Confessions of Wang Tingjun

After the "double regulations", I can't sleep all night.

I am the son of a farmer, and my parents are illiterate. When I was three, my father died of liver cancer. Thanks to the hardships of my mother, the support of my relatives and the relief of the party and the government, I grew up and finished my studies. I am the first official in our family and the first person to get a master's degree. My family, relatives, classmates and friends are all proud of me.

In the past 30 years, I have worked day and night like an ox, with no holidays and few Sundays. Even the first day of every year is spent with the needy, the five-guarantee households and the families of martyrs. In my work, I am not afraid of difficulties, pioneering and innovating, and I am recognized as a workaholic and desperate Saburo in Zhumadian cadre circle, and I have won many honors.

When my career was in full swing and I was ready to move towards a higher goal in life, on June 4, 2008, I was "double-regulated" by the Henan Provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection. I couldn't sleep at night during my "double detention", and the huge realistic contrast and psychological contrast from "guests at the table" to "prisoners" was really unacceptable.

"I won't say anything at any time" is unreliable

As the "number one" in the county, I was able to resist all kinds of temptations at first, but after a long time, I couldn't stop the waves of sugar-coated shells, and my world outlook, outlook on life and values gradually changed.

On holidays, or when cadres are promoted and appointed, I go from refusing to accept other people's money to accepting it slowly, from accepting it slowly to accepting it smoothly, from being afraid to worrying, from worrying to feeling at ease.

At first, when people offered me money, I refused. After the briber touched the nail, he changed his strategy and asked my relatives, classmates and friends to intercede. I couldn't refuse in person. First of all, I asked someone to put the money away and said that I would return it to him when I had time. But after a long time, I felt no problem and didn't return it to others. This is called deferred collection. Later, people knew that I didn't usually accept gifts, so they gave me a gift during the Spring Festival. In order to give gifts, these people put money in tea boxes, clothes bags and fruit boxes. I finally failed to resist the temptation of money and turned the power given by the party and the people into a tool for personal gain.

On June 24, 2008, 10, when a pair of cold handcuffs handcuffed my hands, I woke up from a dream and realized that the promise that I would never tell anyone made by the person who sent me the money was unreliable. If I am not the secretary of the county party Committee, and I don't have the power to "kill and seize power" as they expect, will they still "reciprocate" with me? Why don't they give money to poor farmers and laid-off workers who need it badly?

Counting five accounts feels not worth the loss.

Calculate the enterprise accounts. When I was arrested in 2008, I was only 5 1 year old. If I follow the normal track, I may work in the main hall class before I retire. Greed not only ruined my bright future, but also ruined my life. I should be relaxed and free, with my children and grandchildren around my knees, but I am accompanied by high walls and power grids, tears and guilt in my twilight years.

Second, calculate the economic account. My monthly income adds up to nearly 5,000 yuan. My wife works in a bank, and her monthly income is also around 5,000 yuan. Our annual income exceeds 6,543,800 yuan, so we can reimburse medical expenses and have security after retirement. But I don't know if I am blessed or how to cherish pearls. After I went to prison, my nephew and niece paid me 100 yuan per person per month as agreed. Now I really have nothing but a broken heart.

Third, calculate the family account. Few people can come to see me after my accident. It can be seen that human feelings are warm and cold, and the world is cold. Only family members, whether you are rich or poor, proud or down and out, will never leave and will always follow. My uncle was very kind to me after I lost my father. After hearing the news that I was "double-regulated", he mistakenly gave up drinking pesticides. My 86-year-old mother-in-law cried all day in Lacrimosa. My daughter also lost a good job because I was a corrupt official. My youngest son was only 6 years old when I was arrested. He kept the news of my accident at home. I haven't seen his father for a long time. He saw someone who knew me and asked, "Have you seen my father?" Once, my wife and daughter came to visit the prison. He is doing his homework in the house. After hearing the news, he cried and chased him from the fourth floor to the gate. He will bite anyone who won't let him go and make their mother cry. Now think about it, I owe the most, I am most sorry for my relatives, and I am most worried about my two children, but what can I do for them?

Fourth, calculate the credit account. Because of greed, I ended up in ruin and became the talk and joke of people after dinner. Anyway, who let me be a criminal! However, what I left to my relatives was endless pain and disaster. From then on, my younger generation will be restricted in choosing careers, and the future of those who have entered politics will be greatly affected; My sons and daughters will bear a heavy ideological burden, the pain of losing their father's love and all kinds of sufferings brought about by their father's affairs.

The fifth is the health account. If the greatest pain in life is the loss of freedom, and the most difficult thing to restrain is to miss your loved ones, then the most unbearable thing is the torture of illness. When I was in office, I went to the hospital to see the best doctor and got the best service with the most advanced equipment, but now? How can prison take care of me? Can you compare with the outside?

Without freedom, nothing can be said.

The ancients once said: "With copper as a mirror, you can dress your clothes;" Taking history as a mirror, we can know the rise and fall; Take people as a mirror, you can know the gains and losses. "Everyone is a wise man, a wise man and a thoughtful man. Who doesn't know that seeing magnificent mountains and rivers is the joy of life? Who doesn't know that career prosperity is the goal of life? Who doesn't know family and beauty, and living a plain life is the treasure of life? However, all this must be guaranteed by "freedom". If there is no freedom, everything will be impossible.

Please learn from me and cherish the freedom you have now. If you offend freedom, please retreat from the cliff; If you violate freedom, please take courage and correct it immediately; If you ... because the door of freedom has always been open to those who are honest, upright and conscientious.