Tell me about your life now?

? I think my life is in a terrible state now. Last year, I entered the marriage hall. I have a new position this year. I have become the mother of a child. I have to be a full-time wife at home for the baby, because the baby is only five months old and still breastfeeding. The baby can't live without its mother, and my in-laws can't take care of it. Moreover, with them, I always complain about this and that, and always mention that I have no money. I can't help living with them. I really can't stand it. Even if I don't help with the children, I still talk about it every day, which makes me feel the urge to divorce.

? As a new mother, I don't know anything. If they don't help, forget it. They are still cynical there every day. And my husband doesn't care about anything What his parents say is what they say. I feel hopeless in life for the first time, and sometimes I feel desperate when I think about it. I asked to go out to work in the south with my husband and take care of the children outside. As a result, my husband listened to her mother, saying that it is not easy for children to go out by car, that it is not good for me to take care of children outside alone, and so on. But I know they are stingy, afraid that my baby and I will spend a lot of money outside. My husband's family is very stingy, the kind I have never seen. I'm in confinement. I said I would eat meat every meal, and then they wouldn't let me eat it, saying that I couldn't digest it if I ate too much meat. At that time, I was always hungry I felt bitter when I thought about it, so I took my baby to Guangzhou regardless of everyone's opposition.

? I live beside my children every day. I get up in the morning to change his clothes, diapers and feed him. Then I will wash his clothes, play with him, put him to bed, bathe him and mop the floor at night. Anyway, I'm too busy to keep my back straight every day, and I have a backache when I dream at night. The day before yesterday, I said I was tired and my back ached. Then my husband said that I was tired because I did nothing at home every day. It really makes me sad. I take care of the child as if it were not his, saying that I do nothing every day. Isn't that why I'm here? Why are you talking about me like this? Before we had children, I didn't have a job for 365 days a year, and I was asked to support every day. Sometimes I lose my temper at home and say something about me, but I know very well that it's all my fault. Who let me find such a husband? There is a saying that capable people have no temper, and incompetent people have a big temper. Only a man with no ability will be angry with his wife every day. I am a full-time wife in this state of life.

? People who have never had children can't understand the hardships of raising children alone, and I don't want such a life myself. Really tired. Therefore, I hope to return to work as soon as possible, change the current situation and give my children better living conditions. I don't want my child to be a stingy person when he grows up in the future. My own living conditions are better, but I married such a stingy family.