My husband always says that I spend money indiscriminately, and I am very sad …

First of all, I would like to express my understanding and sympathy for your situation.

I can't say whether he still loves you. I can only say that after a long time together, people have become realistic. So don't compare with the past. Think on the bright side and you will feel better.

My suggestion is: usually spend money to keep accounts and keep a small receipt, so it will be easy to deal with him. At the same time, you may find yourself really lacking in financial management.

Don't talk to him. Give him the bill next time he asks. If not, let him try to manage family expenses.

I have my own job and keep a proper distance. It's really tiring to be alone there. I have experienced it, so I understand.