and said, "What a coincidence. This temptation is stupid. An Qin is actually trying to embarrass her. She wanted to reply with a smile and malice: "My name is An Qin." She believes that Jing Zhao knows her name even though she doesn't know her appearance. But good upbringing stopped her, not to mention the fact that this woman didn't ruin her marriage. In fact, Zhao Jing and Yi Song knew each other before her. She moved her lips, and with that good quality, she gently replied, "I just know each other." Then she stood up politely and said goodbye to them: "I want to go to the bathroom." Have a good time. " Else, she dare not look at Yi Song. Maintain your last dignity and dignity and walk straight back. It was not until the moment the plane took off that the blindfold tightly covered her eyes that she began to tremble. In the VIP room, the child actually glanced at Yi, with eyes and nose alike. She once thought that if she and Song Yi had children, would they be boys or girls? Do you look like her or him? What kind of father will Yi Song be? She once thought that she could give their children the best education and love, because although I don't know whether Song likes her or not, as far as responsibility is concerned, he will be a good father. She never imagined that one day after she got pregnant, he would beg her to abort the child. If, if that child was born that year and is now one year old, will it be a boy or a girl? Who will it look like? What's your personality like? If, if ...

She actually understands Yi Song. She knows him too well. He lost his father when he was a child, and he knew the importance of his father in the growth of his children. Plus, he is such a responsible person that he won't abandon the mother and son. Sometimes, she can't help thinking viciously, who would Yi Song choose if she gave birth to that child? How should he go to Ping? If she were more selfish. But she thought, wouldn't it be sad if her children had to compete with other children for that little fatherly love? How can she put herself in such a position of resentment?

Fortunately, the marriage with Yi Song is only three years. She sometimes regrets why this marriage is so short. If Yi Song falls in love with her for a long time, will it be harder to choose? But sometimes she is glad that she has not got too deep in such a short time, and she still has the possibility of coming out.

She has a good appearance, good knowledge and good personality, and all the people she pursues are good. The most important thing is that someone will love her wholeheartedly. She will eventually find someone who loves her wholeheartedly.

She leaned her head against the window. In fact, she could have resisted. What is intolerable? When she was a child, her tutor was forbearing, her thoughts and manners. Only through restraint can she appear restrained and polite. How can she not hate it? Running tears raged under the blindfold, and she cried silently. In this invisible corner, no one knows her mess, and no one sees her sadness. Delphi is not the center of the world. The two pigeons circled halfway around the world and moved on at the moment they met. This is not the beginning of a beautiful story. It was just an ordinary trivial episode that no one cared about, and even the regret was as light as a sigh.

Life needs not only love, but also dignity and self-esteem.