Nirvana reborn after fracture? -One year after the fracture

Haruki Murakami once said in Kafka by the Sea, "Fate is like a sandstorm, and you have nowhere to run. Only bravely step into it. When you escape from the sandstorm, you are not what you were when you went in. "

20 19 65438+ 10 12, on this day, the pictures of skiing falls are often played back unconsciously. As a snowboarder, I have been skiing for several years. I signed up for the skiing competition held in Laiwu on October 20th, 2065438+09/KLOC-0. 12 years1October 20th, I went to Xueyuan for pre-competition training. When I was sprinting down, I found a strong man chatting on the snowy road, but I couldn't stop at that time. I can only hit hard at a high speed. To protect him, my center of gravity turned back, causing him to fly and hit me. He was unscathed, and I almost fainted when I fell. The helmet and protective gear are all there, but I can't move in the snow. The pain makes me moan all the time. Years of exercise experience tells me that this time, it should be very serious, otherwise it will not be unable to move. When the person next to me tried to help me up, my left leg could not touch the ground, so I had to lie in the snow and wait for the ambulance. This is the first time in my life to take an ambulance. After being sent to the hospital, X-ray examination showed that I had a comminuted fracture of the left pubic bone and a dislocated fracture of the left sacrum, so I had to operate as soon as possible. Seeing this result, my head was completely blinded. I don't care about my life, my job or my family. I know, I'm going to spend the hardest time of my life. Facts have proved that this is not only difficult but also quite painful.

Unbearable pain

The first level was the night I was hospitalized on the day of the fracture. The pain kept me awake all night. Because there are two serious fractures in the pelvis, I can't move. I have to stay flat. I don't want to say that I'm tired, and the sharp pain at the fracture spreads all over my body. A few days after the fracture, after a series of examinations and consultation with orthopedic experts, the operation date was arranged, the operation plan was determined, and steel nails were nailed with robots to ensure the success rate of the operation and minimize physical trauma.

On the morning of the first 10 day after the fracture, I was pushed into the operating room, and I was only worried about whether I would wake up. Things that have never been experienced erase all curiosity, leaving only panic and fear that have never been seen before. General anesthesia, tracheal intubation and ventilator-assisted breathing were used in the operation. Four and a half hours later, the operation was over. When I was pushed out, my eyelids were heavy, and my family called my name, feeling that I had died and lived again and again. There are five knives on my body and two big steel nails in my bones, which will accompany me all my life. In the days to come, I will often pretend to be "Sister Nail".

The second level is when the medicine in the painkiller pump runs out. That kind of pain makes me feel that there is a rotating meat grinder in my body, which is heartbreaking. For the next two months, I felt constant pain every day and couldn't sleep at night. The strong feeling brought to me by this experience is that the physical pain is actually stronger than the mental pain.

The value of freedom

? One week after operation, I was hospitalized 16 days and finally discharged. Because the fracture is in the pelvis, I can only sit for two months and stand for three months after operation. From then on, I really experienced the "disabled" life of eating and drinking Lazar in bed for three months, and I couldn't take care of myself. I miss the days when I was free. I could run all over the mountain, wander around and get bronzed in the scorching sun. Being able to walk freely and go to work every day is really a very happy thing for me who couldn't even turn over at that time.

In these three months, I recorded my own dribs and drabs-on the 38 th day of fracture, my left leg can move freely; On the 60th day of fracture, you can turn over; On the 68th day of fracture, I was able to sit in a wheelchair. On the 92nd day after the fracture, I was able to walk on crutches ... When I was sick, I finished reading Yu's "May your youth live up to my dreams". He gave me positive energy to believe in the future and love life with his own life experience and perseverance after encountering setbacks. Even, I think this is my favorite book at present. Accompany me in my most painful time and give me strength, which means a lot.

04 Rebirth after Nirvana

I can get up and go to the ground in three months, because I have been inactive for three months, my legs have shrunk and my legs have no strength. I abide by the doctor's principle of "giving priority to nursing, exercising moderately and step by step", firmly believe in winning, and practice walking bit by bit every day. Based on my years of fitness exercise, I believe I can recover as soon as possible and return to the workplace.

From the initial pain to the later numbness, from the initial shame to the later helplessness, from stumbling awkwardly with crutches to the later flexible movement, it took me only one month to shed unknown tears, feel anxious and uncomfortable, struggle with resentment, from leaning on crutches to leaning on crutches after three months on the ground, and finally throw away crutches completely. When I was admitted to the hospital, the doctor said that with my injury, it would take half a year to start working. Four months after the fracture, I returned to work. I believe that I am more persistent now, and all my experiences have become intangible spiritual wealth.

After the injury, my son comforted and encouraged me every day, although I knew he had cried behind my back many times and was worried that I would never stand up again. My mother and all my family members take good care of my life and mood, and I am grateful to my relatives, friends and colleagues for their concern. The world is so big, I am grateful for all this, and I am grateful that this sad time has polished my body and mind. After admission, the doctor said that pelvic fracture was the highest mortality rate. I'm glad I didn't have internal bleeding after the fracture. After standing up for three months, I can still walk normally without any sequelae. After all, I am lucky. After I was able to walk, I took a group of photos with crutches. I thought I was Xiao Qiang with heavy ashes. In the rest of my life, I tried to embrace life and accept my imperfect self. Wait for the wind, ride the wind, fly against the wind, etc. On the day of shooting, "Sister Nail" became the "inspirational sister" on the set.

The ups and downs of life are a test of life belief and persistence. The journey is inevitably stormy, and life has made one beautiful and intriguing. Some things cannot be changed, so we should learn to accept them. Hard work will overcome some obstacles. Except for life and death, everything else is small. Put yourself in a different position, be a bystander, watch lightly and see clearly. Most of the difficulties we experience are opportunities to promote growth. Cross over and hold on, the clouds sometimes disperse. Many times we think things are too complicated and scare ourselves. The reason is that we can't cross. Each of us can be the sun in our own life, and anything that can't destroy me will make me stronger!

Finally, I want to say a word to life: "Life, I fear you, I love you". Because of this break, I found the meaning of life, that is, "love", love myself, love my family, love my friends, love my work, love my travel, love my life and love my sports. Therefore, you can't deny all love just because of injury and pain. Love is the root of everything in the universe.

May love never die.