My ex-husband is unforgettable. I'm single again. How can I forget him?

I'm 30 years old, and I just ended a marriage of 10 last year. When many people were my age, they were either married for a few years or never married, but I got married when I was 10, and now my children are in primary school. In the days after my divorce, many people advised me to reconsider. After all, two people have been together for so long.

My ex-husband and I have known each other since childhood. He is five years older than me. The two elders are neighbors and set us up very early. But when I was young, I hardly thought about such a thing; Besides, he left home early to go to college in other cities, and he hasn't seen you for many years.

When he came back that summer vacation, my memory came back. This is the first time I have a strange feeling about him. After I clearly expressed my affection for him, my two mothers fully supported me and finally married him when I was 20 years old.

In fact, I knew very well at that time that his feelings for me had not reached the point of talking about marriage, but I chose to marry him with enthusiasm. I told myself confidently that one day, he would fall in love with me.

Before we got married, we made an appointment to have children in the future. After all, I was young and didn't think about my children at all, so I didn't take it to heart. After marriage, he goes to work in other places and usually comes back once a month. I was so innocent that I didn't know he had a chance to come back, but in order to escape me, I deliberately hid in the neighboring city.

Later, I started looking for a job and wanted to live with him. I became a colleague with him without even saying hello to his company. He showed no anger or surprise. After a year in the company, no one knew that we were husband and wife. Although, at the beginning, I proposed the hidden marriage, but I could see that he agreed, which made me a little unhappy. When I married him, I thought he would give me a sense of security. But the more I get along with him, the more I feel that he is out of my control.

Five years after marriage, I was pregnant. I resigned from the company and concentrated on having children at home. He has been very kind to me. After living for so many years, I have been hiding this crisis in the form of tortoise shell, comforting myself that I can really walk into his heart one day.

He once fell in love with his first girlfriend, almost to the point where they promised each other for life. But then his girlfriend gave him up for the future, which made him disheartened. It was at that time that he went home to escape and let me meet him who was the most frustrated at that time. And my comfort just touched his softest nerve, and I made the decision to marry me on impulse.

For so many years, I have been waiting for him to forget one day, but because of the long-term separation, our lives are completely different. His computer password is the birthday of his ex-girlfriend, even the password on his passbook. And I chose to turn a blind eye, but it doesn't mean that none of this has happened.

Now the child is going to primary school, and I divorced him last year. When he first brought it up, he hesitated for a moment, apologized to me and said that he had wronged me over the years. Let me think about it again. If given another chance, he will completely forget the past and start over with me.

I still refused and signed a divorce agreement with him. There are many things in this world that will become useless waste paper once a limited period has passed. I once gave him time, but he didn't reply to me within the effective time. Now, I want to start over. When the next love comes, maybe I will put it down and bless him.