Feeling for thirteen years, embracing 218

I once read an article by a financial scholar, who analyzed China's economy with 13 years as a cycle, and said that 13 is a magic number. This made me inexplicably excited at that time, because it was just 13 years after I graduated from college, and I also vaguely felt the existence of this cycle.

career in Guangdong: a phoenix man is unwilling to be mediocre.

Yimu University spent four years in Guangdong, majoring in normal education, but this is purely because of free tuition. I really don't want to teach a Chinese book for decades. Therefore, after graduation in 23, I resolutely chose to go to work in an enterprise. My first job was as a copywriter in an advertising planning company, and I completed the painful transformation from literary thinking to market thinking in a short time. Then, I switched to a real estate development company to do marketing planning. At that time, the treatment was actually decent, and I soon paid off thousands of dollars owed by my senior year.

but there will always be some hardships waiting for you in life. At this time, my father suddenly fell ill and was seriously ill. The pillar of the family has fallen, the mother can only do housework, and the younger brother is still studying. I need to carry this family, just like my father at that time. At that time, I only left the most basic living expenses every month, and the rest was sent home for all kinds of expenses that could never be spent. It seems that overnight, I suddenly matured. I still remember several years later, my relatives said that I looked much younger than when I just graduated.

Because I won the recognition of several teachers in the university, my younger brothers and sisters in the same major knew my name several years after graduation. During this period, a woman found my mobile phone number from nowhere and deliberately approached me. Later, after knowing my actual situation, she deliberately alienated me. Some things like this make me start to doubt everything, and I am a little extreme in my heart. Perhaps this is the realm of seeing mountains instead of mountains.

During this period, many people touched and warmed my life. At that time, when my father wanted to have an operation to raise money, some friends immediately came to deliver the money to me. Colleagues who had only been in contact for two or three months did not hesitate to transfer the money to my account. Some fellow villagers who didn't have much contact at ordinary times immediately supported me. Some friends also lent me the money for the first time ... These became the eternal light in my later life journey, in the dark. Although these friends didn't have many contacts after I returned to Yiyang, I will always remember this feeling!

During this period, I stopped reading literature books completely and started to chew on marketing books and brand promotion books one by one. Four years of reading in college still laid a certain foundation for me, which made me have the ability to learn and understand quickly and became a qualified marketing planner. I still remember that the boss told me at that time: After you entered the company, our advertising was upgraded to a higher level.

I always overestimate myself when I am young. When I felt that I could be independent, I made up my mind again to jump ship from the real estate company within the system to the private real estate development company. Looking back, I had a certain level of marketing planning at that time, but my comprehensive control ability and the balance ability of complex relationships were obviously insufficient, because I didn't have the height to find reasons from myself at that time, so I always felt depressed and unhappy. So I jumped ship again.

The biggest gain of this job-hopping is to get in touch with the stock market. At that time, my boss was the secretary-general of a listed company in his twenties. Under his influence, I also began to learn about the stock market.

A friend once joked with me, saying that I have a "mad dog" spirit-I won't let go when I bite a thing. Although this statement sounds unpleasant, it is really the case. When I do what I like, I have always been extremely focused-I played table tennis like a mad dog for a year in my freshman year and won the school championship (the kind that I couldn't play before); Universities often play basketball alone for four hours, practicing right-handed layups in the first two hours and left-handed layups in the last two hours; When I am fascinated by reading humanities books, I am still pondering when I walk. Sometimes I forget to respond when I see others say hello. I remember that I have to blame a Jiangxi-born school sister for this, haha.

it's the same when you start to learn about the stock market. When I asked my boss about the P/B ratio and P/E ratio a week later, he said with some amazement: You have a gift for making stocks!

However, despite a lot of study, I still can't get a big promotion in my career. At this time, the economic situation is still embarrassing, and the mentality is extremely anxious and confused, but a girl walked into my life without hesitation and accompanied me through a few difficult years. At that time, she was impetuous and uneasy, but she always vented the pressure of life and the uneasiness of life to her willfully. She couldn't bear it and chose to leave. Looking back on the years, this may be the only person who failed me! Perhaps, she owed money in a previous life, and this time she came to pay back the debt? Otherwise, how can you explain it?

