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How tragic is the misfortune of a little pumpkin>~~ Sierra

Qin Yue, when I wrote this diary, I was on the train from Hankou to Qingdao. It was the sunshine at 7:20 in the morning, and the light that filtered through the thin green was broken by the cute delivery truck.

I don’t know if you still remember, but you said that you like to look at my face in the sun the most, because it looks hazy and beautiful, which can hide the freckles on my face.

Although I called you crazy at the time, I couldn't sleep after I got home, and I still cried in my sleep.

I am really sad.

You never lie to me, you are always so hurtful, just like when you call me Junior Sister Vajra and little girl, you are so justified. When you pinch my face, you do it anytime and anywhere. In fact, I am only one year younger than you, or only eight months if you count carefully. I'm just too lazy to argue with you, so I'll let you.

You said that your fifth girlfriend was scary after taking off her makeup, so we broke up with her.

I am actually very happy, but I still yell at you on the phone. I said, I am going to Qingdao to kill you. You are too watery and are causing disaster to the country and the people. Then I jumped on the train to Qingdao.

Thousands of rivers and mountains come to rush for my love.

If you say you will have nightmares, then you will have nightmares. If it is really a nightmare, you will always wake up when dawn comes.

It’s just Qin Yue, I seem to be at the intersection of the coastal highway and can’t find my way back.

What to do.

I can’t wake up.

A. I sit at the exit of the highway, waiting for the endless loneliness after dark

Little Pumpkin squats at the door of Ocean University, from noon when the sun is at its strongest to dusk, The fishy sea breeze blowing from an unknown corner. She sneezed and her phone said it was 7:30 pm.

After dark there is endless loneliness.

She sat in many different positions, causing the proprietress of the canteen to look at her strangely. Little Pumpkin embarrassedly rushed to buy a copy of the Peninsula Metropolis newspaper and read it under the streetlight. It was a completely unfamiliar city. It wasn't until he turned the newspaper for the fourth time that he noticed a coin rolling down in front of his eyes.

"Little beggar, you are so hungry, go buy a steamed bun to eat."

She swallowed her saliva at the sudden sound, and her eyes slowly changed from the blue canvas shoes to Climbing up, he was wearing his favorite dark blue jeans and a blue and white striped shirt. On his face was a smile that he had not tired of seeing for more than ten years. His eyes were floating like catkins, with a hint of mischief.

Little Pumpkin clenched his fists and almost shed tears. His fist hit him unceremoniously in the stomach: "You bastard, where are you going to have fun? Grandma, I'm starving to death." When the force came into contact with him, it tightened obviously. He held her fist with his backhand, held her shoulder carefully for a while and said, "Little girl, you have lost weight."

"That's true, my aunt is very lovesick."

"Really?" His eyes widened, "You are so funny."

"False!" Her eyes were even wider than his.

Little Pumpkin felt unspeakably sad. Every time she tells the truth, Qin Yue will most likely say innocently that you are so funny. It was such a slow and romantic boy that she had been secretly in love with for so many years. Since he was 12 years old, he had several girlfriends, and she broke his heart for many years.

Her heart was like being reborn from purgatory, fearing that it would never hurt again.

Qin Yue dragged Little Pumpkin’s luggage and took her to the suite she rented. It only takes five minutes to walk to the beach, which is very remote, sparsely populated and picturesque. Qin Yue jumped up and down on the phone and described to her that it was like living in an old castle in a fairy tale. However, the castle is still there, and the princess has already dragged her skirt and tail to look for the next prince.

Is Prince Qin Yue’s heart really not hurting anymore? She didn't dare ask.

Some girl must have liked exquisite lace and beautiful dolls, so she left so many things.

Little Pumpkin sat in a room without the smell of Qin Yue, looking at the wild roses entwined on the rusty railings at a loss, holding the thin and malnourished buds.

"Do you like it?" Qin Yue trembled as if offering a treasure.

"I'm not that bad-tempered." She sarcastically replied, and Qin Yue curled her lips indifferently. The little pumpkin scattered the luggage in various corners of the room. She ate the egg fried rice made by Qin Yue, which contained a lot of salt. When the sky darkened completely, the chirping of summer insects sounded under the window sill.

