"Brother, I want to eat candy"

That voice is like a silver bell, shouting every day, brother, I want some candy; that voice is like a silver bell, laughing every day, holding his hand, running on the playground; that voice is like a silver bell, Like a bell, the sound echoes on the campus radio every day.

It’s just that I can’t listen to it anymore.

I still remember that on the first day of recruiting new students at the school radio station, it was the first time I saw her. When I heard her voice, I was deeply attracted.

Thinking about how to get close to her and how to become the closest person to her.

He began to observe continuously. It turns out that she is in the next class, it turns out that she is the math class representative, it turns out that she plays the daily broadcast on the radio station every afternoon.

So, he began to stand between the two classes every day, just to look at her back. He began to study mathematics hard, hoping to become a class representative and be able to meet her by chance in the teacher's office. He started running, reading, and memorizing words on the playground at 6 p.m. every day.

But after three years of junior high school, he still lived outside her world.

Because she is so outstanding, there are many boys around her, including tall, powerful, handsome sports committee members; gentle and extraordinary Chinese class representatives; and even those outside the school. , a young man who looks naughty and righteous.

He began to panic, it seemed that he would never be able to touch her. She was like a baby in an incubator, surrounded by three layers inside and three outside. He was too far away from her.

But things always develop in an unexpected direction. That day after school, he walked a little late because of his off-duty duty. When he left the school gate, he happened to run into her being raped by three people at the corner. The hooligans surrounded him.

Perhaps it was love that gave him courage. With his weak body, he ignored the three big men opposite him, rushed forward, pushed aside the siege of the hooligans, and stood in front of her.

It turns out that those little hooligans just wanted to find some money to surf the Internet, and they had no ill intentions to hurt anyone. So he took out the only ten dollars he had, which was his food expenses for a week, gave it to the hooligans, and sent them away.

Looking back, she found that she had silently shed tears.

From that day on, he stood in the middle of the two classes, looking at her back instead of her smiling face. From that day on, he studied mathematics hard, not just to be a math class representative but because she was there to tutor him.

From that day on, he no longer showed up at the playground on time at six o'clock every day. Instead, he appeared at the door of the radio station on time at 6:30, holding a bowl of warm wontons to greet her. The end of the broadcasting job.

They seemed to come together naturally.

From junior high school, to high school, from high school to university, from university to work, until entering the palace of marriage.

She has always liked eating sweets, probably because she was malnourished as a child and often had low blood sugar, so she would carry two or three pieces of maltose in her pocket every day. And he always remembered that every time she acted coquettishly, she would shout with her silver bell-like laughter: Brother, I want to eat candy. He remembered this habit for his whole life.

After getting married, although her quality of life has improved, her habit has not changed. There are sugar jars everywhere in the house. He will always keep two or three pieces of candy on the bedside table, on the dresser, next to the computer desk, and even in the closet, just in case she needs it.

However, it is no longer needed.

He shook his head and brought his thoughts back. After looking at the brightly lit city in front of me, I turned around and walked down the mountain.

He stopped halfway up the mountain, placed the flowers and candies in his hands in front of a small mound, then sat down and started talking to himself.

How are you down there? You have been gone for so many years.

I am still not used to living alone.

Do you have enough candy down there? If you don’t have enough to eat, remember to send it to me in your dream, and I will bring it to you again.

Will you continue to broadcast and host below? If you still want to hear your voice, tell me and I will bring you the recorder and tape next time.

Today is your birthday. I cooked a bowl of noodles. It is your favorite longevity noodles. I don’t know if you have eaten it.

I still remember that you told me that when I was a child, my family was poor, and every year I looked forward to eating a bowl of longevity noodles cooked by my mother on my birthday, with some chopped green onions and two eggs.

Ten years ago today, you told me that you wanted to eat the longevity noodles I cooked again, but I didn't even satisfy you with this small request. But I didn't expect that it would only be so many years since we said goodbye.

If I had known at that time that you were in unbearable pain, I would not have left you at three o'clock in the morning no matter what I said.

If I had known at that time that your condition had deteriorated to that extent, no matter what I said, I would not have taken on that project and would have worked overtime until the early hours of the morning every day.

If I had known at that time that it was so difficult for you to even go up and down the stairs, then no matter what I said, you would not be allowed to continue doing your original job.

I said that I worked hard to let you live a better life, but when I have money, you are no longer here.

If God gives me another chance, I will still rush in front of you when those little hooligans stop you, because when you smile, you are as beautiful as an angel.

If God gives me another chance, then I will choose to accompany you more and pay more attention to you instead of focusing on work. I didn't even know you were feeling unwell.

But there are so many ifs in the world.

Without you, life is like a pool of stagnant water.

That’s me. I walked alone for ten years.

But I have never regretted it. I rushed to you that day without hesitation.

I have never regretted eating steamed buns and pickles for you for a week.

Although life was hard at first, you didn’t complain at all; although you almost couldn’t open the pot at first, you still couldn’t stop eating; although...

But you left suddenly , made me see clearly that it is not necessary to love someone. Giving her such a good life and being with her is the most important thing.

I will never forget the look on your face when you asked me if I could cook longevity noodles for you to eat; I will never forget the scene when you were lying quietly in the intensive care unit with tubes inserted into your body; I will also never forget the scene when you closed your eyes and the white cloth completely covered you.

If God gives me a choice, then I would rather that the one who leaves is me.

I hope you can live well down there.

After saying this, he turned around and left.

Behind him, there was nothing in front of the small mound, only a bouquet of flowers and a bag of candy.

When the wind blows, it blows the plastic bag containing the candy, making a sound like a silver bell, as if to say: "Brother, I want to eat candy."