Let me tell you another beginning of my composition.

There is a "beast" in my heart, another me. I always lock this "beast" in a door, but the "key" in my heart will let it out. I want to make others jealous and make me stand out from my humble position.

I am really unreasonable when I am angry. Once, my brother held my stomach tightly, and I felt very uncomfortable. Unconsciously, the "beast" has manipulated me and asked me to lift my right foot and step on it hard. If you do something bad, there is no turning back. My heart is cold and I don't know what to do. Coupled with the scolding of my sisters, my original heavy heart has added a heavy burden. This is the first side of the "beast": anger.

The second side of this "beast" is: it makes people jealous. My position in the family is the last one. So everyone hates me. Some often scold me, some keep people away from me, and some often plot against me. ...

Because of this, I can only make others jealous of me, so that others will not hate me anymore. I often use the wrong behavior to make the "beast" appear again, but this is the only way. Now, I have made it impossible for me to turn back.

I couldn't believe it when I unveiled the real veil of this "beast". The beast is the real me! A terrible me, a hypocritical me, how will I drive away this terrible "beast"?