The gloomy years of "fleeing back" to Yiyang

In desperation, I fled back to Yiyang and worked in a unit within a certain system. At this time, it was 29. At first, I still had expectations for a new life. But two years later, I found that I couldn't see the hope ahead, but I could see the scene 2 or even 3 years later at a glance. In other words, I could make 2 or 3 years a day! At this time, with children, considering that if you quit your job at this time and find a job far away, you will not be able to accompany you often. What is more worrying is the irreparable deviation in the education of children. Therefore, I stayed in the system for another three years.

These three years are the loneliest time in my life. In The First Knife of the Wind and Cloud, A Fei faced loneliness by counting plum blossoms. He could clearly tell Li Xunhuan that today's plum blossoms have withered and blossomed again. I faced loneliness by playing chess in the four countries, from the small soldier to the head of the regiment, from the private soldier to the major, and finally, as long as I played the military flag, one or two people looked at me on the Internet. They lamented: This old boy used the fake commander alive! But the ringing of the years still wakes me up from time to time, and there is always a voice in my subconscious telling me: I can't sink, I can't give up, I can't waste my time! One day, it took me an hour to lower the military flag from the colonel and the major to the platoon leader and the private respectively. Then I changed my name: the best platoon leader is called steak for short. After I became a platoon leader, I played a few dishes, but there were still people watching. Finally, I simply deliberately became a soldier with negative scores. Batman can only play chess with Batman, which is completely boring, so naturally he doesn't play anymore.

Later, I came into contact with Buddhist books and listened to many lectures by eminent monks and great virtues, trying to find the logic and wisdom to gain inner peace from Buddhism. Think about what fate and life are. It also inspired a lot.

In recent years, I have also made two new friends. One of them was my boss who worked in the system at that time. For five years, I almost got off work in his car every day. Sometimes I asked myself, if I changed my identity, I might not be able to do it myself. We talked about everything, and he once comforted me like this: You seem to be driving home from Changsha, and now you are stuck in a traffic jam. You will drive very fast after this road. This sentence gave me great comfort and strength. Another close friend also drinks some wine, so I call him as soon as I want to drink, and then I go to his house to eat and talk. These friendships have given me a lot of light.

Except for life and death, everything is a small matter

During this gloomy period, two major events happened. The son was born and the father died.

When I became a father, I found that father and son are a kind of mutual achievement. There is indeed more pressure and responsibility for parenting, but at the same time there is also more surprise and significance. A new life related to yourself will always give you surprises that you have never had before, and it will also give you more meaning to move forward. As long as you don't make trouble, the time with children is wonderful.

another big event, my father left after all. My father's death made me have a deeper understanding of life. My father, who was carrying the mark of "rich peasants" descendants at that time, suffered too many hardships in life, but he was just an ordinary person in The six great divisions in the wheel of karma. Who can not suffer in the world of mortals? It's just a little too late to really understand my father!

if you really understand, what is there to fear and lose in life? Except for life and death, it is a small matter. And life and death are beyond everyone's control.

Have the courage to start again

In 214, I had the courage to leave my job again and entered a private enterprise to assist the chairman in his work. This year has passed 33 years old, and I have been out of touch with the enterprise for so many years (I even feel out of touch with the society in the system). Apart from the previous accumulation, I have given myself some confidence, and more is a determination to break the state of mixed eating and waiting for death.

just entering the company, the chairman of the board is planning to start two new projects, but it is still only in the idea. Here, I finally feel the vitality, courage, energy and action of private entrepreneurs at close range, and I have to admit that they are a group of outstanding and shining people in this era. They have experienced too many ups and downs, and have extremely strong psychological endurance and ability to control and integrate. The chairman likes to say that "things in the sky fall to the ground to solve". In his eyes, as long as there is a problem, there must be a solution. The two projects started from scratch and quickly. In line with the idea that I don't want to eat and die, I cherish this platform very much. I started the working state of "white plus black", and often encountered problems that were difficult to solve. I met with the chairman in the morning to discuss, invited a group of people to dinner at noon and consult countermeasures, invited another group of people to dinner in the afternoon for support, and invited people to tea at night to start solving specific difficulties. I am both a witness and a participant in solving one problem after another in the company's operation without stopping and thinking clearly. In just one year, it seems that several years have passed, and the gains are also the sum of previous years. At the same time, the indomitable and indomitable spirit of private entrepreneurs is also a baptism.