Looking at Qin Yue’s chattering mouth, she felt that he really hadn’t changed at all. Although they haven't seen each other for a year, he still likes to talk endlessly. Little Pumpkin curled up his lips and said: "Why is the person named Xia so annoying? It's endless. Can you tell Xia Chong to be quiet?"

"No, there is a person named Xia who is very quiet and not annoying at all."

"Who is it?"

"Xia Feng."

"Get lost." Little Pumpkin threw the pillow at hand, "Qin, don't try to fool me with anything that is windy or rainy."

B. If you say let go once , just like a cough, why should I care about the warmth I can’t get

At twelve o’clock in the morning, Little Pumpkin and Qin Yue sat on the tatami on the balcony, eating melon seeds and chatting in front of the moon. Qin Yue's mouth was so fast and deft that Little Pumpkin was defeated. She heard the sound of the keyhole turning and turned her head curiously wearing Qin Yue's big shirt.

She remembered clearly that a boy in cyan casual clothes was standing at the door changing shoes, wearing slightly reflective lenses under his dark bangs. Little Pumpkin couldn't look into his eyes, but she clearly felt a cool aura.

"Xia Feng, come and see Zhou Xiaonan, the bad guy little pumpkin that I often mention." Qin Yue introduced him like a treasure, "His name is Xia Feng, the wind of summer."

He was so stupid. Little Pumpkin couldn't help but roll his eyes, but secretly he was quietly sad. Qin Yue is really capable and will always find a way to make her suffer. He shouldn't have introduced her to a good-looking boy at all, let alone a good-looking boy named Xia Feng.

She was so angry that she almost fell in love with him.

"Hello, I often hear Qin Yue mention you." He walked over politely, with a friendly yet distant smile on his face, "You are much cuter in person than he described."

"If you think she's cute, just chase her." Qin Yue smiled playfully.

Little Pumpkin’s hands shaking when pinching melon seeds shook, and seeing his half-serious and half-false expression, a hint of sadness appeared on his expression that was sunk in the darkness. This is probably the most beautiful sadness in the world. The boy was stunned for a moment, then looked at Qin Yue's smug arrangements.

She is unhappy, with a sad pumpkin face.

Long later, Xia Feng still remembered the night when he first met her. The three of them sat on the tatami and chatted. Little Pumpkin always had a hurt and stubborn expression on his face. But Qin Yue couldn't see it. Whether it was slowness or naivety, he didn't know, and he didn't want to know.

Little Pumpkin is really not a very diligent girl, but Xia Feng, a Virgo boy, has a serious mysophobia and keeps the house spotlessly clean. The somewhat slovenly Qin Yue was rendered useless.

What do you like about him?

Love is such an inexplicable thing, it’s hard to explain.

When she was helping Qin Yue wash clothes, she saw Xia Feng's clothes thrown into the bamboo laundry box, so she put them in the washing machine and stirred them up. When Xia Feng came back from class, he saw Little Pumpkin standing on the bench to dry clothes. It was his clothes, which were messed up beyond recognition in the washing machine.

While she was humming and concentrating on drying the clothes, his heart suddenly softened, like clouds being captured by the sun, revealing a velvety and magnificent light.

C. Exchange a relationship for a friend, and cut a wound with every goodbye

Sometimes Little Pumpkin also suspects that his actions are meaningless. Qin Yue has neglected a lot of herself. Years, more than friends, less than lovers, appeared in his life in the most embarrassing manner.

You must pretend to smile innocently like this.

You must look at him like this, no matter if you are bickering or silent.

Then when he was away, one person would water and fertilize the malnourished roses, quietly change his lace tablecloth, and throw away the dolls one by one. Return the room to a rustic color and the smell of wood seems to be floating everywhere.

Xia Feng spends most of his time surfing the Internet with his laptop at home. He is Qin Yue’s senior, so his time is always more relaxed. His online store was doing very well, and there were girls who came from the south to look for him after seeing his photos, but no matter how passionate their confessions, they couldn't move Hu Zhishui.

Little Pumpkin thought he was a difficult person to talk to. Qin Yue asked him to take her to the beach, but he actually agreed easily.

