Why do I hate my family? Really annoying

Similar situation. My mother divorced and married another man, and they have been arguing. I know my mother's hard work, but I am surprised myself, because I hate her very much.

I never wanted to tell her about my normal life. I remember one time when I was eating, I was particularly excited to tell her some interesting things about my classmates at school, but she told me to mind other people's business and mind your own business. Sometimes when she listens to these things, she can't make serious jokes about me, but these jokes really hurt my heart.

She doesn't quite understand me. One night, I was chatting with my good friend. She seems to be talking about making friends. Another time, I wanted to buy a novel. She thought it would make you study hard, so she didn't buy it for me. To tell the truth, she promised to buy me a book before, but it didn't turn out like this.

My brother is over one year old, my sister is in preschool, I just graduated from primary school, and my brother is in high school, studying in other places. My sister came to my room all day and broke my stationery. I also scolded her for hitting her several times, but in the end it wasn't me who was scolded because she was "not sensible". Later, I especially liked to lock myself in my room, because it made me feel a little safe. However, my sister always cries when she can't get in. My mother also told me that if you dare to lock the door again, I will take your lock off tomorrow. I don't think you can lock it. But I kept it locked and didn't want to talk to them.

In fact, I can feel my brother's impatience Every time my brother comes back, he is lazier than me, and my mother never cares. Tonight, my brother and I quarreled with my mother. I'm usually not angry, but I'm in a particularly bad mood today. My mother has to talk about something that makes me uncomfortable. I told her not to say anything, but she still insisted on saying something about me in the middle. Do you think I can stand it? I had a fight with her. My brother and I quarreled, too. If we continue to scold like this, we will both scold, but she still only talks about me, pouting and doing nothing when she says she doesn't understand my parents. Oh, I don't know anything? Then who will babysit for you (my brother and sister are not my father)? Who helps you do this and that? Did I lose my mind at school? Oh, you can't see my efforts at school, because you are fucking blind! ! ! What's the matter with you? You always talk about how good we are now and how we compare with you when you were a child. I'm afraid it's not mental illness! ! ! You loved studying when you were young, but that was you. China is getting stronger and stronger, and science and technology are progressing. You were miserable when you were a child. What about now? It's different. I'm not the only one who hates studying. Why impose your ideas on others? As the saying goes, the stupid bird flies first, but the stupid bird flies first. The stupid bird is to raise the next generation and let the next generation work hard. Do you think it's easy to keep my excellent grades? What and what.

Besides, I tolerate you comparing me with others, but what do you mean by comparing me with my brother? Please make it clear. I just graduated from primary school this year, and my brother is in high school.