You have come a long way, but I am still where I am.

2017 65438+1October 26th, the wedding day, he told everyone to block my news.

Later, my friend Yingying came to my house and told me that he was getting married.

Who said that love is not a dead branch, it will eventually fall.

I asked Yingying what kind of person his wife is now. She seemed to think for a while, looked at me and said, "Not beautiful."

"Have you seen her?" I asked curiously.

"It's his primary school classmates. I know that girl. "

I don't know why Yingying told me that the girl was not beautiful first, but what does it have to do with me that she is not beautiful?

Yingying told me a lot about them, just like what I have experienced.

I bit my lip and listened to her quietly, but my heart seemed to be tightly wound, and the more I twisted, the more breathless I was.

Yingying saw that I didn't say anything, so she stared at me carefully with her eyes, but she couldn't turn her eyes, as if to find something from my face.

"Look so carefully, can you see that I have acne on my face?" I told her half jokingly, but I couldn't laugh at all.

Finally, she said helplessly, "Don't think that I don't know that you still want him back, so I just came to tell you today and forget him!" " Besides, he has children now. "

My heart missed a beat at that moment. It turns out that Yingying always knew my feelings for him.

I was shocked, too. I remember a few months ago, I was in a bad mood and made a decadent and world-weary remark in my circle of friends. He comforted me in his comments, and I was secretly pleased for a long time. How did I have a baby so soon? ...

It turned out that I was wrong. I always thought he was waiting for me on the road, but in fact he was already waiting for his life partner on the road in the future, and it was me, which I never wanted to see.

02.

Rotten in memory is a face I never want to remember, but it is that face that makes me miss all day.

I met him three years ago, when we had just stepped into the threshold of senior three. He and I were in the same class.

When I was making up lessons in senior three, once after class, my best friend and I laughed and played the game of "carrying people" on the playground. Suddenly, a boy stood in front of me and said, "classmate, I have been paying attention to you for a long time." Can you leave a contact information? "

You see, the feelings in this world are so wonderful. You didn't like him very much at first, but then you fell in love with him.

Later, he chased me desperately and made me laugh every day. It is the same. Every time I see him, I can't help laughing. It's that grin. He called me stupid.

"Don't you want a lady who used to laugh?" He always likes to tease me like this, and I will joke with him: "Who is thick-skinned? My sister pinched it. "

Because of him, my personality has become a lot more cheerful.

He is not particularly handsome, but he has good features. He is not a handsome "Rukawa Kaede" on the playground, but he is also a slam dunk master. Every time there is a school competition, you can see his agile and vigorous figure.

Our girls' dormitory is facing the basketball court, and I can see his posture of playing basketball at a glance.

Later, I heard that he chased many girls, but it didn't end.

At that time, the favorite thing to play was QQ. Every time I look at those beautiful love words he sent me on the screen, my girl's heart will thump.

Once I saw him talking to his friend about a girl, and then I kept asking him who that girl was, thinking, "Is this kid cheating?"

Did he deliberately give me suspense? After a while, he told me: "The representative of Chinese class in our class, my friend likes her, let me introduce her." I'm relieved. When will I care about these things?

Later, in front of me, he deleted all the women on the QQ list. I asked him if he regretted it? He said, "I have a wife and only talk to her." That moment was really touching.

Last semester of senior three, I didn't live on campus, and my parents stayed at home with me. The school has a rule that you must swipe your card when you go out, but every morning, he buys me breakfast outside the school and waits for me. Every time he said, "Idiot, you get up so late that you don't have time for a walk."

"Can't you take a walk at night?"

"Afraid of being found by the teacher? What courage! "

Later, I couldn't tell whether time was going forward or backward.

Once, after the monthly exam, I put my wallet in the classroom. With so many people making so much noise, I lost 100 yuan. He knew and gave me his money. I didn't want it, so he bought me snacks.

I don't have a mobile phone at school. He gave it to me just to chat with me at night.

Every winter, my hands will grow frostbite, and winter is undoubtedly the hardest for me.

When he sees my red and swollen hands, swollen like sausages, he will put my hand in his palm.

He frowned and said to me, "Wife, bring your coat and wash it for me in the future. Your hand looks distressed, like a sausage. "

I don't know how he washes his clothes, but every time I put them in front of my eyes, I feel an indescribable taste, happy, moved and happy. ...

I especially like a popular sentence on the internet: I will accompany you from school uniform to wedding dress.