No matter how fierce she is, she is still a thin-skinned girl. Sitting on the bus with someone she didn't know very well, she just looked out the window. The wind rippled her hair and blew it against his lips. Xia Feng immediately smelled the refreshing fragrance and the numbness that scratched her face. A bone-deep itch.

He didn’t know why he was willing to take the little pumpkin out to play.

Maybe it’s just that she doesn’t want to see her often absent-minded when staying at home. Her black grape-like eyes are always filled with loneliness, like a black hole that can never be filled.

"Have you ever heard of a legend about the sea?" Little Pumpkin suddenly asked.

"Tell me about it." He became interested.

"Legend has it that the seawater was originally tasteless. The mermaid princess couldn't get the love of the prince and turned into foam. All the fish in the sea cried for her death, so the seawater turned salty. "

"That's just a fairy tale, and the sea water was salty before the mermaid turned into foam."

"I don't care, I only believe in this." Little Pumpkin is very stubborn, there is something. Xia Feng couldn't understand it at all. She must force herself to believe something, otherwise a wound will be torn open in her heart and she will not be able to withstand any wasted time.

Xia Feng’s eyes turned gloomy again when he saw Little Pumpkin. Fortunately, the bus had already arrived at the intersection of the sparsely populated coastal highway. Little Pumpkin saw a child picking up shells in the distance, so he took Xia Feng's hand and ran to the beach. He screamed and startled the seabirds resting on the beach.

She picked up shells on the beach, caught crabs, and built bunkers.

Xia Fengdui’s bunker is beautiful and looks indestructible. When the tide comes, Little Pumpkin wants to protect the bunker, but is pulled by Xia Feng and runs towards the shore.

Just what seemed indestructible, the tide receded, leaving only a meaningless pile of sand. Xia Feng said, just pile it up again.

Little Pumpkin suddenly felt extremely sad. Just like her relationship with Qin Yue, it seemed indestructible. As long as the window paper was pierced, they would not even be friends. She knew it very well, and because she knew it too well, she stopped moving forward. Standing in a special place, humbly occupying his heart.

Perhaps, it has never been occupied.

She suddenly shouted to the sea: "I don't love you! I don't love you at all! I don't love you! I don't love you! Goodbye! Goodbye! Goodbye!" She didn't cry, she just deflated in grievance. Mouth. On the way back, she rested her head on Xia Feng's shoulder and fell into a deep sleep. With an unsuspecting face, he would frown occasionally, fearing that he might encounter something annoying in his dream.

He tilted his head, feeling her breath rising and falling by his ears, and closed his eyes in contentment.

This world is like this, a world where love happens all the time and is beyond your control.

D. Use a match to burn a mirage and take advantage of the heavy rain to escape

Probably because we get along more, we naturally become familiar with Xia Feng. There is also a tacit understanding at the dinner table, and you can know what the other person needs just by looking at each other. Qin Yue's jokes were even more unscrupulous, like an old couple. Little Pumpkin hit him on the head with a rice spoon and cursed so fiercely that the dog couldn't spit out ivory.

Xia Feng then laughed, like the summer sea breeze blowing against his face, and the little pumpkin couldn't help but smile with his lips pursed.

This was an almost shy smile. Qin Yue was stunned for a moment. This smile was for Xia Feng, and his mind immediately became confused. Although they are co-tenants, their understanding of Senior Xia Feng is very limited. She has beautiful broken hair all year round, wears glasses, and doesn't like to talk.

I have less than ten conversations with girls every day. The distance and coldness in his eyes are intimidating.

What else.

Also, he is actually an extremely kind and gentle person. For example, he will share the milk for breakfast with stray kittens. When he sees a child crossing the road, he can't help but walk behind and hold his shoulders. Or, when faced with using chance encounters to chat up girls over and over again, there won’t be any doubt.

He is simple-minded, but in fact, he is not like that kind of person at all.

If such a person is with Little Pumpkin, he will take care of her everywhere, and she will be very happy. It will make her temperament docile and cute, and her body that is so thin that makes people feel distressed will be rounded into a little bear.

His umbrella was firmly covering her head. Little Pumpkin carefully noticed that his left shoulder was wet. She pushed the umbrella a little embarrassedly, but he calmly covered it again. come over.

"I can go and deliver clothes to that bastard Qin Yue myself."

