In the days of accompanying me to study, my feelings ranged from anxiety to letting everything go naturally.

My son will take the senior high school entrance examination in June, the third day of this year. I didn't seem to have much sense of accomplishment during my two years with him. At first, I felt that my son was unconscious in his study, and his grades were at the bottom of the key classes. Seeing that he was under great pressure, I resigned. He went to the private school where he first lived. After I accompany you, I will pick you up every morning and evening.

At first, my son was quite obedient. He will make me recite English words, Chinese compositions, grade homework and sort out wrong questions. I didn't expect to be a different person in the second day of junior high school. Adolescent rebellion caught me off guard, and my grades got worse and worse. I was not allowed to interfere with his study. Sometimes I can't help but teach him a lesson, and he resists by throwing a stool and slamming the door.

Every night after self-study, my son always takes some homework home to make up. He will rob my mobile phone, plausibly saying that some questions will not, and Baidu search is needed. However, I found that he would take advantage of the gap between search questions, brush Tik Tok, watch news and so on. When I stopped him, he said that he brushed Tik Tok and watched the news as a way to relax. So I often sleep until 12 o'clock. Poor sleep affects the efficiency of class during the day. I said that I would sit at his desk at night, supervise his mobile phone search, limit his time to brush Tik Tok and watch the news, and he would kick me out of his room. If I am tough, he will only be tougher. Sometimes, he flies to my forehead with a book. Adolescent children are generally older than their parents and can't beat him. Children are long past the age of "being beaten if you don't listen". I really realized that adolescent children are completely unreasonable. Their temper is just a bomb that explodes a little bit, and in front of their parents, they act like "I am the boss and I am afraid of who".

According to online news, many adolescent children are forced by their parents to study, get depressed and jump off a building. Therefore, as a mother, I will try my best to control my anxiety. I will read many books and videos of educational experts. But it seems that experts' words are useful to appease parents' own emotions and useless to discipline children. Because each child's situation is different, it is difficult to apply the methods suggested by experts. Even if it is applied, it cannot be carried out.

Although I am anxious about his grades, I know that my anxiety is useless and will affect my own physical and mental health. I tried to convince myself to treat my son calmly. Because in this rebellious stage, he needs his own self-awakening and efforts to improve his grades.

If I can't change him, I will change myself. So, every night after I put dinner, fruit and milk in his room, I went back to my room to read without saying a word. He asked for a mobile phone search, so I pretended to trust him and handed it to him at once. I believe that as long as I don't worry about the lion's roar, the chicken flying and the dog jumping between mother and son will not happen.

Two months later, one day my son was sitting in my car and suddenly said to me, "Mom, I find that you don't care about my study at all." I also pretended to answer deeply: "You have grown up and you know how to learn." "Mom, I'm poor at math recently. Please help me to get a tutor! "

As a result, the intimate relationship between mother and son resumed. Of course, this is based on my not interfering with his study. I won't check whether his English text has been memorized or whether his math mistakes have been corrected in place. To be exact, I don't want to fight with adolescent children anymore. I completely let go of his study. Although it is not enough to know that he is conscious, one must learn to grow.

Time goes by day, and now the first semester of grade three is over, and the second semester has just begun. Teachers are stricter and the learning atmosphere in the class is better. My son's grades are still not improving, but they are not too bad. For example, all subjects are calculated according to 100 perfect score. It is no problem for him to get more than 80 points, but it is somewhat difficult to get 90 points. His score is at the bottom of their key class. However, if placed in an ordinary class, his grades are actually passable. It belongs to the kind of students who have difficulty in getting into key high schools but have no problem in getting into ordinary high schools.

Recently, all the courses in junior high school have been basically finished, and the senior high school entrance examination is reviewed. Basically, there are more than a dozen papers to do every day, and the students in grade three are really hard. Although my original purpose was to help him get into a key high school. But now I feel that as long as he is physically and mentally healthy, I will be satisfied with having a high school education. Because in his key class, I have met several students with full marks in science almost every time. Reading really needs talent. I accept the fact that my children are ordinary and have average qualifications.

When a child is young, the child is the mother's whole world. I am always afraid that he will fall and get hurt, and I always want to help him walk all the way. The child is old and I am shaking hands with the world.

So I made a decision not to accompany my children to high school in the future.