What I’m afraid of is not death, but losing feeling for the world.

Not long ago, we sent out a call for ideas to see what young people have in their refrigerators. As a result, I received an unexpected answer - a quilt had been placed in a young boy's refrigerator for a long time. He was diagnosed with acute leukemia two years ago and survived, but he still needs to be careful due to allergies and other sequelae.

Twenties and thirties are the brightest years of life, days when the future looms in front of us and hope comes one after another. However, some people also encounter huge separations in life and death. How do they face these losses and impermanence? So there is a new collection: What kind of experiences do young people who have experienced life and death in their twenties have? We want to know what they went through and how that experience shaped them.

We received nearly 400 responses. Some people wrote thousands of words, some talked about these secrets for the first time, some asked to remain anonymous, and some said they used this to Opportunity to review my life for the first time.

In these letters, some people encountered accidents, such as car accidents, drownings, earthquakes and kidnappings; some encountered serious illnesses; some said goodbye to their lovers and relatives; some had thought about saying goodbye to the world; and some A medical student told what he saw in the emergency room.

There is something very common among these hundreds of slices of life - people often don’t spend too much time describing the physical pain of life and death. The first thing that pops into their minds is the person they care about. , relatives or lovers. These people are the support of their lives, sugar and comfort, making people feel that the world is not so desolate.

You will also find that few people can escape from the moment of life and death unscathed. People always lose something: either an intimate relationship, a normal life, a great future, the loss of some opportunities and choices; or other small but equally important things, such as playing a piano piece, using your eyes The possibility of reading a book and sitting in a classroom as normal as your classmates.

What people strive for first and foremost is survival. What is equally important as survival is to love and be loved.

Wenlin Pinecone

Editor Huaiyang

01

Some moments of life and death are due to accidents

"My first reaction was to push the dog out of the car, and my partner's first reaction was to unbuckle my seat belt."

"I have a firm grasp of the reaction between sodium and copper sulfate solution Knowledge points, and became a beautiful woman who has experienced life and death. ”

@彦子香hxx3104

I climbed Mount Fuji the year before last, and I was in the final stage of climbing to the top. The original rock that has not been developed by humans requires climbing with bare hands. The weather changed suddenly and there was a typhoon. It was like a super powerful hair dryer, blowing wildly on my chest. Several times my feet were blown off the ground, leaving only my hands holding on to the stone. Everything in front of you, including the sky, turned milky white, and the visibility was less than 3 meters. If you were not careful, you would slip and fall into the cliff, leaving you in a dilemma.

After about 10 minutes, I climbed to the top at an extremely slow speed and quickly descended the mountain wall from another dirt road with a lower wind speed. My whole body was completely blown/drenched. . When I got back, I learned from the store staff that an emergency mountain closure had been announced before I reached the top, and I was the last one to go down.

@双木

In November last year, while traveling by car, I deviated from the route, broke 8 road pillars, rolled over into a ditch, and the entire front car was deformed. When the car stopped, the person was hanging upside down on the seat and the car was smoking. My first reaction at that time was to push the dog out of the car. My partner’s first reaction was to unbuckle my seat belt and push me out of the car. My thoughts at that time: I would never drive tiredly, I loved my partner even more, and I decided to spend the rest of my life with him.

@ Tan Guofeng

A few days before the wedding, on the way to my daughter-in-law’s house for an engagement, the car skidded and rolled over on the snowy road just ten minutes away from her home. . At that time, my parents, uncle, my wife and I were sitting in the car. From my mind going blank to feeling frightened afterwards, to the constant chills on my back, this accident affected my entire mentality. Fortunately, only my parents and I suffered minor head injuries at the time.

Later, after hard work, I held the wedding wearing a wig.

@ anonymous

On National Day in 2015, I had just graduated from college and I was working in my hometown. He was renting a house outside the school to prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination for World War II. I went to see him. On the last day of the holiday, he He was taking me to the train station. It was raining that day and the road was slippery. A car was driving very fast and I was knocked away while crossing the road. He said he turned around and saw me lying on the ground, and his heart stopped for a moment. At the end of February 2020, we broke up. So after experiencing life and death, it does not necessarily mean undying love.

@ pretty girl who almost lost the window to the soul

In the chemistry experiment class of the freshman year of high school, because of my impatience and my poor grasp of chemistry knowledge, I directly threw the sodium block into the copper sulfate solution, before my head left the top of the beaker, the strong reaction of sodium splashed directly towards my eyes. Before doing the experiment that day, I was still struggling with whether to wear the first pair of glasses in my life, and finally wore them. ...The splashed sodium hit the lenses and forehead. The forehead was burned, but the eyes were still intact.

