I am neither a strong woman nor a tomboy.

Two days ago, I saw a classmate in Moments posting this status: My wish is to do a good job, watch TV with my husband, do homework with my children, and do some research when I have time. Food. My ideal is to be a happy housewife. At that time, I immediately replied below: I feel the same way. I deeply believe that, because now-my ideal is also this.

I still remember that when I was twenty, my ideal was: I want to be a strong woman. Information at that time was far less developed than it is now. The limited information I could find was in magazines and books. At that time, I happened to see the story of Dong Zhujun, the founder of Shanghai Jinjiang Hotel, who was originally from Haimen, and he regarded it as a model. I also want to be such a strong woman, have my own career, and be famous all over the world.

Times have changed, but twenty years later, my ideal is: a harmonious family, a healthy son, and a safe parents. I don’t need to be rich, just enough. I also have a dream: when my son spreads his wings and flies high, I will travel everywhere, not the kind of travel agency. I want to randomly find a place with beautiful scenery and fresh air, stay there for ten and a half days, read and write, and then change places when I get tired of it. No pressure, no worries, live a life of your own free will. I know that such an idea is absurd and may never be realized. Perhaps there will be confusion and trouble at that time. Even so, I often think about the beauty of the future. After all, with this idea, I will not focus on the troubles and embarrassments of the present. Only then can I be full of hope for the future, at least I will have no chance of depression.

Looking back, I think about my ideals and lofty sentiments at that time. They were so childish, absurd and ridiculous, but this is how I was young.

Most of the people in the world are ordinary people, and I am just one of them. I don’t want to be a strong woman, or even a tomboy now. Sometimes showing weakness appropriately can not only relax yourself but also ease family relationships. It’s the best of both worlds, so why not?

After watching Zhou Xi’s speech in “I am a Speaker” which is widely circulated in the circle of friends, I have become more determined in my current thoughts: do not be a strong woman, nor a tomboy. She was very young and an excellent and enterprising young man. However, after staying up late for many years and various other factors, she suffered from physical problems. She began to think and advised all young people who are struggling not to stay up late. Don't try your best to cherish your body and your family. Her wish is: Get out of here, Mr. Tumor. She even retained her original expectations of giving birth to life. Everyone hopes that their life will be rich and exciting. Everyone is moving forward with a heavy burden and the greatest expectations for life. But back to the true nature, the most basic and original expectation is health and life itself.

On the road of life, there is only practice and no other way. Carrying a heavy load every day, sometimes I really want to let go of everything, pull away from the present, stand on a high place and look down at my insignificant self in the world. I am busy and toiled every day, sometimes happy and sometimes depressed. I am happy for the progress of my children and happy for the harmony of my family. Anxiety about making a living, a hint of sadness over the loss of ideals, and then fleeting. When I saw everything clearly and returned to myself, I thought that although I was tough on the outside, my heart was already soft. I was no longer a man, and I no longer wanted to be a strong woman. I was just an ordinary person.