Space sad diary

Chapter 1: Some things can only be understood after experiencing them

But if you really love someone, you can’t bear to go far, and you will wait quietly for that person Where we first met, but lost the courage to confess.

Love is the same as life. Some things can only be understood after experiencing them. It is enough to have an encounter in life that makes you so amazing that you have no regrets. I still remember the warmth of your handshake, and the heartbeat of your embrace. Love makes people appreciate the sweetness, and it also makes people appreciate the silent pain.

The years have been changing, and we have been growing. Looking at you from a distance, savoring the joys and sorrows of life from a distance. Time has passed, why can't I forget you? Are you destined to be powerless in my fate? Are you destined to be the shoulder that I can't lose? If one day, I disappear from your world, will your heart feel lost at a certain moment? What kind of confusing legend will the emotions you have experienced finally turn into. Missing is like a handful of pure water, which turns into tears when it falls in my eyes, turns into a sad feeling when it falls on my heart, and wets the poems I wrote for you when it falls on the paper.

Who can perceive the countless vivid emotions hidden in those cold words? If one day we cannot be together, I can only use this poem of love to move myself.

If one day I lose you, I have forgotten how to love someone passionately. If one day I no longer remember that I love you, I believe that the poems written for you will definitely Remember I love you...

Chapter 2: A person’s day

A person’s life is lonely and quiet.

A person's life is lonely and helpless.

One person cooks, one eats, one meditates, one is in a daze, talking to the stars, watching the moon wax and wane, feeling sad and happy. Carrying everything in life on your back, holding up the sky by yourself, walking alone in the wind and rain.

A person’s life must be very careful. For a careless person like me, it is undoubtedly something that needs to be done carefully. For example, when going out, always stand in front of the door and think about it. , have you forgotten anything? key? Have you written down everything you need to buy? When my wife was alive, these things were all my wife's thoughts and none of my business.

When you are alone, you have to take care of yourself, such as taking medicine. When I am sick, the medicine can always be taken into my mouth at any time, because my wife knows what medicine I take and always buys it in advance. . Now I have to think about it myself, deliberately check the medicine box, and buy the medicine I need to take in case I get sick.

When you are alone, you have to care about yourself. When my wife is here, I always cook every meal with great care to make my wife eat delicious. Now I am left alone, and I can’t always cook every meal. It's a matter of dealing with it. After he leaves, I have to take care of myself and eat every meal well to comfort my wife's spirit in heaven.

A person’s life also needs to be graded. Every time before I go out, I have to look at myself in the mirror to see if there is still sadness on my face and see if the clothes are neat and colorful. Whether the matching is appropriate, turn around in front of the mirror, give yourself some confidence, show your strength, and bury your vulnerability deep in your heart.

When no one is with you, just be in a daze by yourself, ask yourself about your soul, and tell yourself that no matter how difficult the road is, you must go on firmly, not for anything else, but for your loved ones, for The people you love and the people who love you. When no one is with you, play a classic old song, use the melody to relieve your lonely thoughts, let your mood slowly open up in the music, and quietly melt yourself into the fragrance and melodious music alone. Get intoxicated and reverie in the sound of music.

I am afraid of being alone, afraid of the tranquility at night. When night falls, in the quiet room, the taste of loneliness is still so deep, and the calmness is heartbreaking. I am still sitting on the computer. Next to me, I let my fingers dance on the keyboard, typing my beloved words, and breaking the tranquility of the night. Each character jumped out between my fingers. Lines of text recorded my mental journey, recorded my pain, and I I know that even if my fingertips hit the keyboard thousands of times, even though the words that make me cry are constantly flying between my fingers, I can't call back my wife's love and advice. I can be in this silent night without deliberately decorating. I no longer force myself to show off my face and smile, I can release my emotions without any concealment, release my soul, and let the sadness accumulated in my heart flow freely with tears. A person's life is like being ignored and forgotten by others.

There is always a love that always lives in my heart, but it is gone in life. What cannot be forgotten is the memory, but what continues is life. My life is so lonely and lonely, so I want to enrich my life. Every day I fill my lonely days and months with songs and friendship, and search for anecdotes on the computer to kill the boredom. time, reading those exquisite articles to delight my soul, and using lengthy memories to warm my cold night. In a person's life, he has no extravagant desires, and he doesn't care about gain or loss. He just wants to be quiet, peaceful and peaceful.

A person's life is just like using bits and pieces of life to piece together my years and my own perfection. Such perfection is fragile and fragile because of loneliness, neglect, and living alone.

Chapter 3: Is there a kind of love that prevents each other from being hurt?

Is there a kind of wine that will make you drunk if I drink it? Is there a story that makes you cry when I tell it? Is there a relationship that you have never forgotten when I think of it? Is there a song that you remember when I sing it? Is there a banquet that can last forever? Is there a jug of wine that no one is drinking from? Is there a kind of pain that cannot be healed in life? Is there a true love that you don’t want to think of and will never forget? Is there a flower that blooms all year round? Is there a tree that stays green all year round? Is there a stream that flows all year round? Is there a gentle breeze in all seasons?