You should listen carefully in chemistry class without getting sleepy. You really suffer from knowledge loss. I firmly grasped the knowledge of the reaction between sodium and copper sulfate solution, and became a beautiful woman who has experienced life and death.

@NIU Yan

It was when I was in junior high school and I went to live with my classmate’s grandma. Early on Sunday morning, she asked me to take a bath. As a result, there were too many people in the bathhouse and the water was The steam filled the air, and I felt dizzy as soon as I entered. I squatted beside the bench and couldn't get up. I heard someone calling me, the voice became increasingly blurry, and then I lay naked on the ground. Just when I was about to lose consciousness, I heard many naked people trying to lift me to the chair next to me. They were busy for a long time, but they didn't lift me. I weighed about 160 pounds at the time. Later, I recovered and climbed onto a chair to lie down for a while. My classmate bought an ice cream cone and I finished it.

You still need to lose weight, otherwise others won’t be able to lift it.

@我是Ah mei

It should be an accident. Kidnapped for sixteen hours by home invaders demanding ransom. They succeeded, took the money and let me go. Fortunately for me, the previous victim was killed.

Now I can no longer recall everything that happened in those 16 hours. In the ten years since this incident, my relatives have left me one after another, falling one by one in front of me. I have no idea about aging, disease, and death. , death, I am sometimes numb and indifferent and sometimes manic and hypersensitive. I have changed from a cheerful and lively young man to a middle-aged man with a split personality and borderline personality.

@木

On September 27, I found out that I had been defrauded of 220,000 yuan by telecommunications. I went to the cinema to watch "The Summer of Kikujiro" the night before. I was the only one in the cinema, and I was in a bad mood. It was very peaceful, because I just took a bath and felt very comfortable. The next day I was told by my friends that I had been scammed. 170,000 of the defrauded money was borrowed.

I wanted to change the status quo so much that I couldn’t see the trap under my feet and fell into the quagmire. As for why you are so eager, that is another story of one hundred thousand fragments of life. I admit that I am a big gambler, and I won’t look back until I fall to my death once. Wake up and the world has changed. When I went to call the police, the police comrade said to me: You have been deceived into something that is not in line with your academic qualifications. This sentence always echoes in my mind.

In the group of victims, I watched them talk individually, as if I were standing in a crowd of people passing back and forth. Two years of classes were in vain. Can't sleep, huge mental pressure.

This state has been light and heavy until now.

@ takeaway rider

As a takeaway rider, the closest moment to death is when speeding on the road. No one knows which destination or accident will come first. At noon on a heavy rainy day, the system load reached its limit. Each rider was assigned a lot of orders, and my lunch box was already full. At an intersection without traffic lights, I turned on the turn signal and was about to turn left. Suddenly a truck came from the right, and a car in front was turning left. I didn't dare to brake, so I subconsciously turned the accelerator to the bottom. In an instant, I fell When they got out, the car and the truck collided. I'm glad there were no brakes, otherwise I would have been squeezed in the middle.

Without bothering to check the injury, I quickly raised the car and looked at the takeout in the lunch box. I delivered the takeout that was not spilled to the customer and compensated the customer for the spilled takeout. By the time everything was done, my trouser legs were soaked with blood. There was a long wound, which was caused by being crushed by the pedals, and I couldn't walk steadily. But life still has to go on. Now I am still working as a food delivery rider, but the road is much slower and I am really scared.

@世明喜

512 earthquake. At the moment of the earthquake, what I was thinking about was living, and there were still many meaningful things I wanted to do. But later, this incident completely changed the trajectory of my life. Although my family was happy in all aspects, I calmed down and saw through the emptiness of the world. Now I have become a monk. He is 30 years old and has been a monk for 5 years.

@Sveta

When I was 9 years old, I went to the park to play with my father and sister. When I was crossing a narrow bridge, I stepped on the air and sank into the water. As it slowly sank, a person jumped in. In panic, I thought my sister had fallen off the narrow bridge, so I pinched her hard and let her go up. I didn't know how many times I pinched her. After a while of fluttering, I finally felt that it was my father. He lifted me up hard. After I came ashore and sobered up, I felt a little moved. In the face of life and death, what my father and I thought of was our family - I ignored myself and went to lift my sister who I thought was falling. When I saw me falling, I jumped in to save my father without saying a word.