"The rain is too heavy."

"Well, it's too heavy "Little Pumpkin felt a little cold. The rain came so suddenly, and the two of them were trapped under the eaves in front of the stadium. Xia Feng simply pulled Little Pumpkin to her side, and half of her body felt his constant body temperature, feeling indescribable peace of mind and dependence.

"Little Pumpkin, you like Qin Yue very much, right?" Xia Feng's voice was diluted by the sound of rain into a short echo, but Little Pumpkin still heard it, she squinted her eyes and raised her head, pretending to be stupid and said: "Huh? The rain is too loud..." A shadow rushed towards me. Xia Feng's love suddenly enlarged. Little Pumpkin finally saw his eyes under the lenses, which were so gentle that they could shed water.

Breathing and breathing are intertwined, and the lips and tongue are the only source of heat in the cold wind.

This feels like an affair, although the feeling of an affair is not bad at all. The little pumpkin jumped away and wiped his mouth with his sleeves. His posture was like a bird that wanted to commit suicide, wiping its mouth with both wings vigorously and falling from heaven to hell. She frowned and said, "How dirty it is. I didn't brush my teeth this morning."

"Then let me know when you brush your teeth next time." Xia Feng squinted his eyes and smiled matter-of-factly. She remembered that she and Qin Yue had watched the fat man in the yard kissing his girlfriend in the woods. After kissing the fat man, he asked embarrassedly, "Did you eat garlic for lunch?" Little Pumpkin looked at Xia Feng in surprise and thought, this guy is so handsome!

E. I watched the sunset along the coast and hugged a pillow that made me sleepy.

After Little Pumpkin stayed in Qingdao for two weeks, he dragged his luggage directly to Beijing to report at a second-rate university. She waited at the train station for a long time before Qin Yue called and said, Junior Sister Pumpkin, I am hurrying up to pursue the second spring, see you later. In fact, this is not his second spring. His spring has already been full of flowers and willows.

She bit her lip and glared at the conductor so hard that the female conductor who was obsessed with Xia Feng was so ashamed that she lay down on the track. Xia Feng rubbed the top of her head and said, "Little Pumpkin, I will come to see you when I get a chance."

Little Pumpkin felt mixed feelings in her chest and wanted to cry, but was embarrassed to show it in front of her. She looked like an abandoned woman. So she patted him on the shoulder manly and said, "Second Senior Brother, we will meet again later." Although she didn't feel sad because she was used to Qin Yue's ruthlessness, she still couldn't help crying as soon as she got in the car. She cried all the way from Qingdao to Beijing, crying until her heart was broken and she died. When she got off the train, she discovered that there were thirty-six missed calls and twenty-four text messages on her mobile phone. It was like feeling the sea breeze blowing from Qingdao.

She squatted at the exit of Beijing West Railway Station, and many ticket sellers came to inquire, as if they couldn't wait to push her to a place where no one knew her.

When Little Pumpkin was held in a pair of firm arms, her heartbeat was about to stop for a moment. She turned around excitedly, only to see the panicked face of a strange boy saying, I'm sorry, I got the wrong person. The boy bowed and apologized, as if he was afraid that Little Pumpkin would hold him responsible. She squatted back on the ground like a smashed pumpkin. When she realized what she was doing and was about to take the bus, she realized that her wallet and collection were missing.

Little Pumpkin swore that if someone came to save her now, she would never leave her.

She squatted pitifully on the ground and almost knelt down to beg for money, but she saw a pair of white sneakers appearing in front of her eyes. She remembered that she was looking up her sneakers and jeans, and saw a pair of nervous eyes. He pulled her up and wiped away the tears on her face.

Xia Feng ordered her with some menacing and domineering force: "Don't cry, I won't let my girlfriend leave me crying."

Little Pumpkin was immediately shocked Come on, this guy is so handsome! Second Senior Brother, you came all the way for Junior Sister’s tears. Although not even a drop of these tears was given to you, you are truly a heroic young man. You are like a green cloud. You have inspired me, a tree that has lived for Qin Yue for thousands of years. Bodhi. If I continue to feel sad about Qin Yue's shamelessness, Zhou Xiaonan's name will be written backwards.

