Fear of pain but fear of death.

Tell you the truth, no one in this world can save you, only you, everything depends on yourself, even without the help of others. Who helped me when I met the hardest time in my life? Ah ... no!

And don't suppress your feelings, you will get internal injuries after a long time!

I'll reprint someone else's blog for you and give you an experience:

Excuse me, friends who are out of depression, why are you alive?

I'm sure I have depression, and there may be other problems. I stayed at home for four years. . . Although I know I am timid, going out makes me inexplicably nervous and sweaty. I always hope that strangers who come up treat me like air and don't look at me, because then I will be much more relaxed.

Two years ago, I felt so tired and depressed that I wanted to die, because I really felt that living was boring, and I kept asking myself why I was alive and why I was alive. . I also think that people should think about these things as long as they are alive. People who haven't thought about it are not people with normal IQ at all.

Today, I still haven't got rid of morbid dependence, or started my life formally. But I will never talk about death again, nor talk back to my parents with it, nor will I always pursue my purpose of living. I didn't see it, didn't take medicine, and didn't deliberately treat it, but I think I'm getting better. Anyway, more things will touch me in the days to come, and let me understand some trivial details, as well as my most sorry mother in my life. I still have self-esteem, and I want to come out, because that's what I want. Maybe life itself is good for me. . . As long as you are strong, you can find many ways. As long as you are willing to go on with your life, you can certainly get yourself out.

Although I don't know what I live for, my parents want me to live well, and I don't know why humans live. I only know that we are tiny creatures on the earth and may disappear at any time. I also don't want to study such a huge scientific or philosophical problem of human beings.

Moreover, I can't say anything about living for the sake of living, because I don't have this desire, but I understand that I am afraid of pain and death, just like most animals and plants always struggle for living and have no more thoughts. Their life is just to live. Since I don't want to die, since I don't want to do this, I might as well live. Since they want to live, they will want to be happy and let people around them experience it with you, especially those who deserve to take care of such losers silently. Living may be bitter, troublesome and tossing, so I have to face everything optimistically. If there is a next life, I would rather not exist anyway, but even if I don't want to live, I have already lived here. In a human way, I don't want to go through the process of life. I think there are still many delicious, fun, interesting and moving things to experience. Challenging yourself is also one of the pleasures of living.

Take it easy, be bold and indulge, and you will gradually find that optimism is very happy. Happy or depressed? Obviously, of course, I also had an unhappy childhood, betrayed and insulted by my friends, lacking most good memories of campus life, with some shadows of one kind or another, and so on, but I like painting, playing video games, eating food, tennis, smiling, making people laugh and exercising muscles. . I like McDonald's. Although I want to give up my stomach trouble, think about the cause, because it makes me smile bitterly and has a bad taste. I like to think too much, even fantasize, but I often despise myself because of insomnia. I used to be nervous because of lack of oxygen, in order not to get dizzy after squatting down and standing up. Then I spent a summer vacation with bandages, needles and rubber bands and lost a tooth. Think about it then. I once liked a boy like me. . . Many, many, but these are my life experiences and memories, which are very strange, but looking back a few years later, it is not painful. Now that I have become like this, what will happen in the future? Want to be better. . . To live is to understand these things, and to live can slowly find the answer. Living can make you sensible, better and better.

I am an emotional person, so I pursue spiritual life more. I think depressed people have similar characteristics, and they are more obsessed with these endless hysterical questions when they are pessimistic and negative. If we can feel that living is not bad, we will naturally understand why we live, even if we can't say it, even if we haven't got the exact answer. No matter what the standard of happiness and happiness is in everyone's heart, it will always be what we pursue. We can't walk like zombies in life, there will always be some more or less pursuits. Therefore, we should be practical, return to ourselves, be strong, mature, tolerant and even open, face the reality and experience life well. Later, I wondered why some people didn't think about these problems at all, or didn't pursue this problem at all. Maybe it's because some people are more practical and mature than us. Even when I was a child, everyone really couldn't figure out that this problem was normal. More importantly, how to grasp how to change myself in the future, what problems I will think about in the future, what I will become, learn more, and stick to it, because I will keep improving and changing.

What are you living for? Live to the day when you can disdain to think about this problem again. At that time, there was no such leisure. At this time, everyone must have their own answers. When we learn selflessness, contentment, tolerance and happiness, maybe this problem will be solved. Then I may feel that I have returned to the original point after a big circle and become as optimistic as everyone said. Living is like living. At that time, I might be able to say "live for the sake of living". Is this not good? I think many answers will always be in my own life, and now I will never say dead again. [Even if my mother scolds me and tells me to die now, I will say that I won't die, embarrassed ~], I will work hard for what I pursue, just to live happily. I may not have fully recovered, so I'm verbose, but I use my own more detailed examples to prove every conclusion made by Allen on the 4th floor. )

In short, life has ups and downs, ups and downs. No matter what you meet, try to make yourself happy every day.