Picture source Visual China

02

There are also people’s moments of life and death that come from sudden diseases

"I have eaten The last meal my mother cooked was a bowl of tomato pasta in 2016. "The strongest feeling is that I am willing to sacrifice everything for health."

@京Miss

At the beginning of September this year, I had a physical examination at my work unit. I also did a colon ultrasound. After the examination, I was left by the doctor. Then I had six colonoscopies and various CT and MR examinations in a month. , was diagnosed with rectal cancer and was hospitalized for surgery in October. My father also died of rectal cancer. The day I was hospitalized was my father’s first anniversary. I had the same disease. After the operation, I lay in the hospital in pain that made me want to faint. I felt like I was sharing my father’s experience. I have thought a lot about how I should spend my life and how I should arrange it if I can only live a little time, but I can’t actually figure it out. The only thing I am sure to do is to live well every day from now on and continue radiotherapy and chemotherapy next week.

@大猫

Brain tumor. When I was in my twenties, I underwent a 10-hour craniotomy for an acoustic neuroma, a tumor measuring 5.5cm, 6cm and 7cm. Because of the location and size of the tumor, there are still many sequelae after surgery. For example, complete facial paralysis on one side of the face, loss of hearing on one side, or irreversible damage to the corneal sensory nerve of one eye. Later, I underwent many repair and improvement surgeries and took many detours. Three and a half years later, I underwent late-stage facial paralysis repair surgery in Shanghai and regained my smile. I deeply realize that the most beautiful word in life is "lost and found".

In the first few years after the operation, my mentality also changed bit by bit, from despair and depression to slowly accepting it, and learning to live in harmony with these sequelae.

I can't hear in my right ear and my left ear. If I don't close my eyes tightly, I'm afraid water will get in and cause inflammation, so I put on swimming goggles when washing my hair. Accepting one's own unbearability is another kind of reconciliation with oneself.

@小陈

When I was 17 years old, I got leukemia. I wanted to finish chemotherapy and have a bone marrow transplant as soon as possible, so that I could go back to school when I was almost recovered. But then I couldn't go back to high school because the school said I would drop out automatically after taking two years off. I could only find a vocational high school to study, and then went to a junior college. I originally wanted to go to a key university, but all this was impossible. It was even more painful when I saw that all my high school classmates had bright futures. But looking back, I realized that many of my fellow patients were unable to defeat the disease, but I had escaped and survived. life.

@木木

In my senior year of high school, there were still about twenty days before I would be the second model, and I watched my mother go through life and death moments. A brain tumor that had been growing quietly for several years suddenly hemorrhaged one night, compressing the nerves and causing half of the mother's body to twitch. The doctor said the surgery was risky and he was not sure it would be successful. The next morning I sent a WeChat message to my class teacher, saying that I would not take the exam this year and that no matter what my mother was like, I would stay with her. At that time I felt like I had lost the whole world. The line between life and death has been overcome, but there are also sequelae.

What saddens me the most is that I can say right now that the last meal I ever had in my life was a bowl of tomato pasta in 2016.

@了

The child’s father has liver cancer. It was winter, and the New Year was about to come. The hospital was in the center of a busy street, and it was very lively with people coming and going. It was normal to hold his hand in the hospital, it was warm, and to talk to him. In addition to not being able to eat much, I always complained that lying down was uncomfortable and uncomfortable. I always don't believe it, I feel very far away.

The ambulance took him home. He kept complaining that he was cold, and covering himself with quilts and heaters were of no use. Later, when I got up to go to the toilet, my stool suddenly became bloody and I couldn't stand up. At 6:15 in the morning, I asked him to answer me. His mother said that the corners of his mouth were moving and he shed tears at the end. Later, he was placed on an ice bed for several days. I saw from a distance that his face was black from the cold. Later, I put his bones in the box... and experienced it myself, but it was so unreal.

What am I thinking? I'm afraid he'll be in pain. My uncle died of liver cancer and was so painful that he hit the bed. I'm afraid he will be like this too. Later, he didn't feel so much pain. He just said it was uncomfortable. He felt uncomfortable lying down at night. After he left, there was a huge void that could not be filled. You can't share the joy of a child's growth with anyone, it's the bones of both of us. My heart was closed by a big iron door. My name is engraved on his tombstone, and I am a person with a tombstone.

@小新

He is not close to life and death, but this disease has been tormenting him.

