I failed a boy (I failed a person who loved me deeply)

Actually, falling out of love is something that not just everyone, but most people will experience, and this happened to me.

I never thought I would fall out of love, at least not so quickly. I have known her for 329 days and been in love for 178 days. I feel that I am very happy to be with her, so I put every bit of my life together. I want to tell her, I simply think she also likes to listen to me. Isn’t there a saying that if you like someone, you want to share everything with her? That’s what I think. I once imagined that I could be with her. She's been together forever.

When we first met, we talked and laughed, talked about everything, and wanted to talk about everything as a close friend. She struck me as very well-behaved, and I also liked her personality, so I talked to her. We chatted very well, and gradually I got used to chatting with her. We chatted every day, and talked about everything. After chatting for a long time, her personality gradually opened up to me. She likes to be more domineering, which happens to be the kind of person I am more introverted. Personality, her "dominance" also makes me like her, haha, we have been chatting for several months, we both intend to fall in love, so we plan to meet in person. In fact, I was not willing at first because I look so good. Not that good, and a bit fat. The photo she sent me was of a thin, slim and good-looking person. I had a bit of low self-esteem, so I was reluctant to meet him in person at first, so I delayed it for a while. During this period of time, she kept encouraging me, saying that she was not someone who judged my appearance, saying that she knew who I was after talking to me for so long, so she kept encouraging me and cheering me up, hehe, and then I agreed to meet in person.

Ahem! We said hello to each other and drove for a few minutes. We didn't say anything. There was a big difference between meeting and chatting on the phone. I broke the embarrassment and asked if I was disappointed (after all, I'm not very confident. Is that what I look like?) She said No, I smiled and lowered my head to look at my phone or whatever. I didn’t know how I got over this whole journey. Anyway, it was a bit awkward. She was also very nice and said a few words from time to time to ease it.

I didn’t go back and she didn’t go back either (it was too late). I won’t talk about what happened that night when I opened a hotel nearby...

From that day on, our relationship was official. When we became boyfriend and girlfriend, we said good morning and good night to each other every day, which lasted for a long time.

I won’t write about what happened during the relationship.

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I also had some problems in the relationship. She was angry because of my fault, and I tried my best to make her happy. But this time, I got better and I annoyed her again after a while. Maybe I just have this kind of personality. I also hate myself. Maybe it was this little friction that caused her. Please tell me the reason why you broke up with me later.

In the past few weeks, she has been replying to my messages intermittently. I am a fragile person who is prone to random thoughts. If she didn’t reply to my messages, I kept asking and asking. She said that she was so tired. Maybe I didn’t understand it at the time. She just said that she should take a good rest if she is tired

She said that I brought a lot of negative energy to her, and I always gave her a crying and aggrieved expression, which made her feel that she was a boy. She said that sometimes she was very happy. When the message came to me, she treated her as if she was not in the mood, saying that she originally just wanted to calm down and sort out her emotions, but she said that I pressed her step by step (I kept sending her messages) and said that this emotion does not just happen in a moment, but is accumulated over time. In the end, he said it would be nice to just be friends and he didn’t want to think about it so much.

I felt really wronged at the time. I simply thought I posted those expressions because I thought she was cute. I wanted to act coquettishly and say those negative things to her because I liked her and wanted to share everything with her. I really didn’t know at the time. When I did something wrong, I kept trying to persuade her to soften her mind. I seemed to get her to change her mind, but she ignored me (it was too late and she should go to bed). I kept explaining and trying to save her, and finally I let her go. At that time, I really cried secretly at work.

When I woke up the next day and saw her replying to my message, I cried again, thinking like a child. I told her a lot, but she still didn’t change her mind.

I said I was a People with low self-esteem are ugly and fat. Since I was a child, I have been unable to accept the eyes of others and think that they look down on me. Fortunately, meeting her made me experience what happiness is. The time spent with her is really happy... there are many, many, but nothing. In the end, I don’t know what my state of mind was when I let go again

I thought about it for a long time that afternoon, but I still couldn’t bear to accept it, so I said it would be okay if we meet to talk. She didn’t agree and said that we couldn’t explain it in person. I also knew that she was also very sad. I sent her a lot of messages but she didn’t reply to me

I called her and she answered. Her voice was very low. I kept asking her why she wanted to break up. She kept asking if we could break up. She said no. There was no reason why she wanted to break up with me. I only thought about myself and not for her. Could it be that she should be wronged just because I was sad and hurt? I was silent at the time. I didn’t know what to say. After talking on the phone for half an hour, she hung up and I called again. I typed and sent a lot of messages without answering them. She replied a few words, all of which were impossible and had to be divided

Please let me go

She sent me this sentence I have nothing to say to make her say this. Maybe she is really desperate for me. I don't bother her anymore

I said, "There is a song called There is a kind of love called letting go. It's right for me." I love you, but I can't delay you, right? After all, I can't make you sad, but you must be happy. If you are unhappy at all, remember to tell me and I will always look at you.

After saying that, I proposed It was me who said we broke up this time.

I think about her every day and I feel like crying when I think about her. Maybe it’s because I’m not worthy of being in a relationship. I really regret that I don’t have the ability to comfort the other person.

Hayao Miyazaki said: When the person accompanying you is about to get off the car, even if you are reluctant to leave, smile and wave goodbye.

Although psychological chicken soup is useless, it tastes good. Everyone understands it, but when you really understand it, you will find that you are not as good as you.