Xia Feng accompanied her through the admission procedures, and then went to book a hotel near the school. After dinner, he went back to the hotel to sleep. Little Pumpkin stayed in the dormitory for a long time, exchanged a few words with a group of gossip girls he had just met in the dormitory, and then lay at the window in a daze.

The weather is so nice and the stars are shining, so perfect for an affair. So she happily changed into beautiful clothes and went to find Xia Fengya Road, which was a very long road. She called Qin Yue while walking. Qin Yue asked her on the other end of the phone, little girl, why aren't you sleeping yet? You want your senior brother to tell you a bedtime story. The little pumpkin hummed proudly, I was busy losing my virginity. Qin Yue gossiped that such an unlucky child hadn't even been born yet.

Her mood immediately turned into disaster, like the bad sandstorm weather in Beijing. He knows her better than anyone else, and relying on this understanding, he is so unscrupulous. His search for her was like searching for something, as natural as eating, drinking, and breathing. It was so natural that she felt that she was a thousand-year-old bodhi tree planted for Qin Yue.

That night she and Xia Feng were lying on the hotel bed, and the cold moonlight fell on her face. This moon and the woman outside the window in Qingdao share the same moonlight, but things have changed. Zhou Xiaonan hugged the pillow tightly and listened to her second breath of spring, slowly becoming more at ease.

F. Can’t swim out of memories, but can’t learn to let go

Hearing that Qin Yue and his fifth girlfriend were living together, he moved out of the house he shared with Xia Feng. In the text message, he arrogantly said that I want to be an unmarried young man who enjoys the benefits of being married. He originally thought that Little Pumpkin would reply viciously with ten text messages scolding him for his shamelessness. I jumped up and down and waited for a long time, but only received four simple words: I wish you happiness.

This is more official than thanks to CCTV and MTV. Qin Yue wanted to call and ask if she had a fever, but he hung up several times. He thought that Junior Sister Pumpkin was in class or doing something else, but soon, he discovered that Junior Sister Pumpkin seemed to have disappeared in his life. Just like a fairy tale that Little Pumpkin likes, the mermaid princess couldn't get the love of the prince and turned into a bubble.

He heard that Little Pumpkin and Xia Feng were in love. He heard that Little Pumpkin’s title of Xia Feng was promoted from Second Senior Brother to Senior Brother. He also heard that Little Pumpkin had grown his hair.

These are all hearsay.

Later, when he called Zhou Xiaonan, his opening remarks were no longer the same as the girl yelling at Qin Yue, you are a shameless person, or senior brother, your aunt. Instead, a strange woman told him, I'm sorry, the number you dialed is unavailable, please check before dialing.

Later on, he had no news from Little Pumpkin for a long time, and he had no chance to report to her about his relationship with Second Spring and Third Spring. Only when he returned to Wuhan during the holidays and walked through the streets where he went to school with Little Pumpkin did he remember the countless times the girl said cynically, "When I become the mayor, I will tear down all the broken signs on the streets of Wuhan." . The girl proudly pointed to the Yangtze River and said, "Look, your admiration for me is just like the endless flow of the Yangtze River water."

He thought he had forgotten everything, but when he returned to their city, all his memories came back.

Little Pumpkin said that a man who has not experienced women is not a man. Little Pumpkin said that the man she likes should be mature and stable, not like a monkey jumping up and down. Little Pumpkin said, I hate this stove in Wuhan so much, I want to go to the seaside in the north.

Qin Yue squatted at the door of Xiao Pumpkin's community. He knew that Xiao Pumpkin was on vacation. The first thing she did every morning was to go downstairs and get the newspaper from the mailbox. He sat downstairs all night and smoked two full packs of cigarettes. When Little Pumpkin went downstairs, he saw cigarette butts everywhere and Qin Yue's smiling face. He said: "Little Pumpkin, why are you missing? Do you think you can run away and a monk can run away from the temple?"

Little Pumpkin was startled. Her eyes were in a daze for a long time before she spoke in a daze. Said: "Qin Yue, when did you come back?"

"Two weeks ago." He suddenly felt at a loss, "Why didn't you tell me that you changed your number?"

"Nothing." Little Pumpkin looked at his troubled face, "Xia Feng and I are back together. He came home with me, right here."