In 2013, I was diagnosed with psoriasis. It started on my back and spread to my whole body, including my head and arms. My boyfriend broke up with me, saying that this disease affects the next generation. Then my beloved grandma passed away. My mood is getting worse and worse. Every night when I go to bed, I see red spots on my body and white skin on my bed. I dare not wear short sleeves in summer and must wear long pants. Don't dare to go to the beach. In the past seven years, I have cried countless times, prepared Chinese medicine, home remedies, Western medicine, applied ointments, and experienced it all when it was so severe that I was hospitalized. What is the strongest feeling is to adjust your state, be in a good mood, and only in good health can you make money and be independent.

@小把

One night I stayed up late and went to the bathroom. I thought I was having diarrhea, but when I looked back I saw the toilet was full of blood. He ran to his parents' room and fainted, and was taken to the hospital by emergency call 120. At that time, the results of the postgraduate entrance examination had not yet come down, but for a moment I felt that it didn't matter whether I passed the exam or not. Then I wanted to break up with my boyfriend without delaying him. I was also thinking about whether commercial insurance could provide money to relieve the pressure on my parents. The strongest feeling is that I am willing to sacrifice everything for health.

After the examination, it was found to be internal hemorrhoids, which was a false alarm.

@灵雁

I am engaged in the architectural design industry. In the second year after graduation, my employer arranged a project, a design of nearly 500,000 square meters. It was only me and one other person. Two colleagues worked together, and for more than two months, they went to work at 9 a.m. every day and left work after 3 p.m. at night. Finally, in the early morning of the last day before the bid was handed over, I felt my heartbeat was beating fast. I told my boss that my heart was not feeling well and I needed to go home and rest. Lying in the rental house, my heartbeat was still pounding. That night, I didn't dare to sleep because I was afraid that if something happened to me, no one would know.

I rested at home for two days. After returning to work, I was criticized by my boss, saying that I was afraid of hardship and tiredness at such a young age. I made no excuses. After that, I would have chest pains at 11 or 12pm. I was afraid of working all night, and I no longer believed in any chicken soup for the soul.

"Get Out!" tells the story of cancer patients fighting the disease. Cancer King" Picture source network

03

There are also some people who keep thinking about life and death because of depression

"What I am afraid of is not death, but death. I have no feeling for this world."

"Some people make the conclusion that those who commit suicide because they cannot graduate are too weak. People who have not experienced it cannot understand."

@米小米

Before the National Day, I woke up in the middle of the night and had an acute panic attack. It was difficult to breathe and I entered a state of near-death. Lying on the 120, breathing oxygen and listening to the beeping of the monitor, my father held my hand and imitated my mother in massaging my acupuncture points. In fact, I felt that his pressure and position were not quite right. I am very sad, how can I let my father, who is getting older, accompany me when I am young on the 120. He didn't wear reading glasses and didn't even know how to use the self-service payment machine.

@杨泽红

After experiencing an imbalance between mental illness and life, he could not bear the pain and took medicine. After taking the medicine, he felt relieved and completely free. What were you thinking? Don't give the landlord any trouble.

When I woke up, I was lying in the emergency room of the hospital. After I was discharged from the hospital, I continued to go to work without any problems. In the middle, I stayed in a mental sanatorium for a short period of time and committed self-harm for the second time. Then I quit my job at a listed company and became a flexible employee. I took out the goods from the tea shop at home and asked people I knew to buy them. When my body recovered to the point where I felt I could go out, I worked as a waiter in a restaurant 5 minutes away from home, 3 days a week, and my face and heart were completely wiped out. Two months later, I switched to a job as a clerk in a Hong Kong-owned bakery, working 20 hours a week. My colleagues were simple and friendly, and I felt safe.

This writing call is probably the only time I really stop and look at my past experiences. Feel sorry for your past self and for hurting your partner's heart. Now I am working part-time while exploring what I am suitable for, which is not too contrary to my nature, has a sense of value and can make money. What I'm afraid of is not death, but losing any feeling for this world.

@遁

As I was about to graduate from my Ph.D., the day before my graduation thesis was to be submitted for review, my supervisor refused to submit my thesis for review, and I was not allowed to graduate no matter what. At that time, I had already found a good job and was waiting for graduation to join the internship. However, because I was postponed by my mentor, my job was gone. The tutor said that my graduation thesis was not innovative, valuable and meaningless, but I completed both the proposal and the mid-term defense. The design of my graduation thesis was not rejected, but was completely overturned at the last moment. All the hard work and patience turned into a joke.

