Hello, my short messages to my boyfriend always have no ambiguous feeling, always have a serious feeling, and I feel the same way myself. What should I do?

Hello ~ I'm a person like you, but she's not my girlfriend yet. It's just that she knows how I feel. Her life is terrible. At the same time, she had a serious illness last year and still has a fever. I called her a fool and she called me a fool. Sometimes. Really? I want to change her body and let her spend these days well. Now I don't want her to have a burden, to think about irrelevant topics such as feelings, for fear that she will be distracted and afraid that she will walk into the abyss of sadness again. So I just whispered to her to express my confidence. There are many things in confidence. Sometimes I send her photos, sometimes I send her jokes and weather forecasts, and sometimes I send my own trifles and happy things. . . She is an extroverted girl with a deep heart? But believe me, talk to me, tell me about her illness, tell me about her life and study, I will teach her how to live, and I will also tell her some tips and tricks about my life. She is a careless girl, but she has a sensitive heart. She always thinks before she speaks. She said that she is a mature person in the eyes of others, but she has a childlike personality inside. She likes to spoil people she knows. You want me to show her the video, but don't show it to me. I always laugh and laugh when I talk to her on the phone. She will say that I am a happy person, so every time I speak, I will be infected by my smile. I always talk with a smile, but now I'm in tears. She said she wouldn't let me see her like this, but she had a cold and a fever and couldn't help herself? Lacrimal glands always shed tears involuntarily. She said she would be strong, and she was really worried that I didn't know what to do. I can't do anything, even if I want to go back for the Dragon Boat Festival. Hehe ~ Sometimes I really hate myself, the landlord. I'm sorry to say something irrelevant here, but the landlord, I believe that if you like him, you will feel a little after seeing these experiences I said ~