Qin Yue leaned in the corridor Occasionally, an old man and an old lady doing morning exercises passed by the corridor. He didn't know what to say. He wanted to smoke a cigarette, but he could only pick up a cigarette butt from the ground. Little Pumpkin looked at him steadily and said nothing, but Qin Yue suddenly laughed: "I know you and Xia Feng are together, but I want to ask a question."

"Don't worry, he treats me Very good." Little Pumpkin smiled impeccably, "Thank you, Second Brother, for your concern."

"That's not what I'm asking." Qin Yue stepped forward and looked at Little Pumpkin's calm face: "Why not. Me? I always thought that what we need is time."

Little Pumpkin really wanted to ask him, how much time do you need. Haven't I been by your side long enough? I rejected the pursuit of other boys. Let me tell you, junior sister and senior brother are a match made in heaven. I also tell you that I hate your girlfriends who are in ruins.

You can’t even see it.

You pretend not to see.

Some people say that the love that cannot be obtained is the best, the scenery that cannot be seen is the most beautiful, and the life that cannot be touched is the most anticipated. Qin Yue, I used to say that you were a beast for meddling with so many girls, but you didn't meddle with me alone. In my heart, I called you worse than a beast. But now I am very grateful to you for leaving this wonderful me to Xia Feng.

Little Pumpkin’s tears finally stopped falling. She said, thank you, second senior brother, for pushing me to Xia Feng.

G. Silence is my last tenderness, because I love you so much

Little Pumpkin feels that it is a bit early to get married at the age of twenty-four, as she is so indifferent, Suitors can line up from Wuhan to the United States. One in Wuhan and one in the United States. Her mother said she always seemed to be worrying about her, so getting married would save her the worry of keeping her here and there. So she accepted her fate and went to get a marriage certificate from Xia Feng, and moved her things from the boudoir where she had lived for more than twenty years to the home of the man who would accompany her throughout her life.

The piles under the bed were all high school books, classmate records, lyrics books, stickers, and CDs. She regarded these things as treasures, and there was a thick layer of dust on them.

Little Pumpkin sat on the ground, as if recalling all her youth bit by bit. The tin box containing the chocolates was filled with letters she had written with her pen pal. She was waiting to collect these. The unnecessary things are burned away, and the corner of the eye falls on the handwriting on the cover, as if the pen tip has lightly scratched the eyes.

She recognized Qin Yue's handwriting because no one could write it as ugly as him.

There were no letters from pen pals in this box. They were all letters written by Qin Yue to her. She did not remember that she and Qin Yue had passed letters, so she was so surprised that her fingers were trembling. Her mother came into the house to help her clean. When she saw the box held by Little Pumpkin, she explained that these were letters written to you by Qin Yue when you were in your senior year of high school. I was afraid that it would affect your study, so I put the letters away for you. .

She was in her third year of high school and Qin Yuegang was in college. The little pumpkin was as surprised as dozens of grams of atomic bombs exploding in his mind. She remembered that Qin Yue said he had written her a letter, but she waited for a long time and didn't get it. She thought it was a white lie, so she was sad for a long time.

Little Pumpkin, don’t waste your time on replying to letters. I just wrote to you. Don't think about anything, just study hard, I will be waiting for you here.

Little Pumpkin, I’m a little embarrassed to say that I have always liked you. I can’t wait for you to graduate. I miss you very much.

I almost cried when you sent me on the train that day, so I will definitely not send you on the train, I will definitely cry. Yes, I'm just so worthless. You want to say that you don't like worthless men again, no problem.

Little Pumpkin, I know we both need time. I won’t mention this matter again. Just know that I will wait for you.

Little pumpkin, do you really not care? I told you in my last letter that I actually don’t have a girlfriend. My roommate said that if a girl cares about you, she will be jealous, so I lied. I'm not mature enough and I can't become that kind of person. Forget it, I will give you time and never mention it again.

If time could go back to four years ago, even if it was only for one hour, she would be willing to spend her whole life in exchange. Little Pumpkin cried so hard that she remembered Qin Yue's eyes downstairs four years ago, why not me?

Like her, he once had trouble sleeping because of the love that was within reach but far away.

If Qin Yue were a little braver.

If only the little pumpkin was a little braver.

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