Talking about life is at the right time.

Forget yourself for someone,

Don't expect results,

Do not ask for peers,

Don't ask for what you once had,

I don't even ask you to love me,

Just ask that in my most beautiful years,

Meet you.

? -Xu Zhimo, "Forget yourself"

Xu Zhimo was an affectionate genius in the Republic of China. His literary talent is amazing and his reputation is far-reaching All his life, he didn't seek fame and fortune, didn't seek worldly vision, and just wanted to be with the people he loved. I was attracted by Xu Zhimo's romance and fascinated by his talent, but after reading the stories of Lin, Lu Xiaoman and Zhang Youyi, I may have a more comprehensive understanding of him. In the current words, "I love his talent, not this person."

19 15 years, Xu Zhimo and Zhang Youyi, who had never met before, got married under the arrangement of their parents. Xu's parents are very satisfied with the daughter-in-law they chose, but Xu Zhimo doesn't like it at all. Influenced by new ideas, Xu Zhimo has been longing for free love. He opposed the arranged marriage of feudal parents from the bottom of his heart. Perhaps for this reason, Xu Zhimo never knew Zhang Youyi, and when he saw Zhang Youyi's photo, he said "hillbilly" in disgust. After marriage, Xu Zhimo has never really met Zhang Youyi, and even fulfilling the basic obligation of marriage is only to follow the wishes of his parents to have grandchildren. When he learned that Zhang Youyi was pregnant, Xu Zhimo might also exult in his heart. But instead of celebrating having a child, he can finally leave this home. He knew that Zhang Youyi's pregnancy gave birth to his parents' desire to have grandchildren, and his parents had no reason to stop him from studying abroad.

1920, Xu Zhimo wrote home and begged his father to let Zhang Youyi go to England for reunion. Everyone thought it was a letter from a distant husband who missed his wife, but there was a huge "conspiracy" behind it. Xu Zhimo deceived Zhang Youyi to England, not because he missed her, but because he wanted a divorce. Xu Zhimo knew that after he returned to China, his marriage would never be separated from his parents' obstruction. In fact, Xu Zhimo met Lin soon after he arrived in England. He was so lost in a love affair that he couldn't wake up. The sensible Lin told him, "If you want to talk about us, you can wait until you get divorced." This is the real purpose of Xu Zhimo's earnest hope that Zhang Youyi will come to Britain.

After arriving in England, Zhang Youyi was pregnant again, but when Xu Zhimo knew about it, he resolutely let Zhang Youyi abort the child. Zhang Youyi told him: "I heard that someone lost his life because of abortion." Xu Zhimo actually replied: "There are still people who died because of the train accident. Don't people take the train? " How rude it is to say such things to your wife. See Zhang Youyi don't agree, Xu Zhimo also just walk away, leaving Zhang Youyi, who can't speak language and is pregnant, alone in London. Many years later, even Zhang Youyi, who was beaten black and blue by Xu Zhimo, said, "Of all the women Xu Zhimo has seen, I probably love him the most."

1922, Zhang Youyi and Xu Zhimo went through the divorce formalities in Germany, but Xu Zhimo missed Lin after all. Lin finally returned to China with his father. Lin wrote in a letter to Xu Zhimo: "I am still an immature girl. I dare not throw myself into that dangerous whirlpool at once, causing misunderstandings and accusations from relatives and friends, embarrassment and embarrassment of society. " When Xu Zhimo saw Lin again, she was already the fiancee of Liang Sicheng, the son of Liang Qichao's teacher. But Xu Zhimo knew that she was not married, so she didn't want to give up. He invited Lin to come to Xiangshan to talk to her in the evening, and even came to see Lin in front of Liang Sicheng. Later, even Liang Qichao couldn't sit still and wrote him a long letter. The general idea is: "don't base your happiness on the pain of others." Your practice, regardless of whether you can be with Yin Hui in the future, has brought pain to people. " Xu Zhimo turned a blind eye to this and dug the corner unswervingly. Finally, Lin and Liang Sicheng went to study in the United States together, which broke his last thought.

At this time, Xu Zhimo was heartbroken, but fate seemed to give him another arrangement. 1922, Xu zhimo met Lu Xiaoman in Beijing after returning from studying abroad. But at this time, Lu Xiaoman has become Wang Geng's wife, and Xu Zhimo and Wang Geng are good friends. Because of his busy work, Wang Geng was away from home for a long time, so he entrusted Lu Xiaoman to Xu Zhimo for care. In the long run, he fell in love with his best friend's wife, Lu Xiaoman, and made no secret of his feelings. In his letter to Lu Xiaoman, he wrote: "Don't be a white and beautiful little sheep and let the butcher with a bloody face murder it with a sharp knife." Obviously, "Little Sheep" refers to Lu Xiaoman, while "Butcher" refers to Wang Geng. He kept urging Lu Xiaoman to leave her "cruel" husband and her "vulgar" parents and just go with him. In less than two years, the two sides have fallen in love. Under his onslaught, Lu Xiaoman was determined to start a new life, even killing Wang Geng's children.

At the wedding of Xu and Lu, Liang Qichao, as a witness, published a unique marriage speech in the past: "Xu Zhimo, you are impetuous, so that you can't learn anything, and it is a failure to be a man." Your divorce and remarriage prove that you are not a love expert! Lu Xiaoman, you and Xu Zhimo are both experienced people. I hope that from now on, you can follow the path of women and review your personality and behavior. Divorce and remarriage are all caused by your personality fault. I hope you won't make any more mistakes ... May this be your last marriage. " It can be seen that the love between Xu and Lu was "vigorous" at that time.

After marriage, they are not as happy as they thought. Because of Lu Xiaoman's extravagant life, extravagance and waste, and even smoking opium, and Xu's father cut off Xu Zhimo's financial support, Xu Zhimo had to run around in multiple jobs. After a big fight with Lu Xiaoman, Xu Zhimo boarded the mail train and flew to Beijing, because Lin had a speech that day, and he promised to attend. Finally, he stood me up and didn't attend Lin's speech. His plane crashed into a mountain in the fog.

Although Xu Zhimo's life is short, it is vigorous. I admire his courage to pursue love bravely, but I am afraid of his selfish love. Zhang Ailing once said that we were born in the best times and also in the worst times. I think the philosophical nature of this sentence can be confirmed by Xu Zhimo. Although there was no precedent for divorce in his time, and people's minds were not yet open, it was an era of preference for sons over daughters, and people would think it was Zhang Youyi's fault more, but less prejudice against Xu Zhimo. Coupled with the underdeveloped information circulation at that time, the spread of this matter has always been limited, and everyone will not know. If Xu Zhimo's story takes place in this era of globalization, even if he no longer interferes with his free marriage, his ruthlessness to Zhang Youyi will attract many people's abuse!