A sentence in which the mentality collapses to an explosion

The following is a sentence that I wrote when my brain collapsed and exploded:

1, I live very tired, but I dare not die. The night is too long to cope with the sad mood, and it is another day to pretend to be happy at dawn.

2. Sometimes, we want to laugh but pretend to be sad; Sometimes, we want to cry, but we have to squeeze out a stiff smile.

3. What's it like to be really disappointed in someone? I don't want you to know what happened to me and I don't want to know anything about you.

I used to think that people would be heartbroken when they were desperate, but later I learned that empty eyes and silence are the real heart death.

People who look forward and backward are most confused because they don't know what they want. People who look around are the most tired, because they always feel that their lives are more difficult than others.