Is there a kind of love that prevents each other from being hurt? Is there any kind of beauty that lasts forever? Is there a relationship that can promise the next life and this life? Is there a dream that makes our dreams come true? Is there any emotion that makes you burst into tears? Is there a kind of longing that makes you stand in the wind? Is there a kind of care that haunts you? Is there a kind of happiness that makes you smile brightly? Have you ever been confused and lost your way?

Is there an encounter that made you thank God? Is there a surprise that makes you believe in fate? Is there an expectation that makes you want to look forward to? Have you ever experienced the feeling of loneliness among the noisy crowd? Have you ever secretly shed tears in the silent midnight? Is there someone you know and love but can't be with? Have we met again after parting ways, and have we had a few dreams with you? Have we been speechless after seeing each other for many years? Have we completely forgotten ourselves in the moment of staring at each other? Have we inadvertently lost sight of ourselves in the dusty memories? Remember? Have you ever been speechless and burst into tears when we got together? Have you ever been inexplicably moved to tears in the wilderness? Have you ever been misunderstood and hurt but didn’t understand yourself? Sincerity in thoughts, is there, is there...!

There is always someone in your life who is your bright moonlight, there is always someone in your life who is your fatal injury, there is always someone in your life who is you. Endless tears of lovesickness, there is always one person in your life that you can't untie, there is always one person in your life that you just frown upon and miss in your heart, there is always one person in your life that you can't leave behind, and you can't forget of concern.

However, often the person who lives in your heart is thousands of miles away, so far away that you can't hold his sleeves even if you stretch out your hand, so far away that you can't catch up with him even if you try your best. , so far away that you can’t see, touch, hear, guess, see or understand clearly!

The story is thousands of miles away, and the thick fog cannot be lifted, so you can’t see the love in your heart clearly. The person you love is like fog, rain and wind, virtual and real, hazy and real, but... But this person makes you unable to leave, reluctant to let go, and unable to let go. You can only toss, torment, struggle, and suffer hopelessly. Missing you is a kind of happiness, but also a kind of pain. It can be regarded as sweet pain. I just met you. Is this a kind of fate? There are many people online, but I just miss you. The words written on the screen are easy to delete, but no matter how hard you try, you can't be deleted deep in your heart. No matter how far the distance is, it can't pull away the endless lovesickness, and no matter how ruthless the years are, it can't erase the heart palpitations of concern.

Chapter 4: We who have just graduated

We are typing letters on the keyboard, our hands are shaking for no apparent reason, sitting in a rented single room, staring at the computer in a daze. All day long, I don’t know where to start. I look up at the sky, with only a few white clouds floating in the air. Looking at the streets with people coming and going, I suddenly realize that I am so small. Sometimes I feel like crying but I smile to myself reluctantly. Say softly to yourself: "My dear, don't cry, you can do it."

Like many college graduates, I log in to my resume on major websites and look for it in the streets and alleys. At the interview location, when I was helpless, I wanted to cry, and I wanted to cry loudly, but there was always a voice echoing in my ears, encouraging myself to move forward.

Life is like this, when you want to cry, life will definitely I won’t make you cry. If you are working hard alone in this strange city, even if life gives you ten thousand reasons to cry, you must find ten million reasons to smile. Come on! All fresh graduates believe they can do it. It is very hard for a person to work hard in a strange environment and among strange people, but the sky for a person is very blue.

Chapter 5: The grievance that no one understands

When I encounter grievances, I will not tell others easily. Because I know that not everyone can understand the reason why I feel wronged. I would rather digest those grievances that no one understands alone.

Whenever I was wronged in the past, I would tell my parents. When my parents are free, they will comfort me, divert my attention, and make me forget unhappy things; when my parents are busy, they will just tell me not to pay attention and just study hard. I don’t want to see my parents’ perfunctory expressions anymore. I would rather struggle alone than wait for others to have the time and patience to listen to me.

I have also shared my grievances with my friends. When I was very sad and finished explaining the reasons for my grievances, my friends would look like "Is it that serious?" and then tell me it's no big deal. . At that moment, I felt a sense of loneliness in my heart, which made me not want to explain my grievances. I know that the more I explain, the more it will make the other person think that I am just looking for trouble. Why bother asking for trouble?

Perhaps in the eyes of others, my so-called grievances are just trivial matters, and there is no need to dwell on them for a long time. But I am such a sensitive and easily confused person. I don’t want to be depressed about these things all day long, but I can’t control it. So later I gave up telling and explaining my grievances to others and used other methods to resolve the negative emotions caused by my grievances.

When I am unhappy, I will sing loudly, dance freely, play games crazily, and go for a run... In short, I will let all the grievances out of my heart through sound and movement. Just like cleaning out garbage, clean out all the unhappiness in your heart and purify your soul.

