I want to be a "bad guy"

Being a good person for a long time, I suddenly feel quite boring. Maybe I'm just an ordinary good person, or I'm not a good person at all.

The reason why I want to say that I am a good person is that I don't want to annoy others and give them some goodwill. Just talking too much and doing too little, the balance between words and deeds is often unbalanced, which seems strange and awkward, and the whole person seems to be stumbling.

It seems that he seldom flaunts himself. But it may be against my will to say so. Because now if a person tells me that he sometimes doesn't understand himself, then I must believe that it is true. Because after all, sometimes people just can't control themselves, and their bodies and minds are out of control.

As long as the final result is good, no matter how difficult the process is, it is still worth it. But if the final outcome is not good, it is definitely not worth the loss. But sometimes the good and bad in the world are not so easy to define, especially when you are young, and even the monks who often go to the second grade are puzzled.

The interesting thing about life is that you can change roles at will. The mask can be changed at any time, and the smile is too fake and stiff, so I choose not to smile. If you don't laugh, it seems inappropriate, so choose to be a "bad guy".

Being a "bad guy" is a very free thing, because everyone has extremely low requirements for him. But as long as he is willing to keep quiet and do no harm, everyone is happy to call him "Amitabha". So there is a lot of free time, and you can observe and think about many interesting things.

When someone tries to disturb you, he will keep an interesting distance from you as long as you continue to be "bad". But pretending to be "bad" is sometimes tiring.

Later, I thought, everything that needs to be cleaned up in this world is very tired! Being a "bad guy" is not a simple matter.