But from beginning to end, I didn't wait.

At that time, his mother called me occasionally, and I asked him when he would tell his mother about us. He was still studying, and I was so ashamed!

He was not annoyed, but smiled and said, "You are already my wife. You are not ashamed to say it early or late. "

Later, our love was known to my parents. They asked my teacher to watch me at school and forbade me to associate with him.

Then I was "bloody" criticized by the head teacher. Every time I pass by the office, it seems that a pair of penetrating eyes are looking at me, and I feel guilty, but even so, I have not given up.

However, what went wrong?

03.

Those years of infatuation and care will eventually pass.

In June of the college entrance examination, the world was not scorched by the sun as usual, and it was raining lightly in the sky, which made people feel the coolness of parting.

Every time he sent me to the entrance of the examination room, it was also the last time to walk side by side.

Finally, after the exam, I embarked on a journey to Jilin, and he went to Changsha.

Who says that distance produces beauty, and distance only alienates people who love each other?

Those who thought it was an episode of eating some fruit after dinner didn't know that it was really a solemn romance.

It seems to tell me that it's time to end the curtain.

I clearly remember that on a new day in September, when the autumn was crisp, I got up early in the morning to make breakfast. Suddenly, QQ messages began to drip. I opened it and saw the QQ message with his name flashing: "Let's break up."

Break up?

I never understood why I broke up, because of a long-distance relationship.

"You didn't reassure me at all." Through the cold screen, I can't see what his expression is. It's really biting.

People say that impulse is the devil, the devil, but it has no feelings and reason.

On that day, I stubbornly promised him: "Good."

I didn't even ask him why he broke up.

Our relationship is broken. He didn't say goodbye to my face. He just sent me away with a few cold words, but it broke my heart.

Is he really happy to break up with me? Is he sad? I still don't know or see his face clearly.

I dropped several cups on the table that day, and I seem to like to see those broken cups lying in front of me.

Remember what I said before? I have a bad temper, and I want to throw things when I get angry. But now he throws things behind his back, but he can't see them.

I deleted all his things. I expected him to explain to me before, but he didn't.

It's really funny. The advantage of love is that you promise your eternal love. If you leave, you will get drunk alone.

Later, he added me and didn't say anything. I thought he meant to let me speak first to save it, but did he forget? I never take the initiative.

About the second half of 20 16, one day, I sent a space to talk about: lonely years, my life so far.

Then I joined my senior in QQ very early and suddenly sent me a message: "Are you single? I want you to be my girlfriend. You know I like you for a long time. "

Yes, I know, since my sophomore year.

I quickly agreed to his pursuit, but I knew I didn't like him, just thinking about someone on the gas list.

One day, on a whim, I sent a message saying: My whole family knows that Brother Zhong calls me every day, but I never answer it. Brother Zhong comments: Are you still embarrassed?

I thought he was going to ask me something, but those love threads kept cutting.

However, I didn't wait for his words, only to find that he had disappeared from the list. I know, he deleted me.

But in less than two months, I broke up with that senior. Why not fall in love?

Later Yingying asked me, do you know why he broke up with you in the first place? "When we were together during the New Year, he said he was very tired. He can't feel your care and love. Every time he calls you, you don't call him. He also said that you never told your parents that you were still in contact. "

I was not aware of that.

I remember when I was in high school, I liked Guo Xiaosi very much, and I liked the love in his words, which made me burst into tears every time.

But he said, "Look at those. You might as well look at me. I treat you better than books, at least I won't make you cry. "

But now, he won't make me cry. He has married someone else.

04.

How did he end up in my world? How can he remind me of him?

I threw those painful memories into the sea, and let the passionate waves collide on the rocks, break into pieces and die in the sea forever.

Now, I no longer beg for a love, even for a lifetime.

I still remember that the junior high school math teacher told us that in the emotional world, it is often not the person in your heart that you can't let go, but the relationship you used to have together.

We have never met since the year we parted.

He appeared in countless dreams, but when he woke up, he was broken.

I remember one time, I went to his space to see the messages I left for him and deleted them all. Suddenly I felt really funny, and I didn't delete any of my messages.

The best time has passed, and now he has a beautiful wife, and I am still anxious about my life.

It's just that he will never be my anxiety.

Now, I work, read, study and listen to songs every day. That person only occasionally appears faintly in my memory, and there will be no more worries.

The years are quiet and good, and each is well.