I cannot stand the judgment that some people make of those who commit suicide because they cannot graduate as having "too little mental endurance." People who haven't experienced it can't understand it.

@Anonymous

When I was studying for my Ph.D., I once jumped into the Yangtze River, but I climbed up again without sinking. Death didn't seem to be that easy. I tried sinking several times but couldn't sink, and then I gave up.

Then the epidemic broke out. I was quarantined for more than three months and lived alone. I had a lot of time to think about life every day, and I suddenly realized what kind of person I was. I gave up my PhD and went to a new city.

Japanese drama "The Husband Has Depression" stills from the Internet

04

The life and death choices of these people are related to gender

" What supported me was my 2-and-a-half-year-old child. I just wanted to see him for one more minute."

"I went from being a little girl looking forward to a better life to becoming a non-marriage activist. ”

@张晔

I suffered a massive haemorrhage during childbirth, lost a quarter of my blood, and almost had my uterus removed. I saw a TV show where a dying person wanted to sleep. It turned out to be true. I almost fell asleep at that time. The doctor kept calling me and talking to me. I thought at that time that the child's face was so soft and he was going to be dead before I even hugged him. Later, my health was still very poor, I was always sick, and I had three surgeries in five years, but I was still alive and well.

@CheliziMiss

On February 18, 2019, because the cough had not improved for 2 months, and the chest pain and arm pain were unbearable, a X-ray was taken and a large mass was visible in the chest. I was admitted to the respiratory department, and various examinations and treatments were of no help at all. It was at this time that I found out that I was pregnant.

After the child was aborted, he was transferred to the thoracic surgery department, where lung cancer was initially diagnosed. The huge mass and 2 lobes of the lung were removed through thoracotomy. Immunohistochemistry revealed that it was Hodgkin lymphoma. Then I went to the cancer hospital. The doctor said that cutting out the lung lobes and opening the chest was in vain. The most effective method for Hodgkin lymphoma was chemotherapy, and then I received chemotherapy and radiotherapy. On December 9, 2019, I finished radiotherapy and was reborn.

The strongest feeling is not the pain, but the desire to live. The moderate depression that I had once seemed to be cured instantly. The one who supported me came here was my 2 and a half year old child. I just wanted to see him for one more minute.

@明星

On November 8, an ectopic pregnancy occurred suddenly. I was in class when I suddenly had severe stomach pain. I ran to the toilet and started sweating profusely. I went into shock and collapsed when I walked out of the toilet. My colleagues took an ambulance to the hospital, where they went directly to the ICU and were immediately pushed to the operating room. My husband signed a critical illness notice.

Due to the nature of our work, it took more than half a year for my husband and I to get the certificate and we didn’t even have time to hold the wedding. This is my biggest regret. In the hospital, my husband cried all the way while watching my B-ultrasound results. It made me feel bad to see him cry, and I still comforted him. While I was sober, I told my husband that I loved him very much. I regained my energy and got my mobile phone. After reading the words my husband sent me during the rescue, I felt that I had married the wrong person. As a newlywed couple, this encounter between two people in life and death also gave me a deeper understanding of what it means to be a couple. A life and death is a better witness to love and the rest of life than a wedding. But I still want to hold a wedding, and I want to tell you the story of my critical illness notice.

@小凯

When I was in the first or second grade of elementary school, I was raped by a distant relative, and I didn’t dare to tell my parents. When I was in the third year of junior high school, I got my period for the first time in my life. It didn't stop for three consecutive months, so I had to ask my dad to take me to the hospital. Some neighbors and relatives heard about this and said that I was doing something outside and that I was no longer a girl. . I thought that I might not be able to wash it off in my lifetime, so I might as well die. I took the only two dollars in my pocket to buy rat poison, but I walked around the market for a long time and couldn't find it.

Then one day suddenly I thought, this is not my fault in the first place, why should I die for this matter? What's more, my parents are both fine, so I should live well. Then I told my mother about being bullied, but because I lived in a rural area, awareness was not high and my mother was older, so I didn’t say anything and just stopped having contact with those relatives.

After that, I wanted to study hard and be a literate person to protect myself.

Studying hard really helps. I left that small village and went to high school in a big city. I went to university in a larger and more developed city and studied medicine. Now I am a doctor and I am living a pretty good life. The only thing is that I don’t believe in men and can’t get out of that shadow. From a little girl looking forward to a better life, she became a non-marriage advocate.

