What is the lyrics accompaniment of "Holding a knife without hugging you"?

People are walking and their hearts are wandering.

It's like I held the knife but didn't hold your hand.

Looking around, it was a hazy and dark day.

I dare not lower my head to light the last cigarette.

A crescent moon hangs in the lonely night.

I have never been timid, but you have ignored me after all.

Whose tenderness was drunk by cigarette filter throat?

The love and hate that turned around never looked back.

The mountain is high and the road is steep. I used to walk with you.

I have held a knife and made a fool of myself, but I have never held your hand.

Maybe I'm embarrassed and always want to get you drunk.

Listen carefully to you, why I don't deserve it.

Said I looked like an asshole and always smiled brightly.

But I'm also flustered for you, and you never look.

Say I'm wandering and my heart is floating in the wind.

But tears filled your eyes, and you never relaxed.

Watch you have sex with others for money.

Your smile on the BMW is so fucking sweet.

When you say love, you must take me as your confidant.

Don't compare me with others. I'm sorry

Even if you work hard, you will still be forgotten.

Then end this monologue with this sad melody.

Think of it as a dream, a trick of God.

Since it can't move, what's the use of this steel knife?

Then fade away the vicissitudes of life and put down all the scenery.

Since feelings always get hurt, shoot.

Then I wish you happiness and get rid of loneliness as soon as possible.

Dare to love, hate and chase, and you can see the way home as soon as possible.

Influence of experience time on crossing desert beach.

Have you ever scoured for gold with a knife?

Who can a person talk to when traveling in the rain?

I wrote a song with a knife. Have you ever heard someone advise me?

The wind blew away the wildness and left a glimpse.

I've held a knife and bled, but who knows?

Feelings are sharper than knives, and crushing is better than walking.

I have held a knife and shed tears. Please don't say I don't deserve it.