I will not talk about those grievances that no one understands. Grievance is something that no one will understand if you explain it, and no one will listen if you explain it. In the end, you still have to bear it alone. It is better to be your own psychiatrist to make yourself happy.

Chapter 6: Huddle up in your own world and be silent

Each of us lives in a world that is as fast as a torrent, looking at all the noise and silence in this world . We stumbled along the way, but we never stopped. When we let our tired bodies rest, we can't help but feel a little tired and sleepy.

Just like koalas have the most primitive desire for trees, how much we want to deeply embrace the world and embrace everything we like. But when we show our true love to the world, we are often repelled by many problems, and therefore feel disappointed and helpless. We don’t dare to open our arms easily, don’t dare to open ourselves completely, don’t dare to get too close, don’t dare to believe too much. We are unwilling to open our own door, and at the same time we are afraid of the blizzard and the coming danger. We are stubborn to the end, either embracing the world tightly and experiencing pain and happiness; or we keep distance from the world and gain short-term clarity and a seemingly safe distance.

Sometimes I think I have found something I am proud of, something precious in the world, something I yearn for and firmly believe in. Actually it's not like that. I have enough reasons to prove that I found it, and I also have enough evidence to prove that I actually did not find it. Torn between these two thoughts, and having fun doing it. I once thought that I had found a true and beautiful relationship in a strange environment, and I believed that it would last forever. But sometimes it's not what I thought it would be. It turns out that true and beautiful emotions are not unchanged. They are passing away and aging at an extraordinary speed, even though I have tried hard to maintain them. That kind of uncontrollable chill and unstoppable passage is definitely uncomfortable, but you must hold on and give full respect and love to the emotion.

So I rested quietly, with a tired brain and a habitual smile. I curled up in my own world, kept silent, didn't fight or fight, and tried to give myself a relaxed state. Because instead of going down a dead end, it’s better to open up a new road to find the light. I don't expect too much, nor do I rely too much. I just watch silently from the side, seeing everything thoroughly in my heart, and with a smile that has no blind spots on the outside, letting others understand or not.

I curled up, not asking too much, not asking about the year, just because it was my own world, just because I was the lonely and forbearing king.

Chapter 7: After graduation, let’s break up!

I was still young at this time and didn’t understand what love was. I didn’t want to fall in love. I just wanted to study hard. Don’t ask me why. I have my own reasons. I still remember what he said to me: At your age now, you may have some affection for a certain boy, but these are just adolescent agitation, an illusion, and you don’t really like him.

I have indeed discovered that I do feel this way now, but gradually I discovered that love is still too far away for me. I should not accept his pursuit. Maybe he and I Falling in love is just about wanting to know each other better. This is not what is called liking at all. It is not like this to like someone. Besides, long-distance relationships are very hard. Aren't you tired? I still remember that I asked you which school you wanted to go to. You resolutely chose a vocational high school. You wanted to be a soldier, but you actually chose to go to my ideal university for me. In doing so, you didn’t do anything for me. I regret this and I am very happy. But at the same time I feel sorry for you.

I think this will make you very tired. Otherwise, let's break up, so you may be relieved. Don't be sad, and don't keep sinking for me, otherwise I will feel sorry for you. I never know what I think in my heart, but one thing I am sure is that I liked you, but it was just like you. Don’t get me wrong, now I dare to say it. From the heart.

Forget me, I am a humble girl not worthy of your liking. Let me tell you the truth. Someone once asked me, which one do you choose between love and career? I chose love, but I deeply understand that what is between us is not called love.

After graduation, let’s break up.

Chapter 8: Peaceful life, everything is over

A relationship that has been buried, only sighs are left in this life. Looking back at the past bits and pieces, there is no sweetness, everything is so sad, it is all over. Our feelings have also faded away, and everything has lost its meaning.

Shattered my fantasy expectations. If I failed your sincerity, why should I face it like this. What is the meaning of love? No matter how much you talk about it, it won't help. Everything has lost its original value. We will eventually regret being together!

I no longer have the strength to be sad and shed tears, and no longer have the qualifications to be decadent. I want to say goodbye to you, the person I love most in this life. I initially chose to respect you instead of my original love, and everything in the past turned into glitz. Youth finally came to an end, and everything was so sad, which made me feel so heartbroken.

It’s time for us all to become mature! I have nothing to say to what you said. What can I say in the end? Seeing that all my friends are happy, in fact we are all happy too, and we can only answer it all with a smile.

Time passes little by little, and the days have to go on as usual. Everything will never go back to the past. Today we have no other relationship. If you can say goodbye and be friends with a smile, then everything can only be like this. The love of a lifetime cannot withstand the test. Then I would rather never see it in this life.

From a long time ago, I like that you can give me another chance to go back to the past. I will always choose to continue facing the future because I will soon be able to go back to the past. But it will never be the same again, and nothing about you will appear in my space from now on.

All that is lost is lost, everything seems to be forgotten in the cold windy night, the wind blows and the rain stops, and life slowly becomes calm. After everything is over, time slowly settles down. I can only say goodbye to the person I once was.