"Elle" tells the story of the heroine who decides to find the man who raped her after being raped. Picture source network

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Because they have seen life and death, they Choose to save the lives of others

"Recognize regrets in heartbreak, life is long and short."

"I was a little happy at the moment of diagnosis, because I discovered it myself It’s a feeling of being able to use the knowledge I have learned to save myself.”

@ Kerik

I was in the fifth grade of elementary school because I always felt very tired for several months in a row. , I went to the hospital for a check-up, and the doctor gave me glucose to replenish energy, and then I fell into a coma. At that time, I did not know the cause of the rescue, and I developed various symptoms of renal failure and cerebral edema. I kept on glucose, and it was not until the third day that I discovered that it was Diabetes, immediate rescue with insulin and hemodialysis.

During the days in the hospital bed, I felt as if I was dreaming, as if everyone I knew appeared in my dream. You can't see it, but you can hear it, and you can feel the pain when the needle is inserted. In dreams, I can rationalize the information collected through hearing and touch by combining it with my previous real-life imagination. Since then, I have wondered what consciousness is.

Now I am a doctoral student in neurobiology. Although I have long known that this major is not easy to find a job, I almost only want to study this major and want to know the biological basis of consciousness.

@ Mu Mu avocado

A malignant tumor in 2015 caused me to undergo two surgeries and twelve courses of chemotherapy. It can be said that I was suffering in hell, almost. Empty me. Even now, thinking about that chemotherapy room and that hospital makes me shiver with fear. Fortunately, everything is over, so good.

I am a medical student before I got sick, and I am now on the road to becoming a doctor. Speaking of changes, I am now more concerned about the health of people around me. Life is too short, there are too few things to grasp. After meeting so many patients in the hospital, I deeply felt that the disease is ferocious and ruthless. For patients, a little warmth in the world is all the light. I want to be a doctor, even if I can only give patients a little light, that will be enough.

@ibisang

I am an intern in the rescue room. I met a girl who was the same age as me, 21 years old, who died mysteriously. When she was delivered, her heart rate had stopped. She had no underlying diseases in the past. She went out to play during the holiday two days ago. She gave up resuscitation and corpse preparation. The teachers went out. I I took a piece of gauze and wiped the stains on her face. I wiped her face as if I was wiping my own face. Suddenly my eyes became sore and I wanted to tell her, thank you for your hard work.

There is also the grandfather who was already in death when he was sent to the hospital. He had intestinal infarction. There was obviously hope for treatment in his hometown, but his family insisted on coming to a tertiary hospital in Beijing. When he was sent to the hospital, it was irreversible. Grandpa’s face The boss had a kind smile.

There is also a grandma who is about to die from heart failure. I asked if she knew what her condition was. She said that she told her children that she would not be cured, but they disagreed and said that they would be cured no matter what. I realized that my grandma persisted in the painful days in the emergency room for her family, and my family had to treat her illness even though they were selling everything for her. It is mutual fulfillment and love.

When I came out of the rescue room, I found that people were still fighting over all kinds of unimportant things. People who had seen life and death, doctors and nurses seemed to have a kind of simplicity. Simplicity and compassion without pretense. When a grandpa left, he clamored to put some tape on, otherwise he would have to come home again. A nurse put a new roll of tape on Grandpa's hand and said, "Take it home, Grandpa."

@Demian

I am a medical student. In October 2019, at the beginning of my junior year, at the age of 20, I was diagnosed with malignant melanoma. This was the moment closest to my death.

Maybe it’s a little strange. I was a little happy when I was diagnosed, because I discovered it myself. Before the diagnosis, I suspected malignant melanoma. This is a way to use the knowledge I learned. The feeling of saving yourself. I thought about a Chinese language question I had done in high school, asking what slogan would be most suitable to hang in a hospital. One option was "Life or death depends on fate, wealth depends on heaven." This sentence was the most comforting to me at that stage. "Recognize regrets in heartbreak, life is both long and short." My understanding and belief in medicine supported my entire treatment.

Apart from regular immunotherapy, my life has not changed at all, but my mentality has changed a lot. During my internship, I met all kinds of cancer patients and their families, which gave me an extra ** *Sentiment, I truly understand the suspicion and suspicion of patients when they don't know their condition, and the panic and fear when they learn about their condition. When facing them, I always have a kind of compassion, sometimes healing, often helping, and always comforting.

In "The Life of a Smart Doctor", the heroine, who is a doctor, rescues a patient, and the patient's daughter is inspired to become a doctor. Picture source network