The regret of fate is another kind of fulfillment.

1

As long as I can remember, my parents' marriage came to an end.

Every time my father comes to see me, my family is quiet. There is nothing to say between him and his mother most of the time, but as soon as he opens his mouth, a quarrel will definitely break out within five sentences.

For a long time, I admired other people's children and could play around holding their parents' hands.

Once, I was hiding in my room doing my homework, and I heard the curses in the living room getting worse and worse. My father accused my mother of staying at home all day doing nothing, as if it was easy to be a full-time mother. At that moment, I felt so wronged for my mother that I almost cried. In my impression, my mother has always been the pillar of this small family, and my father is the one who is often absent.

After my father slammed the door and left, my mother didn't get angry, but smiled. She reassured me that we just need to live our own lives, and nothing else matters.

I didn't understand it at first. Later, when I grew up, I began to be glad that at least in this tragedy, my mother could stop the loss in time.

When I grew up, I fell in love. I have been with my boyfriend for less than two years, but my feelings are in jeopardy. When you are unwell, you can't wait for his concern; And when he is in a bad mood, he can throw the breakfast I bought in front of me without hesitation.

Repeated quarrels, cold wars and reconciliation made me exhausted. Finally, I chose to break up.

Although sad, it is not as painful as I thought. I know I should end this mistake early.

I gradually understand that my childhood experience is not to deprive me of the right to be loved, but to teach me how to love myself better. Because I know how bad it is for two people I don't love to get entangled, and I know how to get out of here in time.

No matter how difficult it is to sew up the broken feelings of my parents, it also gives me the strength of rationality and maturity. In this way, the shortcomings in life are not gifts.

2

My first part-time job was as a waiter in a restaurant.

This work is much more difficult than I thought. When you come back to the kitchen with a pile of tall dirty dishes, you will always be stopped by several tables of guests; Sometimes, because I can't remember the wrong dishes on the corresponding table number, I will be scolded by a dog.

Colleagues don't understand why I have to toss myself like this on a good weekend.

What they don't know is that eating a small pudding with 50 cents was a luxury for me at that time. My mother often stays alone in the room, checking the daily expenses one by one against a pile of small change.

I was just an adult at that time. For me, adulthood means that my father will no longer give alimony, and I must help my mother share the weight on her shoulders.

Therefore, the summer vacation after the college entrance examination is different from the heated discussion of tourist attractions in the circle of friends. I just want to earn my living expenses and support my family.

I met all kinds of people, and even cried because of unreasonable guests. The foreman warned me that the most taboo in a service industry is to compete with guests for winning or losing. Even if you win, it's not worth the loss.

Since then, I have gradually learned how to deal with people and accumulated a lot of social experience.

My father left my world early, which is my greatest regret. But now, I just feel relieved. If I hadn't experienced this, maybe a setback would have knocked me down, and a little injustice would have made me feel bitter.

May be reluctant to leave home this safe haven, confused and helpless, wandering aimlessly in reality, and finally black and blue.

Fate forced me to grow up in an almost indifferent way, which made me feel the heaviness of life early, and also made me practice the ability to carry on.

three

In this life, it is very difficult to succeed. There is always something you don't have, and you can't ask for it and can't let it go, which becomes an irreparable regret in your heart.

However, with the growth of age, looking back at that time, we will find that fate is often the most unfair and the fairest.

Even though my imperfect childhood is hard to let go, the warmth I once lacked made me calmly accept every joys and sorrows. Even if important people are not in my life, the hardships and helplessness of the past will turn into confidence in going to the future alone.

In fact, the perfection in the eyes of most of us is not perfect in the true sense. Just like people who have been sheltered all the way, they may not know how to cherish the company of people around them; People who grow up carefree often need longer time to get familiar with the laws of society. Having doesn't necessarily mean perfection, but regret is another kind of luck.

I like a sentence very much: "everything has cracks, that's where light comes in."

Many times, seemingly unreasonable deprivation of fate has finally become an unconscious practice. No matter whether you are wronged or unwilling, you can still learn to face up to it when your life is in danger.

Those stubbornness honed by time and calmness accumulated slowly in growth are the gifts that life really wants to give us.

Knowing this, you will no longer have anything you can't let go of. Everything you go through will temper your ability to live a good life.

In this compulsory course of growing up, you just have to go ahead safely and find that there is light on yourself.