It can be said that it is overworked. In the second half of the year, the body's immunity is obviously reduced, and it is particularly easy to catch a cold. During this period, the chairman once said to me privately in the car: "I am a perfect partner with you." In fact, it is not a partnership, but rather a tacit trust between the boss and employees. But with this sentence, it's worth it to be tired again!

in 215, I rebuilt my confidence and started an independent portal-entrepreneurship. In the case of extremely limited funds on hand, I founded the first company in my life by looking for partners. After starting a business for two years, I suddenly found myself with a few white hairs on my temples.

by July 216, it was exactly 13 years since I graduated from university-a complete cycle was completed.

Meditate on 217 and embrace 218

Because the equity of the partners was not carefully set at the beginning, and I have been in a hurry for so many years, I was really anxious to get there from here and there, and I was so nervous that I was worried even during the relatively leisure time. I really wanted to calm down and think about something-what is the meaning of life? What is the value of running around and being tired? What is the root of one's life? Therefore, in 217, the company adopted the contract system and handed it over to the partners for specific operation.

217 is my year of reflection. For a whole month, I didn't contact with outsiders, and I repeatedly showed my life images from high school to the present in my mind, looking for the accident and inevitability. It turns out that accident is just a representation, and everything is inevitable.

I love to think like a casserole by nature, and constantly comb my cognitive system again in quiet days, and gradually I have a clear and clear feeling. Many doubts naturally disappeared.

I have always had the habit of reading books, watching financial Weibo and stock trading. When I am quiet, I have more time to read and think, and I also start to post a few Weibo articles on financial and stock market thinking every day.

There is another interesting thing during this period. I took the time to play chess and suddenly fell from a third-level player to a second-level master. Of course, I don't mean that the second-level master is so powerful, but my level has advanced by four levels compared with before, and without any professional training.

In addition to reading books, trading stocks, making money and playing chess in Weibo, I also write articles when I think and feel. I didn't expect a discussion article to attract many people's attention. Citizens, businessmen, cadres and entrepreneurs in the system, as well as elderly people who are over 8 years old, left me messages of encouragement, which deeply moved me. Another entrepreneur friend managed to find the number and contacted me twice to invite me to have a tea exchange. When we met for the first time, we had a wonderful exchange for several hours. I wrote an article with emotion, but I didn't expect to make so many new friends.

Then, Fa Weibo also kept getting surprises. First, he became an officially certified financial blogger, and later he was upgraded to Weibo from the media.

it's true-it's intentional to plant flowers, but unintentional to plant willow trees.

Of course, the most joyful thing is to gain the calmness and clarity in my heart and the confidence in the future in my bones. When I face the sea, a sentence immediately falls into my mind: under the water, accept everything; Above the water, walk calmly.

After reading the news that Mao Kankan, an entrepreneurial genius born in 198s, committed suicide on the Internet, I thought about life for a year and formed the article "A light in the soul is far more important than Excellence and success-I feel that entrepreneurial genius Mao Kankan committed suicide

". The article put forward my own view: it is possible to face life directly, as long as we have that light in our soul-accept the disability, have hope and love the world! There is light in the soul, and physical and mental health is the cornerstone of a happy life. This passage in this article can be said to be my overall understanding and understanding of life and years in the past 13 years-"As long as you are worthy of this suffering, time and years will definitely make you! Life is a Dojo, suffering is practice, overcoming suffering is progress, and years are the issuers of your practice level certificate. Growth is as slow as a tree, and you can't see every growth, but as long as you practice relentlessly, one day, you will meet your beautiful self and yourself who has grown into a towering tree. At this time, the harvest is not only better material conditions, but also a calm state of mind and the wisdom of accepting the world frankly. The practice of life is actually the word wisdom. " After this article was published in today's headlines, it won the recognition of many readers, and even some readers praised me as "a master, a master, and the son of a sage". Of course, I know that this is excessive praise, and I know that there is still some self-knowledge, but after all, I am a layman and I am happy inside.

I sincerely thank you for the bad years, because all growth and strength can only come from bitterness and pain, from my own awakening after experiencing hardships, and from the wisdom I finally realized after hitting my head. The most important door in life, only oneself can open it. This door is the door of fate, everyone has one, and the keys are different. You need to look for him in the crowd. In addition, there is no way!

it is precisely because of the unsatisfactory tempering that I have achieved my goal of standing at 3 and not being confused at 4.

218 is coming, and I decided to revise my requirements at the end of 216, because the word "late bloomer" is ambiguous, and "success" in the usual sense is that enviable success.