The older you get, the less you want to leave home.

It's been some time since the Spring Festival holiday in the Year of the Tiger. I asked the company for a few days' annual leave, so I didn't go to work according to normal working hours.

February 14 I wanted to stay at home and go back to work with my wife after Valentine's Day, but the company repeatedly urged me to give up, pack my bags and start again.

Accompanied by my wife and daughter, I once again embarked on a journey to Henan.

Although it is not the first time to leave home, I should be used to it long ago, but with the growth of age, I feel more and more reluctant to leave home.

I remember that when I left my wife and daughter for Henan to do a project for the first time seven years ago, I didn't give up at all, only I was excited and glad. I think I am a fish jumping by the sea and a bird flying in the sky.

I'm free at last, and I don't have to listen to my wife's nagging or worry about my daughter's impatience.

The facts afterwards also proved that my guess was right. If you want to smoke in bed, you don't have to put on your coat to smoke on the balcony or outside your home. You can smoke as much as you want. If you want to play cards or drink with your friends, that is to say, you can leave if you want, and there is no need to report it at all.

At first, I enjoyed this state of life in which a person is full and the whole family is not hungry. No imprisonment, no shackles, only one word can describe it, cool.

However, with the passage of time, this kind of life that makes me feel extremely cool makes me gradually tired. Smoking makes my teeth darker and darker. Although I have washed it several times, it is useless. It's just a temporary solution, not a permanent cure, but it makes my teeth more and more fragile.

If you eat meat or something a little harder, it will get stuck between your teeth. I often start looking for toothpicks to pick my teeth before I finish eating, otherwise I will feel uncomfortable.

Drinking gives you a beer belly, fatty liver and alcoholic hepatitis. Go to the hospital for a physical examination, and you will be flustered when you look at most indicators that exceed the standard.

Especially after getting drunk, even the best colleagues and friends will send people home safely, that's all. After that, whether it is spit or uncomfortable, it can only be known in the cold and warm.

I remember one time I woke up drunk and found myself lying in bed without taking off my shoes. The sheets and quilts on the bed were covered with the filth I spit out, and they smelled bad and drunk.

When I remembered to clean up, I found that my body was completely out of control, my whole body was floating, and I had no strength at all. And my head is buzzing, as if a train passed by.

I will understand some truth after experience.

Looking at the filthy bed, with a buzzing head, facing the body that wants to move but can't move. I began to miss my wife who once hated me, all kinds of nagging and rules.

Because at this moment, I can realize that all these rules and regulations are full of love and care. What moved me most was my baby daughter.

Going home on holiday, the family of three went to the supermarket and watched the mother and daughter walking hand in hand. At that moment, I found that my daughter was taller than my wife. This shocked me. I always thought my daughter was a child, but suddenly I found her grown up.

And what have you done for your daughter's growth? How long have you been with me? What do you know about your daughter? Thinking about these questions, I shed tears, which is a kind of tears of shame and self-blame. I am not qualified to be a father.

Once, my daughter inadvertently talked about her timidity, saying that because other children at school have parent-teacher conferences, my father will often go there, and sitting next to them will make people feel safe. Even if she did something wrong, she wouldn't be afraid as long as her father was here.

But I have never attended my daughter's parent-teacher conference, which makes women feel insecure, so they become cautious and afraid of doing something wrong, so they lack initiative and are afraid of communicating with others.

Many things in life can be repeated if they are wrong, and they can be repeated if they are missed, but children only grow up once. Missed is missed, and there is no chance to make up for it.

Now I am carrying my luggage and embarking on a journey of going out to work. I was not so excited when I escaped from the cage, but I was deeply disappointed.

If you don't give up your wife and daughter, you must be more self-disciplined in middle age, take care of yourself, go to work well and make more money.

At the same time, I also use the holiday to go home and get together with my wife and daughter. Companionship is the most precious wealth among family members.