My husband thinks about his first love and ignores me. What should I do?

what is love ? Love has a wide meaning, which can be friendship, affection, love ... among them, perhaps people are most interested in love. Then I might as well talk about love. Love is the most beautiful and good word, and many people are struggling to pursue it. Sometimes people regard love as more important than life. But what is love? How many people really have eternal love? How many people have been looking for it all their lives? Love may be the feeling of love at first sight, love may be the feeling of commitment, love may be the feeling of life and death together ... love is an endless topic. When you have love for someone, your heart is full of fear and anxiety. You don't know how the other person feels. You should hide your feelings, because you are a reserved person. Maybe your first love is the shadow in your heart. You dress him in dream clothes. You are intoxicated with the illusion of dreams and don't want to wake up. You have been wandering for a long time. When you know each other's feelings, everything is gone, because you have come out of his shadow, his coat is no longer gorgeous, the love you embrace has lost its luster, and your life is full of gray. When I have no experience of loving others, I think, "loving others is a kind of enjoyment." When I am loved, I think, "Being loved is a kind of happiness!" " But whether you love or be loved, it is so sad, because the human heart is always so unpredictable, and the desire is always something that can only be passed on by her. Nothing can go deep into her heart. Just like a decadent and gloomy flower, it has a desperate posture but looks up with its true face and smiles at all cruelty and humiliation. Dark green without tears. Such a flower that blooms in the dark forever, who doesn't believe in tears, is doomed to be lonely all his life. Often in a crowded sea of people, I feel that the extensions, sounds and smells of many strangers are chaotic and noisy. And calm down to see, listen, and find it difficult to fill in. There is love and being loved, and there is a struggle in the emotional whirlpool. With love and being loved, the emotional world will be revised. Love and being loved took the wrong train, love and being loved are indissoluble, love and being loved are limited, and love and being loved are helpless ... The vast land is different for a person who is disappointed with the world and has no love in his heart. Walking on the road forever, all love will suddenly find nothing here. Empty and silent. There are many people who have no souls. Ordinary life has no purpose, I don't know why I want to live, and I never think about it.